shotgun77cure

i dont do long journals

 

but help im in such a sad mood i feel so lonely tonite

 

 

I dont know any of u very well but help please

 

 

im feel kinda of pathetic for askin but u all seem real cool so im coming to u

hey everyone i just open an aim account so if u want send me an invite my screen name is the same "shotgun77cure"  look forward to chat with u all

later

happy halloween all my friends get fucked up and scare some people !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

as in my previous journal i just got out of a relationship so  here it goes in 2004 i was living in florida and meet this girl online.... she lived in hawaii and she was 10 years younger than me... we started to talk every day online and on the phone so two months after i meet her i went to hawaii four 5 days and i knew she was the one and that i loved her so i i decided to move there i quit my job let my car get reposesed pissed alot of people off and flew to be with her the day after thanksgiving....... we lived in hawaii for a year and moved states side we ended up in ohio my home state well things were going good and then i got laid off i was working odds and ends jobs we were gettin by but things were tough.... well my birthday was jul 10 she bought me a b-day cake took me to the movies i thought everything was great went to work the next and when i got home she was upset and told me she was leaving me that she was moving to texas to live with her parents that they were going to pay her bills and put her thru school... she told me she loved me but couldnt be with me that the last two years were a waste and that i was holding her back.... so she left i told her that all i wanted was her to be happy but it ripped my hearrt out and i wasnt sure how iwas going to get by... i had move out of my apartment because i couldnt afford it had to move in with family... i was in bad shape and the worst part is that she still wants to talk to me on myspace and she still tells me how she still loves me and misses me but i think im finnaly at that place to let go and start living agian.. i still love her but i gotta do wat i gotta do to stay saine and survive with the help of family and friends ive done that.... and believe it or not u guys have helped also u all r cool u dont judge ur beautiful women and u still take the time to type me back so thank u for helpin me get thru the toughest ting that ever happened to me... if u want to know more about me ask i love to meet new people i diffently dont mind makeing new friends..... :)

well friday night i went out for the first time in fours years and to make it even better went to the chacha bar(strip club).. and i had an awesome time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:) i have been in  a relationship for 4 years she walked out on me in july so it was really good to go out and have fun...... i spent to much money but fuck it i say but i wanted to share my enjoyment so whoo hoo...... now i need to hang with some gods girls to see how partyin is really done................