aloysius's journals

So my old roommate Jame's girlfriend found him dead in his apartment the day before yesterday. None of us (his friends) are exactly positive as to what happened because the whole situation is under investigation. We're more than sure it was an overdose. James had a long running drug habit. Mostly coke and pills I believe. I'm hoping they release the information to his girlfriend Justina because he didn't really speak to his family. We're really hating this limbo of not knowing the facts. I feel so bad for his girlfriend. My feelings are so mixed up. It's always surreal at first to realize somebody is gone forever. I also feel angry at him. I had to make the call to Sarah his ex of several years. She had also lived with us. She was devastated but she told me she wasn't all that surprised. She told me that there were a few scares some years back that I wasn't ever aware of. He had a twin brother in Utah that was the only real family he kept in contact with. I remember him coming to visit and them seeing each other for the first time since they were kids in '01. Besides his girlfriend I feel for Sean his twin. I can't imagine how hard it is for him because he lost his sister to a car accident about 3 years ago and now this. I had my differences with James. We had a huge falling out that led to us not living with each other but I didn't hold a grudge and I always loved the guy despite our differences. I knew him for more than 15 years and we had a lot of good times together. He was an insanely charismatic, handsome, charming and funny guy.  I know a few of my friends were much closer to him in the last few years and I feel for them dearly. I would only usually see him at birthdays and certain events during these last few years. Anyhow, he's gone and may he rest in peace. My heart goes out to his twin and his gf. I love you buddy.

This may be a silly place to write all this but I was here and I've been dwelling on this shit and had to let some of this out.  And to those of you who "party", if there are any of you out there who read this, let me remind you how invincible you are NOT. THink of the pain you can spare your friends and family. That's all I have to say.

Love,
-Frankie

Will there be God's Girls at the Ink-n-Iron Festival at the Queen Mary on Sunday? I hope so. That would be nice.

With God's Girls. You are all so damn beautiful and everybody who has written or replied to me has been terribly sweet. Well, with the exception of the smart-alecks who felt compelled to try and insult me for being fascetious in a thread. Anyhow I enjoy being a part of this little thing we have here so thank you.

xoxoxoxo

-Frankie

So I saw The Cure for the 10th time on Sunday at The Shrine Auditorium in beautiful downtown Los Angeles. The very first time I saw them (as a sensitive and impressionable youth) in 1989 and this time around were by far and away the best. Take out your thesaurus and every synonym given for Incredible is what they were. They toured only as a four-piece and it worked so well. The set they played was fantastic. Songs I never, ever thought I would see them perform. Robert's voice sounded magnificent as did the band. I hope some of you were also or will be lucky enough to catch them on this tour.

xoxoxo

-Frankie

it's my birthday 

i wouldn't normally be so excited but my roommates brought me breakfast in bed with flowers from our garden. Now I understand better why women love that kind of thing. Nobody has ever done that for me and it feels wonderful. I love my friends. And oh yeah, my Mom called and sang to me. <3
I'm a lucky guy. And now a year older.

Sucks and is terribly boring hence all my activity on the site in recent days. I have been looking for work but I haven't had much luck yet. Thankfully I'm getting a nice tax return and unemployment. My severance pay was bullshit. I should work on my writing. I started reading "The Walking Dead" graphic novels by Robert Kirkman which are incredible. I love zombie stories and I highly recommend.

Ummm so today is the last day to file. It has to be done by...I don't remember what time and I just made an appointment to get them done yesterday. So today at 2 I have to go sit in an office and wait to MAYBE get seen by Hank the super tax genius. I actually had them done in February but my roommate insisted that I wait to see "His guy". And it finally happens on the last day. Fuck...

i am in love with Seattle. i hearty, heart, heart it. I had the most amazing time last week there and I wanna go back stat. even if I had not made out with a gorgeous friend and gotten all crushed out like i am now i would still be completely enamoured with the Emerald City. that was just bonus material.
i need to walk in the rain...
xoxoxoxo

i go to ALOT of shows and i think i saw the best one ever thursday night. GOGOL BORDELLO. they were fucking incredible. i can't do it justice saying anything further. holy shit.

the weather is terrible. it is much too hot. i want to ride my bike without worrying about having a stroke.