Switchblade's journals

So I've been mad busy lately, between work, school and homework I have like no time to do anything.
its been going like this. leave my house around 7, class till 10:45 pm on mondays and 12 noon on weds and fridays then I go to work till 10:30 or so, get home around 11 or later. do like 2 hours of homework, tues and thursdays I do what I didn't get done from the night before. sleep and do it all over again. man do I need a life.

saw Jumper the other night after work cuz I needed a break, it was cool, I know I've wished I had that power so many times before. it was cool to see it as a movie.

I was talking to a guy who owns Dreemz Denim an independent clothing line, real exclusive, mad expensive, and he's gunna give me a hat or some shit to kinda rep his shit. I'm down, I'd love a hoodie or something but hey I take what I can get.
www.dreemzdenim.com

blahh now I need to go write an essay on the web for my religious concepts class. peace out

So this family walked in my store today, looked around and stuff and as they were leaving this girl was looking at the tiny girls section we have so I let her know whats what and shit, she was mad cute. I got a real genuine feeling, you know real recognize real. and she said something about not rocking the skater style, but I said thats cool, the shirts still rock, and she has a nice style. and she had to catch up with her family, gave me a smile, I smiled back obviously. I was captured by that smile, damn I cant really get her out of my head. oh well lame ass story. cuz I didn't really talk to her, saw her like 2 more times, waved and smiled.  oh well

yay my boss is away for the week and I wont see him till next week. this makes me so happy.

so first off my hand hurts like hell, I punched some crustie kid in the face cuz he kept going into me, push moshing, with no shirt mind you. dude needs to take a fucking shower. he got fair warning, but they got scared and left after they pissed off a Manhop (sp), a clan of like 7 brothers all into hardcore and shit, cool dudes, just dont get on their bad side. show was fun, got a headache, a bruised fist, a stiff neck and my ears are ringing, I love Hardcore.

But the real reason I decided to stay up a little later and write this is I need some advice, or just get it out there:
okay I met this girl at school, started off smiling and sayign hey or something, then we started talking, will hang out on our breaks.
shes mad cute, and a genuinely sweet girl. But heres the deal, she has a b/f and right now theres drama between them. shes kinda in a weird spot, confused about 3 main things. one does she want to stay with this guy, two take a break and lighten the stress load, and three she likes me. I mean I dont wanna ruin any relationships here, but I'd rather have her decide to lose number one.
I like this girl, and I dont wanna be a dick and have her decide quick. part of me would wanna rush things and sneak a kiss during a hug or something. The other part of me thinks thats a scumbag move. thats kinda rash. or should I just wait it out and keep talking and hanging out? I finally meet a girl thats into me and I'm into her but theres so much shit in the way. just my luck.

whoopee. work in the morning, hope my boss isn't coming in and going to the Albany store instead. its so peaceful and smooth when he's not there. I need more money, I want a new car.

good night.

I hate when I get these bouts of depression, I feel all heavy eyed and real low on energy, meds help but only so much. Hopefully getting tattooed on friday is an upper, cuz I always feel awesome for a few weeks after I get tattooed.
Tomorrow I'm gunna talk to my boss and go over a 2 and a half pages of grievances I wrote at 3am last night. Basically telling him to lay off and stop taking his stress out on us (his employees). I like the store and the ideas behind it and the fact that its not corporate makes me feel good. I wont work for a corporation if I can possibly prevent it.
but I really wanna make him leave the store to us and tell him to run the business as a whole, and take some time off to relax, smoke alot of weed and drink up and come back in a better state of mind. sux having all the responsibilities of a manager but none of the power.

So its been a while since i posted an entry but oh well.

I still haven't lost my job after cursing my boss out twice, second time was for only giving me 26 hrs and the 3 other people 36+, the new kid got more hrs then I did. kinda lame. tomorrow I'm gunna tell him he need to rethink how he runs the store and his sales approach cuz the way he does it sux. I love how we make more sales when hes not there than when he is, and we get more shit done too.
other than my job sucking, I started school again, fuck its gunna be a hard semester.
On tuesday I'm gunna get some more tattoo work done, my artist is leaving for philly on the 1st so I wanna finish shit and we will possibly do some other pieces cuz he wants to build his portfolio with trad work. so I'm gunna sit as long as he can work. I'm hoping 10 hrs or more. I'm psyched but oh man will my arm be sore the next day.

I'm still single and not getting laid, someone help me please.

 Yup I'm listening to the Mongoloids again, I love this new album, best hardcore out of Jersey in a long time.

I beat Call of Duty 4 today, such an awesome game. Almost feel like a soldier, gives me a perspective of what its like in those fire fights  that my bros and hos in the military get into. I give it 2 thumbs up. play it for Xbox 360.

oh I need advice here, do any chix dig those arab looking square scarves on dudes? I bought one and I think its awesome. but IDK if its hot on guys. I do think its funny that I now wanna shop at Urban Outfitters and wear things like 10 deep and crooks and castles and now have a collection of Nike SB's when 2 yrs ago I wouldn't think of wearing shit like this, salvation army and dirty band shirts were my thing slicked back greaser hair and creepers. oh well I'm more in style now lol.

even as fashionable as I am, I still cant get laid. Someone fuck me!










hahaha how funny do I look. tuff tuff greaser. Stay Psycho!


oh I added some new pix, fun stuff.

So the girl I was gunna hang with today stood me up by not returning calls or anything. so I'm kinda pissed. Why cant I meet a nice drug free girl who is legal and puts out at least a little. I need to get out of this area but I got 2 more semesters until I can get my degree and go to just about any school in the nation. I'm thinking Philly, but I wont know till I get to that point.

at least I have cool new shoes

So I'm gunna chill with this chic later today. see a movie grab a bite to eat, and hopefully fuck the fuck out of her. I really need some. Its actually been over a year now. Bad luck and me being mad picky have stopped me from getting laid. Right now I dont care if this girl smokes, drinks, is a slut or whatever I just want some poon. I kinda feel like an ass, goes against my nature but fuck it.


oh I got new shoes
 
they look soooo sweettt.

I think I'm totally heartless, I've gone from putting myself last to putting myself first. an extreme flip going into the whole live my own life; day by day mentality. First off I'm getting sick which is making me mad. But My dog is dying. she's lying there fading fast, choking on the blood in her lungs and mouth. it sux we dont have the money to take her to the vet and get her put down cuz they charge an arm and a leg to do that. Its most likely cancer or something that wasn't caught early, but with larger dogs it spreads fast and kills slow.
the part about this that is bothering me is I'm not even that sad. I'm not even close to tears, not even depressed or angry. its a whatever feeling. And I should be bummed alot. cuz on wednesday I heard that a friend of mine had a fatal OD on Christmas eve, probably a mix of alcohol and narcotics. I'm not even sad about that. I'm kinda like ehh its her fault for messing with drugs. I feel so fucking heartless. Its kinda wrong, but its not arrogance like I'm better than them, or the fact that I dont care. my feelings are kinda flat or I get really angry.
    When my sister took a near fatal overdose I wasn't even sad, just angry, I didn't shed a tear. I wanted to beat the state trooper that responded to the 911 call with a mace for his rude comments. I ran nearly every red light and drove 100 mph through town. This aint normal and it aint good.

so the other day, I was working and this chic who used to work at my store came in and wanted to try stuff on. I was okay whatever, let her in the fitting room. I was alone so I went to deal with other people. she must have slipped in the backroom and stole last nights deposit and closing papers from the lock box which wasn't locked. I didn't realize this until I went back there with my nights papers. But the dumbass left her wallet right by the safe. made the police reports easier to deal with. some people are just extremely dumb.


I really want some more of that mexican or southwestern soup my mom made the other night, I killed the leftovers for lunch, so good. and the chili sauce taste gets you after your done.