inkofthesoul

sitting at home tonight.

hit me up on aim: andrewgillmi

and let's arrange something.

new tattoo/car/apartment pictures to be posted in next entry, i promise.

a thing that really hurts me, is when people contact me only when they need something. i feel like i am a very nice, generous, caring person who does what he can for the people he cares about.

for example, what just happened with my ex (i know, im sick of talking about her too). last week, i sent her a text to ask about her first day back at school, and never got a response. now, i did this to show that although i am against her going back to school (she already has a bs in film and certification in theatre, it was time for her to start her life and get a job), i am supporting her no matter what. and she ignores me. and now i get a text from her asking for piercing advice for her friend (who was more than likely the guy who she's with now and didnt want to admit it).

now, this is just only the recent happening that sparked this ranting. it has been happening with all of my colleagues and most of the new friends i have made.

i am just getting tired of being taken advantage of.

so, i didn't get any work done yet :( but i have a long weekend next week and hoping to get my work done then.

other than that, i am still moving forward and still getting settled in my apartment.

on a side note, i have been getting a lot of community requests lately. is there some kind of secret add andrew thread that i don't know about? either way, i appreciate the show of love. hi to all my new friends on  here.

love you all <3

i woke up this morning with this frantic need for a new tattoo. i don't really know why. i've been designing my tattoos over the last month, after taking a few months off from it. and i have been trying to resist and save money. but i just desiring one more than ever. i think it's because i am feeling good, want to mark it and move forward in my rehab (it's not just for drug addicts). there will be reprocussions (sp?) from my family, who i am supposedly going to see in sept. but i am really trying to stay positive and move forward.

so this weekend has been suprisingly awesome. it did start out with the person i was supposed to go to warped tour with today randomly deciding to not go which left me with 2 tickets and out some money. and i did get flaked on by a co-worker friday, but i handled it pretty well. i didn't focus on what a loser i am and why i can't make any friends. i just hung out at home and enjoyed relaxing. im proud of myself. saturday i received a new fridge, and this one works which i am stoked about. i was getting really sick of room temp bottled water. and now i can have stuff to make at home instead of blowing a ton of money on eating out. then ran a bunch of errands, found the things i needed which i have been looking for, for the last two weeks. and found kick ass parking spots at all the places i went. and was suprised with a ton of vinyl in my po box, yay for rare against me! and the force records. and my grandma (on my dad side) sent me a cool penguin sculpture type thing, when she is famous for really bad presents. i also did a little shopping and found some really cute stuff for work, which i needed something new, but then i realise i don't like spending money. such a curse, loving shopping but hate spending money, shit needs to be cheaper. then a new industry accquaintance and i were supposed to go a show, but she flaked on me. which bummed me out, flaked on 3 times in 2 days. but i got home and got an invite to hang out with the amazing amor and had a great time. she has such a good heart and deserves the best. i adore her so much <3

this weekend was such a nice change in comparison to last weekend. so i will not dwell, i'll give the short version. fought with the ex on friday nite over the phone, making me realise things that i didnt want to ever think about happening. sat the fridge repair guy said that the factory fucked up and i will have to get a new fridge, but not able until sat. on my way to talk to my landlords, i get pulled over for rolling through a stop sign in my neighborhood which i stopped at but traffic court will belive him over me so why argue it. this is why i hate suburbs, bored cops with nothing better to do than harass residents. then i find out theree is no progress on my jacked up carpet that was stained when i moved in (which is still not been taken care of, once i get the manager on the phone, im going to flip on him). then i got ignored by the only person i knew during a group hang out making me feel very awkward. then just really depressed on sunday and felt very alone. i almost made arrangements to go move back to georgia, but that would do more harm than good.

so i think i am going to hop in the shower, run some errands, maybe comeback with a tattoo, and then comeback, clean a bit and relax and watch some famiy guy. i dont care how many times i've seen every episode, i can still watch that for hours. i can do that with scrubs too.

i had quite an eventful week. got kind of rough during parts, but i believe a overall positive event.

i moved from hollywood to burbank on thursday. the process which has been a long and difficult one (started a few weeks ago) with heartbreak, stress, time constriants, and loneliness. but after all of this, i am suprizingly content with my new home (which i didnt see until i moved in, i only saw a mediocure model), have learned that no matter what bind i get in, i can handle it myself, that i am ok on my own (had a hard time with the fact that how my left was on track and looked good then have everything fall apart), and though i was devistated and lost when all fell apart, it can result in good. while being in hollywood for 5 hrs while my car got worked on, i may have made a friend, found a potential label signing, found a potential future employee, ran into a co-worker on the street and turned him into a friend, and learned that i am going to be ok, i can still have a life after things falling apart and i can be ok with just being by myself.

i can say i am proud of myself (which is very rare). i actually got myself a present, a pretty 37" samsung lcd tv. i love that thing. it big, pretty, and was on sale for $200 less that the normal price.  

i finally got to go to a resturant that i've been wanting to try for a while, kitchen24 on chauenga. the place is awesome. the feel and decor is so cool. their lamp shades were made out of forks, spoons, and knives. the food was great, modern diner with a bit of gourmet. i had gingerbread panckaes with an apple compote that was so good. that and being far from ameoba is the only real downside to leaving hollywood at the moment.

well i got a bit of unpacking to do. i am trying for a little bit different feel this time. i think i want a more simplified feel to it, but with a tasteful way of displaying all of my stuff. cuz i love my stuff. penguins, music posters and memorabilia, and some of my geekyness.

i am glad to be making friends on here. all of them are so sweet. i love you all!

wow... it's weird to be positive