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the break up posted : 03/09/09 at 08:35pm pst listening to:the lovely feathers.

i just broke up with my grilfriend 30 minutes ago. we were dating on and off for 8 years. im not sure why, but all of a sudden (like a week ago), i realized that i needed out. there were a lot of reasons. a lot of reason im not going to gfet into, suffice to say I just wasnt happy. I love her to death, and IM totally in love with her still, but she just isnt right for me at this point in my life.

She is falling apart, im sure, but over the phone she took it like a pro. she was quiet while I said what I had to say. she didnt cry. she didnt protest. not that she agreed at all, she is just mature enough to respect what i feel. She did ask me if there was someone else, whichc there isn't. When I told her this, she said she didn't believe me. That hurts, but if that thought helps her move on sooner, so be it.

I will miss her so much. I really hope that at some point our lines cross again, when she and I are different people. I hope that she and I have changed enough to make it work for real.

I just hope she moves on quickly, but always has a place for me in her heart, because she will always be a part of mine.

 

Muah, Rachael. I love you.

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HannahRose
03/09/09 09:32pm pst

Been there, regretted that :/

I'm sure you know what you're doing though.. good luck with everything!

Amythia
03/09/09 09:58pm pst

In the end you got to look out for number one.  Yourself.

Livia
03/09/09 10:06pm pst

i'm sorry that you had to make a tough decision like this one, but i am glad that you were honest with yourself and took steps to try and get your life in the place that you feel it needs to be.  i hope everything works out well for you!

Leyla
03/09/09 10:54pm pst

I just broke up with my boyfriend! weird, I know loads of people going through break ups right now

dlbcreative
03/09/09 10:54pm pst

thanks everyone.

Maddox
03/10/09 06:17am pst

This is sad sorry to hear it.....:(

Gabrielle
03/12/09 03:53am pst

That is really big of you, seriously. I think way too many people stay in their relationships because theyre scared of what the other person will do, or theyre scared its a mistake. but the fact is that when you know it isnt what is right for you, you know, and that thought keeps nagging you. So way to just do what you needed to do. that was what you had to do for yourself and her.

Youre a good dude, and more men ..and women, should take a page from your book here...have some guts and do what is right.

hurrah!

so how are you holding up, now that its been a few days.

dlbcreative
03/12/09 06:17pm pst

thanks. i appreciate the kind words. i know it was the right thing to do, but it still sucks. mostly i feel relief, which i guess is a sign that i made the right choice. I'm worried about her though.

im holding up alright. my friend have kept me happy (and a little drunk), so im good.

thanks again for the kind words.

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