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fun things. Whee!
posted : 06/06/08 at 07:04pm pst
listening to:radiohead
Well, I'm embarking on a new project. Very personal. It has brought up all kinds of crap for me. Breakthroughs, danger.
I'm going to pursue a grant for it, I want to make a book and a statement.
Things it has brought up. I don't know if I can or should tell my sweetheart about it. I think he would roll his eyes or just plain not be into it, which would break my heart. Everytime anything personal has ever come up regarding me 'the person with a colorful past' he has always changed the subject, or forgotten about whatever I said. Makes me sad - how can I marry a person who doesn't care? We're supposed to be married in a couple weeks. !!!!!
Its pretty perfect then that I'm talking to danger boy about the project. I've put it down on paper - I feel like I need to puke it out at someone, but its a heavy burden. I need to fucking check my head.
I'm going to pursue a grant for it, I want to make a book and a statement.
Things it has brought up. I don't know if I can or should tell my sweetheart about it. I think he would roll his eyes or just plain not be into it, which would break my heart. Everytime anything personal has ever come up regarding me 'the person with a colorful past' he has always changed the subject, or forgotten about whatever I said. Makes me sad - how can I marry a person who doesn't care? We're supposed to be married in a couple weeks. !!!!!
Its pretty perfect then that I'm talking to danger boy about the project. I've put it down on paper - I feel like I need to puke it out at someone, but its a heavy burden. I need to fucking check my head.
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