hillakilla's journals

so i finally saw the dark knight tonight... a little late. it came out on my birthday and i was supposed to go then, but it sold out. the lady and i have been too busy since then, so i finally went on a mandate with one of my friends. super good movie though, thoroughly enjoyable. added bonus being that my brother's gf works at the theatre so everything was half priced.

waking up early (9:30...i've been super lazy lately) to golf tomorrow. first time in a while. i might even walk.

There are pictures of my sweet beard in my profile...i had to be allowed to shave my neck so i can go to work... i've been working at it so long... it's really pathetic

i really don't have anything to write about... just bored at home right now, and i can't get to sleep. Although just as i started this, i'm kinda noticing that i'm finally getting tired, so this might be short.

i'm reading a book right now, which i really don't do too often, i tell myself i hate reading, but then whenever i do it, i find it very enjoyable. right now i'm actually rereading a book i had for an econ class in school, called Fair Play. I really like the way the author puts things into a new perspective, the guy is very much a capitalist, and wants less government interaction/taxation and such. i agree with lots of what he has to say, which makes for an easy read. I'm gonna send it to one of my friends when i'm through, because i'm pretty sure he doesn't feel the same way, but i'd like to hear his views on it.

anyway, not trying to sound like i'm some kind of intellectual, just my thoughts on the evening.
i think i might update some pictures tomorrow... i got dragged into a beard growing contest with some friends, and i'm totally losing, it's pretty crappy looking.

peace out

so anyway, this is just a reply that i copied and pasted from the forum, but it's my thoughts about purgatory voting... To me, it's not serious business, therefore nothing can really be said for or against any particular vote, meaning that in actuality, i feel that even voting yes for no reason is perfectly acceptable, however, this is how i feel if you are of the belief that there is something wrong with voting no for no reason, but there is nothing wrong with voting yes for no reason. in the end, to each their own, and this is mine:

of course it's petty, but arguably less so than yes votes. If i'm voting no for such a pointless or illogical reason like some that i have mentioned, then it means that nothing has jumped out, or appealed to me in the profile in the slightest bit. not even enough to overcome a silly reason that has no bearing on the issue. If there had been something in the profile that i liked, it would have trumped whatever was leading me towards a no vote.
so basically a no vote for a dumb reason is the same thing as saying "nothing really stood out to me" which i don't think is disrespectful, or at the very worst, far less disrespectful than saying, "i think she's a stupid highschooler" or "her teeth are kinda fucked up"

to me, voting yes for no good reason other than being nice, or because you don't want to vote no, is basically like saying, "well there was nothing WRONG with her profile, so i guess she CAN make it" which is not the attitude i think the site should have. that could be seen as disrespectful to the women who do possess the extraordinary characteristics that define a god's girl by "cheapening" the status of god's girl. (i'm not sure exactly what these characteristics are, but we all have our own ideas)

I will wholeheartedly agree that there are many different body types, lifestyles, and attitudes befitting of a god's girl, all beautiful and amazing. however, that does not mean that all women, as beautiful and amazing as they may be, SHOULD all be god's girls.

I feel the women should possess blatant and obvious reasons for being a god's girl, not simply a lack of reasons for not being a god's girl

Last night i had a pretty odd dream. Strange enough that i feel i need to write about it: So i'm sitting in a church, and in my dream it is my regular church that i go to every week, even though in real-life i don't go to church. everybody is going through the line for communion and i see GG Kristy stand up (i don't know her in real-life, but was looking at her sets last night, so that must have something to do with it). Anyway, she's wearing a black strapless dress, and when she stands up it comes down a little bit exposing her nipples a little bit, so she kinda looked around hoping nobody saw, and nobody else did, but then she saw i was laughing and i made it pretty obvious that i did see. So then after church i made a comment to her about it and from there somehow we got to talking about how we are both really into rock climbing (i'm not actually). Then we look outside the church and there are huge boulders outside with some drunk guy climbing on them... We go outside and it turns out the drunk guy is my friend scott, and he falls off and shatters his ankle, like bones sticking out and shit, but he's telling us that it'll probably be fine, and this happened last week to him too. Kristy pulls some kind of ankle brace/splint type thing out of nowhere and fixes scott up and everything is fine....

and that's all i remember. it was one of those dreams where you wake up thinking "what the fuck?'

so let me know if you know what that dream means.

i've decided to take the LSAT (Law School Aptitude Test) and it is on saturday, which approached much sooner than i had planned. I think i'm pretty much unprepared, and need to study more... However, i took a practice and did alright, but only answered half of the questions on one segment... so if i can work out my strategy on that segment i might be able to do pretty damn well, which would be good. it's kinda got me stressing, so at least that will be over with saturday afternoon, whether i do well or not.

not much else besides that... school is going fine, Last semester unless i go for the whole law school route. if not, i guess it might actually be real world time. I'm 24 an have managed to put it off thus far, so law school is another attempt at avoiding a real life.

I have a shitty shitty cold, and can't sleep. it blows. it's super cold and blowy outsided too, which also blows. i love winter and snow and all the activities that go along with it, but i hate the shitty weather.

i saw beowolf tonight. i thought it was pretty good, the 3d shit is pretty cool. i guess it was better than doing nothing tonight, me and my friend were the only 2 in the theatre, which i enjoyed because i generally dislike being around other people at movies. they always seem to be super loud, or get upset when anybody makes any sort of noise and try to act like you mother or librarian. i find these people to be even more annoying than the loud people who talk to the screen. at least the loud people are enjoying themselves. the hush-hushers just seem bitter, and i would venture a guess that bitterness is probably a major theme throughout their lives, not just at cinematic productions.

i'm rambling

peaceout

I think i'm actually losing it. Last week i saw a mouse in my room, or thought i did... put out some traps, nothing turned up, no signs of it anywhere. Last night i was going to sleep on my couch ( i don't own a bed) and i swear one of my fluorecent lights flashed on really brighly and loudly, it scared the shit out of me just as i  was dozing off, and now, i honestly do not know if it happened for real or not. lately i've been having vary vivid and lucid dreams just as i'm going to bed or waking up, and they are all just about dumb little things that could have happened, but then when i'm wide awake i'm not sure if they did or not. I'm pretty sure i'm on my way to the loony bin... I don't know anybody that is actually crazy, so i guess that's a good sign that it might be me.

it's raining again, and my sunroof still leaks. School books=ruined. well, not ruined, but definitely not able to be sold back to the bookstore at the end of the semester.

it has literally rained like 20 inches in the past month. I'm sick of it, but i hope it keeps up through the winter and we get hammered

I drank coke all night at work, now i can't sleep. work was super slow too, so that sucked 'cause i could really use some money right about now. work's got me kinda stressed. not to mention i lost about $100 buck golfing today. i should really stop betting against people who i know are better than i. oh well.... gotta meet with my advisor tomorrow to find out if i can really graduate this spring. kinda excited about that.