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06/02/08 07:31 pm
pst
yeah, i posted a total dickhead journal entry. it was just my thoughts one random night at one in the morning about 2 or 3 months ago... but i guess it was kinda fucked up. and i didn't think anyone i knew would read it, but apparently someone here knows someone i know who is very close to someone the post was partly about. and while the post wasn't meant to be read by people i know in person, it was also supposed to be complimentary, in a way.
basically i had met these two girls and liked them both, and was looking for advice about what to do. no one responded, so no big deal. and then the following weeks dictated my decision for me anyway - i mean, i ended up hanging out with one girl, and the other was always too busy or travelling or something... so that was that.
anyway, someone here saw my post and forwarded it to a buddy of mine, who is really close with the girl i haven't really hung out with. then she forwarded it to my friend, who told me. understandably, both he and she were very upset. so i called her and apologized, and she accepted my apology (via text message - does that count? i feel like i still owe her an apology). and i still feel really bad about it. i definitely didn't mean to offend anyone. i guess i should make my entries private if they're just a cathartic thing.
and i'm really sad because this guy is really cool. i really like hanging out with him and girl. and my friend is good friends with them, so i'm sure i'll see them around at some point, and i really don't want it to be drama. i mean, it's fine... if i see them i can just leave. i feel really bad and don't want to put either of them out or make them feel weird. it just sucks 'cause we all have a good time when we hang out and now i've fucked it up.
i hate when i do stupid shit like this.
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