I hadn't seen or talked to her for two weeks after the pregnancy scare and her telling me "i don't want anything from you".
She texted me this week, telling me where I went wrong and that she wants it to be the way it was when it was just a booty call, her "perfect down day friend", but it may be too late she says.
Honestly I don't care.

Sexually she's opened me up to new things. She boosts me up with her words and her caring. It's the first  relationship of any kind since my divorce in 05. She doesn't work at the bar anymore, where we met, where I drank, where our real problems began. I think that is what brought it all on. She found a new job.

I care
I don't care
I can never really say the right thing to her.
heaven may flow from the fingers
but hell spews from the mouth