nexus6

so i never got up pics of thailand... yeah... well they're all on my myspace which i think most of the two people that look at this are on my friends list.. they're also on my face book if you need that... other wise they may never be up... im just too lazy to keep track of every page...

i started looking up info on sport bikes today im gonna go to a shop soon and talk to them about finding a good class to take and a good starter bike, im thinking of starting on a 500cc cause i've been told a couple times that i'll out grow a 250 too fast.... i hope to be buying a bike this spring :) i cant wait!!! yay!!

other then that absolutly no love interests.... just enjoying life being single.. which is basically just hanging out with my friends having fun!! YAY FUN!!!

ufc is this sat!! GO COTURE!!!!

AND i put up some pics only a few from halloween

its been over a year since me and my ex broke up and ive felt like i wanted someone there the whole time, not being happy being single.. but this week i dont know what it is but i feel great about it and am starting to feel like i dont even want a relationship right now... im finally starting to feel ok being alone... :) it does help that one of my girlfriends stays over every once and a while :P

i was faded as fuck last weekend... i wasnt even planing on it.. so i did go to that show on friday and smoked but wtv the show was bad ass grayskul premiered their new video missing, mad rad has an awesome stage show teh cd is alright, and josh martinez was halarious and awesome as always.. so i only had four beers before i left my house but with in the first 30-40 minutes i had three more and was quickly ordering more.. after that i lost count but i dont believe i stopped drinking the whole time.. anyways after the show me and my neighbor who came down right at the end were leaving and i have no idea how but ended up talking to these two girls so we walked back up to my place but i dont think we walked inside.. although i could be wrong.. then he had to leave and the girl i was talking to her friend wanted to go home and what craziness they live two blocks up so i tagged along and steph the girl i was talking to hooked me up with another beer and then had to attend to her friend who i guess puked all over their bathroom, i was watching boris videos on tv while they did that so i had fun, then she didnt want to stay there so we came back to my place but thats when i blacked out...... so i dont know what happened after that except that i woke up in my bed with her next to me... im pretty sure i just passed out when we got back to my place so totally down on points there...

so sat she suggested going to breakfast and im still drunk as hell from the night before so im like hell yeah, we go to norms i have a couple more beers and eat like half my food, the alcohol didnt make me hungry... so she had to go to work so she left and my briend brad was coming over around like one which ended up being like 2, but i took a couple hour nap before he showed up and then had four more beers then he left at like almost 4..  im even more drunk.. ohh we had pizza that was the last thing i think i ate.. then i took another nap till a little after 6 when my friend tanya called me.. so ufc starts at 7 so i got up kinda feeling like the hang over was near but still drunk, took a quick shower and then sat down and my friend brian came over so i started drinking more beer then randy showed then tanya then brian showed up for a little then james and ian for a bit.. well i had like 8or so beers during the three hour event in which liddel got his ass knocked the FUCK out!!! thats the last count i had after that me and ian went to another show and i dont know what i drank there but i did buy a dub sack off some random dudes that were all serious about it, surprisingly it was a good bag not skimped and good bud, but then we went to my neighbor willshouse and rolled a spliff so i got mad stoned and then paranoid and then i had to leave, well when i got home it was straight to the toilet for me... im still hurting from it, i figure tomorrow i might feel normal... maybe..

they were going to move a house up my street sat night but i couldnt stay for it seeing as how i had so much fun i made myself sick...

i was out of my bed on sunday for maybe 4 hours total just to lay on the couch and watch a couple movies... :/

emily msg'd me sat night too and she had a couple siezures that morning and was throwing up everytime she moved and her friend and her thinks someone put something in her drink.. that made me very very upset.. she is ok but still doesnt feel good.. :(

me on the other had just got sad yesterday for certain reasons namely im pretty much down to a choice.... either keep feeling and break my own heart or kill it and be misserable.. lots of reasons why ive come to this conclussion but i dont believe it will change... im goign to just try to not think about it untill after this trip... i cant say anything to her before cause i dont want it to be all wierd.. and i dont know if it will come up there, i do know if we start fooling around im gonna stop it cause i already like her too much and friends with benys wont work like that.. the worst part is the feeling is just getting stronger and stronger... ive set myself up to get hurt ohh so wonderful..!!

other then that im happy... kinda... i mean thats a big part of how i feel... so...

im getting close to having all my music on the computer finally... i also got my room cleaned yay!!

i love my cats!!!!!!! >.<