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bruised and broken... posted : 07/12/09 at 08:49am pst

i'm feeling pathetic.

two full days of doing nothing but curling up into a ball and sobbing...even when i start to get angry at him for ending things, i just start to cry again. Anytime I talk to anyone, I start to cry. The more days that go by without him calling me, the more sure I am that he's doing fine, that hes not missing me, and that despite him saying that he wants to, he won't come back to me.

on the positive, i did make it through two days without calling, texting or emailing him. also, my friend dragged me out to the mall yesterday and i bought a really hot dress to wear the next time i have to see him...*sigh*

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Anya
07/12/09 03:02pm pst

stay strong!

loveisthedrug
07/12/09 03:18pm pst

i am trying. part of me wants to beg him to come back and part of me wants to tell him to fuck off.

Anya
07/13/09 01:24am pst

if there is a part of you that feels already that he needs to stay out of your life that's a good beginning. i know it's bloody hard but i guess you know that you gonna get better over time.even if you can't feel it yet. <3

loveisthedrug
07/13/09 02:25pm pst

if i thought it would work i'd do anything to get him back...the anger is only temporary right now...unfortunately.

Anya
07/14/09 03:53am pst

i hope you'll get better soon.for these are three stages sad,angry,better :)

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