my best friend, who i love, has pretty much just confirmed that she would date me if we were both single. i'm getting tingles every time i think about it.

she is engaged and i am in a reasonably long term relationship... and not only that - our boyfriends are best mates. she and i have known each other since we were 13. we became best friends at 17 and spent the next 2-3 years discovering drugs, raves and general wildness together. then she got into a long (7 year) relationship with a guy who hated me and we only saw each other once every six months - if that.  but once they broke up, it was like we hadn't been a day apart.

she told me a couple of years ago that, if i had shown interest, she would have got into a "proper" relationship with me before she met that guy. but i never knew - and even when she told me that years later i was like "wow..."

since she's been with her fiance she and i have been able to explore the sexual side of our relationship and kiss and take things way further than i ever though we would.  it's been ... god... amazing. really amazing. i love that girl.

and we could be together. we have often talked (yes, ususally when pissed off with the boys) about how being in a relationship with each other would rule. we could bring a guy in when we want, ahem, dick. we already know that we get along amazingly.

how... what.. i mean... my brain is seriously in a spin. OH MY GOD!!  this is awesome and agonising at the same time!!