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I haven't written a journal i forever, so i thought it was time i can myself into gear.
I've been on holiday now for the last 5 days...it is so nice. I normally have time off over Xmas but always have an overseas trip planned so it's pretty hectic and I don't really get to rest at all. This year, the funds didn't really work themselves out, so i've got 3 weeks off and absolutely nothing to do. it's kinda great, i get to take everyday as it comes, swim in my amazing pool, catch up with some mates i haven't seen in ages, lurk on the net, read, watch dvds, do coffee and shopping and start going to the gym more.
The last couple of days i've been so lazy and a bit of a hermit at home by myself. I do stuff with different mates from day to day but the inbetween times i've been hiding out at home on my computer and drinking all the left over booze from my cocktail do on Xmas eve. Haha what a Nigel i've been - drinking by myself and all. I got myself so wasted on cocktails the other night. It was pretty funny, stumbling round your house with no one to see how stupid you look and commenting on how many conversations you're having with your cat. Haha!
In other news, my ex is driving me fricking crazy! I'm so over games, i've played his way too much. He's been over in England for the last 15months (he's English and finally moved back) and he recently came back to Oz for a month. He can't seem to make up his mind what he wants. When he's on the other side of the world and can't see me, he doesn't stop texting me, wanting photos of me and saying what he's lost, he says hes counting down the days till he sees me and how he cant wait to take me on dates and stuff. He gets back and he doesn't wanna spend time with me. I havent heard from him for the last week and he was supposed to be flying back to England again tomorrow, then he rings tonight and oooh i'm now staying til March now. Grrr!! I kind of wish he was going back, he's now taken over all my friends and is always at their house now he's here, so i've kinda been staying away to give him his space and give my mind some peace.
What is everyone doing for New Years? I'm looking forward to having a great one this year! Last year was a disaster. I was lost in Tokyo, alone, walking around with a bum knee and couldn't even find a bar to have a drink in. I ended up saying a Happy New Years to myself, having a smoke and finally finding my way back to my hotel about 2 hours later, I was not a happy chappy at all!! This year i'm going to a concert/festival type thing down the road from my house. There's some pretty sweet Aussie bands playing, rides, fireworks and unlimited drinks are included in your ticket price - hells yea!! The fact that I can walk home after and keep drinking is fricking rad!
Well I hope this hasn't bored you too much. I hope you're all taking care and you've got some super plans for NYs.
xxx
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Tammles
Haha that's rad!! Glad i'm not the only one. I'm a bit of a dreamer, so I always think up scenarios of things that might happen with friends etc and then find myself having the conversation out loud. Luckily, I dont do this when im drunk and i've got company - or i swear everyone would think i was a crazy lady :o)
Thinline
Drinking and dreaming is dangerous. I always have the imaginary argument with someone that has recently pissed me off or whatever. I'll be sitting there just hanging out having a beer or ten by myself and say "yeah, whatever, fuck you." or "give me a fucking break". Apparently I say fuck a lot when I drink. For some reason no one ever answers me. Oh well, at least i win the argument. Good times.
Try having an out loud conversation with yourself when your friends are over drinking with ya. It makes for some interesting conversation. Then from that point forward it doesnt matter what you do, you will get a pass because you are the crazy lady that freaks out when you drink. Sweet deal!!
Tammles
Well i will have to try it and see what happens, i might just become the crazy lady yet....
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When I drink by myself I dont have any cats to talk to so I am fond of standing in the mirror and talking to myself. I always do it the same way. Walk into the bathroom and passed the mirror..then I realize how drunk I look...walk back...catch my balance...and mumble the immortal words... "Dude, I'm fucked up". Now that is rad for sure.