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prior to last night i have never met a "lesbian" who calls men kings & fuckin means it.
oh, & did i mention that this chick professed her attraction to my gf in my house?
disrespectful bitch.  damn, i am pissed.

it has just been confirmed that portishead is playing coachella.
i think that i may need to go to this.
i am not a big fan of coachella, but if portishead does not have any other us dates lined up
then coachella it is.
the other day i was wearing my gg "suicide is a mortal sin" shirt in the jungle[hood] & this lady was like,
"yes it is. suicide is a mortal sin. godsgirls.com. i like that."
& i said that i like it too :)
girlfriend is mad at me. again. she has become the weird, co-dependent one. it used to be me, but i do not know wtf happened.
i am the one who should be mad at her. she dragged me to see this depressing movie called the diving bell & butterfly. i am not going to lie - it was good, but it was too close to something that i had to go through not too long ago & i am not into reliving that at this time.
i need a haircut & in other news happy martin luther king day.

there is going to be a gg party tonight in my neck of the woods
& i will not be able to go [which sucks]
So
i propose that we have another party at either a lesbo bar or a strip club...
but it is just a suggestion.

hooray! it is my one day off!
work is kicking my ass.
gf is kicking my ass [seriously that woman will..or can be the death of me].
i feel like i have had a lobotomy..no, no. i feel like a zombie.
yes. a zombie is a more adequate way to describe this state.
wait. aren't they kind of the same thing/ states of being?
i kind sound like a hippie.
i am very much behind on set comments,
but i feel like all i would have to offer would be crap like:
"good job!" or "very nice" or the thumbs up sign.
i took my little brother to a metal concert last night.
i do not like the way they sing too much, but the drums are fucking insane!
i wish i had the stamina & timing to do that, but i do not.

gf & i were not doing that well. sometimes she acts like a child & i am not into that. act your age please.
we are getting along now, but we are still not on stable ground. 4 years is a lifetime when you are young & maybe we are over it. i met a girl with yellow eyes & tan skin. she spoke of girl bars & then of her boyfriend. she was nice.

has anyone seen this?



it is called kindle & it is a wireless reading device.  you can download books, magazines,  your documents...all kinds of shit into this thing. the book nerd in me is very excited about this, but i know that this means that i will rarely buy paperback/hardback books which kind of makes me sad. oh well.
in other news gf & i discovered that they have opened a kiki de montparasse shop in la. we were both kind of excited [ which is weird because i am never excited about her lingerie/clothing shit ].  the store is beautiful, as are the sales associates. that store is sex in a box. i bought a shirt that says "baise moi." i like it a lot. i want to buy gf something, but i am not sure. help me please :
kikidm.com. what would you want from kiki's? i am thinking cashmere thigh highs but any input would be appreciated. ty!

...barely.

i ate thanksgiving dinner in my pajamas. & halfway through the meal my father brought up this commercial :
http://time.dandgcommercial.com/woman   
[for d&g time men & women kissing the same sex..bfd].
it has pretty much been playing on mainstream cable channels [vh1, mtv]. i am not sure if it is played anywhere else, but he wanted my opinion of them. he has known for years that i am gay, but he still asked me if i thought that these commercials were acceptable.
he wanted to know if i thought that these commercials would influence kids into thinking that homosexuality is "normal."  ?. my father is not homophobic... he is just ignorant, but still. wtf. i told him that as a kid i would have liked to have seen something like this. to remind me that i am not wrong & that other people like me existed & that it was in fact the norm for 10% of the population... but my father is also hard headed & does not listen to very much of what anyone says unless it pertains to him. the conversation just exploded into all kinds of other gay topics that i was too tired to handle at the moment. so i just ate my food. he did bring up something that i have always wondered though. he said that all of the gay people that he knew have either lost a parent or have been sexually molested. my mother died when i was a baby & i always wondered if that had anything to do with me being gay. if i am just on a eternal search to find a mother figure. ultimately i am sexually attracted to women & not to men. i know plenty of gays, lesbians that have not been molested & have not lost a parent, but there is still a corelation there with other gays that i know. i have come to the conclusion that i would probably be gay either way, but in truth i can never really know for certain. what do y'all think??

my gf is in ny visiting her family for thanksgiving. i am kind of glad to have a vacation from her, but still miss her. work is kicking my ass anyways. i hope that everyone has a happy thanksgiving! i think that i am going to go to a lesbo bar  friday night...or maybe tonight.