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I am newly addicted to WOW....
>.<

Help....

I've fallen and I can't get up.





In other news

I got called for a job...
They are still setting up all the details and will get back to me sometime this week.

I knew September would bring me better things...
Funny....
Cause September always used to get me down....

Welp...
At my folks house for two weeks gramma sitting...and house sitting...and pet sitting....and chicken sitting.
And yeah...
You get the picture....

Lalalalalalalaalalalalalalalalala

Here's to me not going psycho...

Hear Hear..

What I need is to live to hide....
When you smothered my devotion with your lies....
And I feel now....
As I did at that time...
And I'm wondering why still I make you cry....

Ah....Lacuna Coil..

I like to press buttons...

babbble babble babble babble...

No one cares...

Fuck this...fuck that

Lets move on shall we?

So...
Things keep going from bad to worser...
My mom came up and over stayed her welcome...
She started to verbally attack my dad like she always does...and we got into a huge fight outside the movie theatre.
So she drove off and left me and my boyfriend stranded...
So when we finally got a ride home...we locked all the doors...and turned off our phones...because my mom is immature and kept calling me and my boyfriend leaving stupid childish messages...
Anyway...long story short...she leaves town...and emails me to let me know she made it back home safely...
And I don't think I'm going to talk to her for a while cause she just can't seem to get over the fact that I am a grown woman and perfectly capable of making my own choices and leading my own life.
Believe me...Its a lot better this way.
But Steph now believes me about my mother being psychotic...

He says she's not invited to our wedding if we ever have one...

-sighs-

On top of all this mommy drama I'm having....
Steph got into a motorcycle accident and can't do much....
Our tempers are flaring cause he's in alot of pain...and I'm just getting in the way all the time.
Plus bills are do and I have no money to pay them cause I have no income right now...
So my phone is going to get shut off...unless I borrow money from my dad...which I can't seem to be able to do willingly...
Everything seems like its going to hell...
And I am a confused....emotional wreck...

Lar...


>.

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Spent most of the day up at the hospital.

Stephen wrecked his motorcycle...
He's alright.

Broken shoulder...two stiches in his elbow...and road rash all over...

Thank gods he's alive...

My mother took it upon herself to invite herself up here for a day and meddle in my life...

I am very angry/depressed/upset about it..
And to make matters worse my boyfriend is mad at me because my mother is a fucking kadshjdkjhkljahgkudfajhgkjladhgjkdh....

She'll be her wends....

Ugh....Please let this be as painless as possible....

So my boyfriend and I have been discussing having an open relationship...
More joking than anything...
At least I hope he's joking....o_o

I keep telling him I am way to possessive for that to ever happen...
I don't think he believes me.

but then again...he hasn't seen me angry either...

Is it bad that I hide what I'm capable of??

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So last night I had this crazy dream...
I dreamed I was in the hospital...and that my dad was a taxidermist....and that I died and he was trying to stuff me with cotton balls...and I was trying to make him stop cause it hurt...and I wasn't human...I was like some cat or something...and my dad was wearing a mint green button up shirt and forest green slacks....and that he worked in a lawyers office....and it was just really weird and fucked up...

>.o