matthew's journals

(i wish i knew the name of the song)
"we've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires and movie GODS and rock stars.

 but we wont. 

Im slowly learing that fact. 

and we're very very pissed off."

i live in this old 70's house with a crappy wood panel wall the looks like grandma's basement kinda pervy wall...i feel like i have shot  the pervy panel wall too many times for gg..and the old grandma chair..it looks trashy??

hey!!!! "plaid on plaid" that's hot!!  i picked up a tan leather loveseat today.  it is much newer looking.

tonight i met the man that my wife left me for..he was driving my old truck...his name is benjamin..i have always known but i never thought i would have to see "him".  i am very very very very sad...in my 70's house with the crappy wood panel wall.  jesse james is asleep above me in my bunk bed.  i feel worse than i have ever felt in my life.. i am so fucking sad in this place..all the roommates hate me and jesse james doesnt want to come over to see me here (i dont blame him, this place is scary at night)

i have been processing sets with this this "low contrast" look but..it soetiems looks kinda bland to me??

i'm with stupid except the arrow on my tee shirt points to my own face.

i am dealing with some legal crap again today.  i studied two years of entertainment law in college, except i can never understand any of this kinda words.

"A general release does not extend to the claims which the creditor does not know or expect to exist in his favor at the time of executing the Release, which if known by him must have materially affected his settlement with the debtor."

Sounds fishy to me....it ALWAYS sounds like i am getting screwed ( psssh i wish i was getting screwed just not by a high priced lawyer dude)

i think i got a couple cool shots, but today just seemed really really really long.  i was almost at the end of the day when i had a camera body die and i was forced to use the 30d back up body.  i hate that camera.  cameras dont last long enough.

today started like every other day

(with me deleting my journal entires). except this time i got $$$ for doing it.  PS the "year of matthew" mentality works out good for me sometimes.."stick it to the man"

and ended with me editing gay guys making out naked. except it is PG rated

stiletto helped me out on the shoot today. 

she was sandwiched b/t the two guys. but you will never see it.

thanks stiletto..yer the best!

i keep getting myspace spam "about size does matter".  for some reason i cannot delete the comments from my page..it only says a "message has been sent to the myspace technical group".  sometimes i wonder if it is annaliese fucking around with me again.

Ok so now is the time, better now then never to tell you the truth about what all GODSGIRLS have on their mind and how they lie when they say that size does not matter. Take it from me, I am DYING proof that can confirm for you that the size and thickness of your prick does mean so much to all GODSgirls and if you can not satisfy a GODSgirl like the guys with big meatpoles do, then they will find a guy who can.
My bro MATTHEW heard about these GODSGIRLS on myspace a few months back and he ordered like 1 MEMBERSHIPS, I know cause I found them stashed under his bed and he caught me snooping then told me all about his MEMBERSHIP and that they made him grow almost 3 inches in two months and it got real thick too every single night when he was LOOKING AT THE WEBSITE. He got them from this WEBSITE just copy and paste it in your browser. GODSGIRLS.COM
Best of all, the GODSGIRLS do NOT work, MATTHEW is living proof and I have no reason to lie for him, all the GODSgirls surround him now like he is some celeb, and he says its all cause of these little MODELS from GODSGILS.COM
Oh ya, just so you know, they guarentee that the WEBSITE will work on any man OR WOMAN or you get whatever you paid right back, OR NOT so instead of thinking about doing it, just go to GODSGIRLS.COM now and show the ladies what you are made of.
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ps SPAM IS A WEIRD WORD

friday i was murdered.

tomorrow i will rise from the dead.

i broke my ankel...angelique  brought me some viacdin

this is eden..she is my roommate.  she goes down to hollywood and highland near that chinese theatre and hangs out with a demon posing for tourist pictures..

 i crawled out of my room this morning and the clowns were still going strong.  they sleep two hours and spray on a little deordorant and go back out to "CLOWN"..i guess it is called "clowning"  there is one girl clown who is cute.  maybe i have a thing for girl clowns, but she is sexy.  ima creep.  i took a lot of shots of her duh?  my house is trashed.  the clowns left for another party.  i should have gone with them..i kinda wanted to but i am still trying to recover from the "crash of 2007"  i don't have a copy of photoshop cs2.  today i will be editing of PS 6.  pathetic.

i shot some headshots and commercial shots for the video game store dude jason's girlfriend LIZ. 

she was super nice..it is her first thing ever..i tihnk she was a bit nervous??