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So everything has been pretty lame around here lately. Be getting deleted by "actual friends" on facebook and myspace. I know it shouldnt really bother me, but with the amount of working im doing, facebook really is my only connection with some people. I dont know, maybe they just think they are better than me, or above me in some way. Kinda makes me wanna stab someone. plus i might be losing my job soon so im prolly gonna have to deactivate any pay site i go to, including this one. Again, not really that big a deal just one less thing to entertain me when my ADHD kicks into overdrive. So yea, life kinda sucks right now, and i dont really know what to do about it. life was simpler when i could just throw on my headphones and everything else didnt matter.
Love Life Sucks + Work Life Sucks + Depression and ADHD = 1 unhappy camper.
well enough of this sad sack shit.
Later
Dr.EW
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Julene
listen i know people say all the time it's just the internet but having "actual friends" delete you sucks. and it hurts your feelings and i don't think there's anything wrong with that.
you need cookies. i think they would cheer you up.
Matilda
sorry to hear all of this
i hope you dont lose your job
and things get better
sickophant420
I feel better now, sort of. What sucks the most about the situation is that, one of the people who deleted me, is probably the one person who could do the least and still make me feel better. If that makes any sense. Some people wonder why i keep to myself alot and why i dont really make friends to easily. Its always "Your so nice, and outgoing around me. I dont understand how everybody doesnt like you" and i have to explain to that person, and i have, that i have to reach a certain level of comfort with a person before I will be myself around them. Which is sad in its own right. i went through so much of my life being an outcast and a loner, then when i actually do meet people i want to spend time with, it never materializes. Im not sayin i dont love all my friends, but most of the time (person i mentioned earlier being one big one) the people i would much rather be with, want nothing to do with me. its just depressing.
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Ah, the burden of a combined situational and chemical depression. I'm sorry.
If I can do anything to put a smile on your face, you let me know. :-)