I feel really heart broken lately.
I don't know why,

Everything in my life is up in the air right now.

I'm confused, calm, and in termoil....
all at the same time.

I need to write...
I need to breathe..
I need to hide myself and my heart for a while.

I'm starting to realize that although we love each other.
We're not going to marry...
He's too lazy to ask...and he think I'm never going to leave.
I know I wont...
Maybe.
Maybe not.

I really have no control on my life right now.

But...my vacation starts today.
Nine days of no work...

I'm going to go insane.

Maybe I'll get a new tattoo..

STOP RAMBLING...

Fuck....

I need to get back in touch with what I truely believe.
I need to pray more to mother...

I need to do alot of things.

Change is scary...