Switchblade's journals

So I'm gunna go off on another rant. this time I'm gunna blow some steam about the whole Israeli-Palestinian Conflict.

this topic pisses me off so much, and I love how people say I'm a terrorist cuz I dont support Israel, or how I'm an Anti-Semite or something. I'm no anti-Semite  I just think Israel is an illegal nation, the same grounds as America was built. Forcing the native people off their lands and claiming it for ourselves. And to protect ourselves and control the wild savages we raped, maimed and murdered we put them on reservations that they can call their own. That is what Israel did with the Palestinians, created Palestine, a system of interconnecting reservations for the Wild Savages who strap bombs to themselves and blow themselves up for no reason. But whenever they felt like it they could go take some of it for themselves and control the resources that are vital to survival in that region, Water and farmable fields. They marched in with bulldozers and tanks giving families only minutes to gather their most prized belongings and get the fuck out before the bulldozers flattened homes, ancestral homes which the Arabs have held since Muslims captured the land from the Byzantines over a thousand years ago. They killed the "militants" who refused to leave their homes. Now these homeless and poor families went to refugee camps in Lebanon and Syria where hundreds of thousands of homeless and poor Palestinian Muslims live in filth and the worst poverty conditions. Islamist mullahs preach revenge and Hezbollah leaders speak of how to perform this revenge. Martyrdom and the bombs go off.

for those fortunate enough to keep their homes, they have troubles, they cannot travel, roadblocks and check points are set up everywhere, they divide worshipers from their place of worship, men from their place of work. Women from their markets, children from their schools. They divide families, and family in a clan based society is very important.

And the media, they only tell us about the one or two attacks that kill civilians or when an Israeli soldier is killed. we never hear about how many palestinians were killed, only a militant or two, or how is was an Israeli offensive. Lots of bullshit if you ask me. BBC is better, but the british news doesn't matter here.


FTW

So I'm sitting here watching the snow fall, looks like a good 8 inches so far. kinda reminds me of how happy I was as as kid when we got storms like this, but we always got alot more snow in general then. Got the day off, I dont think I was gunna drive out in this weather. But I picked up hours tomorrow which I was supposed to have off so my paycheck wont change. Only till like 6:30 or so, at least I'll have most the night off. Might go see I Am Legend.

    So I'm completely done with the semester, sweet shit no school till Jan 14th. It was my first semester back after taking a year off and I finally got my head straight and I'm doing my shit, getting my degree and getting on to a 4 yr school. The fucking community college I go to is one of the hardest in the nation. exactly why they call it Harvard Across the Hudson. 2 more semesters to go and I'll have the associates. thank god. at least I'll have a ton of extra Electives that I can use towards my bachelors.
       I went on a date of sorts yesterday, saw a movie (No Land for Old Men), and chilled in the mall for a while talking and shit. I think she's more into me than I am into her. kinda weird, but see where this goes. I dont wanna start anything serious yet, maybe I'll try to enjoy a social dating thing for a while.
    so christmas is just around the corner, ohhhh how much I hate this holiday. Became the complete opposite of the person its meant to celebrate. I went on a big rant on this in the journal that got deleted when they switched servers. I hate religion sooo much. how other peoples beliefs are forced on others till they have an army of brainwashed followers. But Christmas is the most hypocritical christian holiday. I hate the lights, I hate the decorations, I hate the songs, I hate the shopping, soo much shit thats worthless. It supposed to be a day that is set aside to celebrate the birth of the savior, but its turned into a consumer based holiday where americans go in debt to buy their children gifts so they are happy and look cooler than the next. the meanings changed so much. so instead of 3 "wise men" bringing you gifts, you got a fat man that breaks into your house and instead of stealing shit he leaves stuff. you got flying reindeer and singing happy elves, a dancing snowman and pissed off Jews. The symbol of christmas was well Christ now its a pagan symbol, a tree. I love how the romans compromised their beliefs in order to get more and more converts. Fuck this holiday and its fucked up traditions. I hope people stop being rednecks and take their lights down after new yrs. 

well everyone with that said merry christmas. go blow your paychecks with joy in your hearts.

So its already a week into December and I cant believe how fast time flew. The Semester is almost over just got finals next week. (I actually did pretty fucking good this semester, I think my lowest grade will be a C in economics which was a lame class anyway.) Christmas is a few weeks away, and I haven't even begun shopping. I work in the mall so it wont be that hard. I'm only buying for my close family and my grandma and aunt since we see them every christmas.

HAHA speaking of gifts Marilyn (my mom's mother that we Don't talk to, but came into recent contact cuz of my cousins' weddings) sent me two religious books. At first glance you wouldn't think they are but one is trying to disprove darwinism and the other is god and the mind. hahaha such Christian propaganda! and I just posted an anti religion blog on myspace today, I'll probably post it here as well.

well last weekend I got promoted at my job. I'm now an Asst Manager, that means another pay raise... a whopping $9 an hr. not amazing but hey its more money that I'll gladly take. been there 2 months, hired just to be a sales associate and now I'm an asst manager. (no prev management experience, or retail experience either. Just shows how amazing I am lol j/k)

But Time has been flying, I guess the live day by day is going well for me. I'm not setting any solid goals or dreaming about the future, take each day as it comes. Have an idea but leave it so fluid so that if something else comes along I can make the choice when I need to. Keep it short term and realistic. this is a whole new thing for me and its working. this is the shit that keeps building my self esteem, picking it up from near rock bottom. I can actually say Life is going MY way for once.

black friday. make me get up early to sell you shit, open a store by myself and run it for two hours while women buy shit for their kids that their kids will never like.

I got new pix, check'em sen

errrrrrrrrrrrghhhh.

hey I won $2 on a $2 lotto ticket. and I saw an old friend while I was pumping gas. she looks better than she did in high school.

a bit of advice wait till after x-mass to apply for retail. being asst manager sux sometimes

So I'm starting to feel burnt out from all the working and no fun. I work, go to school and sleep. its kinda bringing me down but hey I got myself into this. I really need something to excite me, a really good show, a new crush that has potential, something that make me wanna face the next day and look forward to the next. its a short week of school  but stressful week of work. black friday, the start of the christmas rush. my boss freaking out cuz we're not making as much money as last yr. the store is severely understaffed and thefts are bad. I cant be up 30 peoples asses at once and I cant watch everyone at the same time. blahh shut up you stupid fucking hippie and go smoke up and let us work.

hopefully I see at least one of the two girls I met recently at school. one I've seen in the hallway a bunch of times and seems chill, the other is really preppy so I'm wonder what shes hiding. holy fuck I need to get laid. people are starting to call me a monk. 11 months and counting. thank god for porn and motion lotion.

 ( it sux when you can only go for legal chix when you look like you're 17, they all want a guy who looks older.)

all in all I need a fucking life. but walmart sold out a long time ago.

well its just my luck, a cute as hell girl is into me, but she lives like an hour and a half from me. and shes 17.
we talked for a few hrs last night on AIM and we got alot in common, shes nice, down to earth, funny. I was sweet and a little funny. I'd like to drive down there, but I'm always working.  40+ hrs a week and school full time. so much fun. friday I get to miss a show, and a party after, my friends birthday and life in general. but hey I got a raise so I'm now making $8.50 an hr for a mall job. blahh I hope shit pans out good for me.

fuck I gotta write a speech for class tonight. its on educated tattoo shopping, so it wont be hard.

yay paycheck. and new kickz tomorrow. Brian Anderson SB dunk hi for $75
oh and I get my new computer back, which is a yr old and that I have only used for 4 months out of that yr.

So I've been having some mad weird dreams lately, probably a mix of the meds I'm on and having a head cold.
but the one the night before was crazy and really awesome. it involved zombies, sex, guns, random hot chix being attacked by zombies, robbing people for ammo. and a truck race up a desert mtn. and yes more sex and zombies. most of it took place in a diner, so I had some pretty awesome food too.  this has given me the idea to write a zombie story based on it.

and last night I had another weird one where I beat up my brother for stealing my license and giving cops in another state my info when he was getting in trouble for something. I ended up walking into a class room of his and kicking his ass. we're both out of school for a while now. pretty weird. but sounds like something I would have done in high school, my brother was always an asshole.

sux for the people in so cal. the fires are out of control. good luck and I hope for the best. I'd give you some of NY's rain if I could

I love how people candy coat everything, they just cant tell it how it is. From work to girls to random people. and if you dont candy coat it you're an asshole. I love that shit.
    Dude if you dont like the way I do something, say I dont like that, do it this way or some different way.
    Bitches if you dont like me, tell me you dont like me, not oh I'd rather be friends or some other shit.
the list goes on and on. do me a big fucking favor and tell it how it is. those little white lies are annoying and hurt my feelings more cuz I know you're lying to save your own ass.


 yeh so at work last night some kid stole 4 pairs of LRG Jeans off the counter behind the register and a hoodie and whatever else he got, and by the time we realized it he was so out of the store. me and this one kid tried chasing him down but he was a tall (excuse the stereotype) black dude, so he could smoke two white boys anyday and he had a mad good head start. so like $400 of shit was stolen. and me and Jess the asst manager were behind the counter. I was looking at the back of the store and jess was ringing someone up. and what pissed me off more was I was talking to that kid earlier. We didn't even see him come back in the store. fucking people.

its pretty sad when I think about getting tattooed as much as I think about getting laid
but I hate not having money to blow on tattoos. I stopped in yesterday to the shop where
I've been getting shit done and talked to Bryan while he was tattooing the girl who is the
apprentice there. hopefully next week I'll get some work done, I should have a nice pay check
this week.

I'm also feeling like a dick for rethinking about wanting to go out with this girl I've been digging
I found out the other day shes abstinent, and as much as I think and believe sex isn't everything
it is a lot, good sex makes a good relationship even better, but wtf is that an asshole thing to think
fuck her cuz she dont put out? IDK if shes even into me so whatever.

test is micro economics tonight, awesome. maybe I should review my notes... oh wait my notes
are nothing but doodles and my sad attempts at tagging. guess I'm fucked.

oh yeah I cant wait to see what comes in the october shipment of Nike SB's even though I have no $ to get any

 So friday night I went and saw Outbreak and Madball in jersey (hate that state) but I had a fucking awesome time. it was only an hour drive and the venue was pretty sweet, except for the gay ass barrier. first band that opened was alright but the second band sucked, then outbreak which was what I came down to see. fucking awesome the pit was fun. pile ons and sing alongs haven't had a show like that in a while. a bunch of friends were there.
I was a little too tired to do anything during madball, so I stood on the side hoping not to get rocked by some big ass guido dancing like an asshole.  jersey kids cant dance

got home at like 2:30 went to bed at 4  had to get up and work. I had to open which I didn't know I was doing by myself and it was busy, made like twelve good sales before my boss got there.

today I'm going to IHOP for a last hang out with my friend who is shipping out to Marine boot tomorrow, so good food and good friends. I'm happy for my bro, hes finally finding a good direction for him, getting out of this shitty ass area and making a life for himself.  monday back to school and work. blahhh