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I've had sex 3 times in the past 24 hours, that's a record for me :D  Except the 3rd time kinda sucked.

I feel like sex will get better for him, but it wont ever get better for me.  I've never had an orgasm and I don't expect one any time soon...  Part of it is me, but it bugs me that he seems to have given up all together.  Meh.  I guess I can't really complain if I just admitted it was me huh...

Anyway, this is my first long term relationship, and I'm not sure where I should draw boundaries.  We both have a good mutual friend in common, she was friends with me first, but now they talk a lot on aim, and they go to the same school etc.  We used to hang out just the 3 of us a lot, we're all huge stoners and we don't know anyone else who gets high as often as us, so we just started hanging out and getting stoned often.

Since school started they've been seeing a lot more of each other, they see each other more than I see him, and they've started hanging out one on one, getting high/watching movies, etc.  This bugs me.  Now, I do think men and women can be friends, good friends, but not hanging-out-alone-every-week-without-any-sexual-tension friends.  I've just never seen that work.

But, I'm naturally kind of jealous/testy so I don't know if it's just me or if I have a legitimate reason to be pissy.


Basically, they see each other more than I see either of them, they constantly talk...wtf am I just a nice ass?  :O

I have no idea if I have any right to be angry.  I don't want to bring it up, but if I don't, I'll probably blow in a month.

But do I really have any right to say they can't hang out when they obviously enjoy each others company?  Seriously sometimes I feel like I'm a third wheel.  And that just isn't right.

I got my period today.  I'm kind of bummed I wont be super horny all the time now, but I'm also really freaking happy I'm not pregnant!

I was about a week late.  Close call I was beginning to freak.

Marijuana really helps with my cramps.  I feel like it's numbing my back.


Sex with my boyfriend has gotten pretty monotonous.  Boring.  I have no idea how to spice it up, my sexual experience is limited.

Thoughts?

So I've been sitting here, wondering why I smell like sweaty dick, and then I finally realized I'm wearing my boyfriends gym shorts!

LOLWTFBBQ.

This took me literally all day to realize.  I've been in them since about 12.

That is ridiculous and I am totally taking these off now.

I tired to cancel my account and then get a yearly, but today is my renewal day so I don't know if it will work :o

Oh well, I'll just cancel that one, and get a yearly haha.

I figure I'll be around for another year at least, 50 bucks for a year is nothing.


That was super pointless!  :]

Happy hump day!

So now my vagina is crazy itchy.  I did some reading on the internet, and I think it's probably just a yeast infection.  But I'm not getting any discharge.  Haha hella TMI.  It can't be an STI because my boyfriend is clean...unless he's a fucking liar.  Eh anyway.   I need to see a doctor.  Even WORSE, after my cervix was beaten up, and all that ass stuff happened, I was unfortunately on the end of receiving surprise buttsex.  Not as much fun as those macros make it sound.  Needless to say, I cried.

He says it was an accident, but can you really accidentally shove it into someones ass??  I'm skeptical.

MY POOR ANUS AND VAGINA, I AM NOT HAVING SEX FOR A MONTH.  God dammiiiit.



Sigh...what a fucking weird week.

So many random bad things have been happening to me during sex lately.

On friday, my cervix was bruised and I had to hobble to my car and put lots of ice on myself, then last night...  I got a mini version of pink sock :  We never had anal, he just stuck a finger in my ass.  There was no lube or natural wetness however so I think that's why it happened.  I didn't even realize it until we got into the shower 10 minutes later...  Gross and weird.

But thank god for GG, I would never had known what happened if not for this website.  Hahahaha.  Thanks anal experts!

Both of those things resulted in both us not not having orgasms.  This is actually quite common for us, something weird will happen and it'll just kill it for me so we stop.

So now, when you feel bad about your sex life, just remember that someone else had to hobble for a day, and then the immediate NEXT day, had part of their rectum attempt to come out their ass...  Yup.  No more anal for me, I don't care how much lube is used it still sucks for me and is not worth it.  My ass needs a rest.

For like, two years I thought Adneris's name was Adernis.  Obvs I am dyslexic.

Wtf.

THIS IS A SHOCK.

Maybe another girl will sympathize with me.

Does your boyfriend spin his penis around in the mirror after you've just had sex?

Because mine definitely does.


I hope someone got a laugh out of that .

DIYs have been good lately, and Catra's new set....wow! Thats gorgeous :o