So my old roommate Jame's girlfriend found him dead in his apartment the day before yesterday. None of us (his friends) are exactly positive as to what happened because the whole situation is under investigation. We're more than sure it was an overdose. James had a long running drug habit. Mostly coke and pills I believe. I'm hoping they release the information to his girlfriend Justina because he didn't really speak to his family. We're really hating this limbo of not knowing the facts. I feel so bad for his girlfriend. My feelings are so mixed up. It's always surreal at first to realize somebody is gone forever. I also feel angry at him. I had to make the call to Sarah his ex of several years. She had also lived with us. She was devastated but she told me she wasn't all that surprised. She told me that there were a few scares some years back that I wasn't ever aware of. He had a twin brother in Utah that was the only real family he kept in contact with. I remember him coming to visit and them seeing each other for the first time since they were kids in '01. Besides his girlfriend I feel for Sean his twin. I can't imagine how hard it is for him because he lost his sister to a car accident about 3 years ago and now this. I had my differences with James. We had a huge falling out that led to us not living with each other but I didn't hold a grudge and I always loved the guy despite our differences. I knew him for more than 15 years and we had a lot of good times together. He was an insanely charismatic, handsome, charming and funny guy.  I know a few of my friends were much closer to him in the last few years and I feel for them dearly. I would only usually see him at birthdays and certain events during these last few years. Anyhow, he's gone and may he rest in peace. My heart goes out to his twin and his gf. I love you buddy.

This may be a silly place to write all this but I was here and I've been dwelling on this shit and had to let some of this out.  And to those of you who "party", if there are any of you out there who read this, let me remind you how invincible you are NOT. THink of the pain you can spare your friends and family. That's all I have to say.

Love,
-Frankie