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So it’s done. I’m never good at breaking up with someone and I like to do it in person (circumstances don’t permit this), it feels cheap over the phone or on IM, but I did it. So now I’m single again. It feels kind of weird, honestly.
Megin didn’t take it too well, tears and stuff. And that didn’t make it any easier (should it have been easy?). I don’t handle women crying well. It freaks me out. And I got the all time best comment of “Whatever it is, we’ll get through it, I’ll change if you want me to!” You shouldn’t have to change for someone damn it; people fail to realize that if you change yourself to fit a relationship, it’s a lie.
So I kinda feel like an uber prick for it all, but I always do after these things. We’ve agreed to stay friends but I think it’s going to take her some time. Well, it’s going to take both of us some time, it’s kind of hard to be friends right after breaking up, assuming you’ve been together for awhile. And I think she’s going to be pissed off at me. That’s kind of a given.
I don’t really know what to do right now. Kind of want a drink but I have to work tomorrow. So I’m going to do something I haven’t done in awhile and that’s not think. And I’m going to do this by plugging in my Zune and listening to Chiodos, Lamb of God, Dog Fashion Disco, Mindless Self Indulgence, and all the other loud and weird shit I can find.
On a side note, this means I won’t be moving to Gainesville (I was going to move there to be closer). So I need to figure out where I’m going to live in six months. I think I might move back down to South Florida, but nothing is set in stone, anyone need a roommate in a place that has a decent college and doesn’t have retarded gun laws?
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jnbccfl
Yeah, I just wish I could have made it easier on her. I don't care about me, I can handle it. But she was pretty tore up about it and that sucks.
I've always wanted to visit London. I just hope the drinks are stronger than the states lol
totaltech
Yeah. That was the hardest part for me when I broke up with my ex and one of the reasons I avoided if for so long but eventually I couldn't cope with living the lie anymore. She's happy as a sandgirl these days, so we both know it was for the best.
Bring your wallet, we're going to get your drink on. I hope you're not an angry drunk :p
jnbccfl
That's the same reason why I've waited so long, and I kept thinking that when I got back everything would change and I know it won't.
How does 2 grand sound for a night of drinking? Not sure how much it adds up to in pounds but it's a fun party around here lol. Just whatever you do, don't give me tequila or I will attempt to destroy pretty much anything around me and with out any clothes on. It's a bad sight.
totaltech
If the two of us spend $2k on booze with the way the dollar is right now, nothing, ourselves included, will survive.
A few hundred ought to do you just fine. :p
As for tequila, apart from frozen margharitas I don't touch the stuff. Rancid, horrid, vicious, evil concotion that it is.
jnbccfl
a few hundred it is then, I'd like to survive the experience.
Thank God! another soul who thinks that stuff is evil! Put it this way, think of a small framed guy, standing about 69cm and 150lbs, thinking he's the hulk and can fly. You now have an idea of me on tequila.
totaltech
I hope that was supposed to say 169cm otherwise I'm probably going to have to have some drinking-stilts made for you..
jnbccfl
lol sorry, used to inches. 69 inches
totaltech
Dammit man, you gotta be careful with that shit :p - didn't NASA blow up a billion dollar programme because the europeans who wrote the software were dealing in metric and they were dealing in imperial?
jnbccfl
Lol, why do you think I joined the Army instead of going over to NASA? They're a bit testy about the whole conversion thing now haha
totaltech
"How far away is that target?"
"I don't know, 6?"
"Clarify, klicks or miles?"
"Does it matter? We're about to throw something at them that is going to destroy 5 square miles of terrain."
"I suppose you're right. Off she goes then. *foomf*"
docmolove
just wanted to add muh 2 cents//hopefully the girl in this situation will be a resilient person like yourself. :) break ups SUCK...
but TN is pretty lax about gun laws.. and they have 2 or 3 good schools.
jnbccfl
They do, I've never been good at them which is why, aside from this last relationship, I don't date that often.
My uncle lives in TN it's always a blast when I go out there, I'll definately look into it
Skylar
Breakup's stink no matter how you do it. though in person is the best. You're right if you have to change to fit into the relationship, then it's bullshit.
Florida is nice. I'd like to live there.
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There is never a good time or a good way (well, there can be, but we're talking about such tiny percentages that it may as well be never).
You've dated for a long time and known each other a lot longer, and while it's sure as hell not my place to tell either of you how to live your lives I think you'll realise given some time to reflect that it wasn't working for either of you - it's not anyone's fault.
Come through London before you go back and we'll go get wasted.