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The Psychological Abuse That Led Me Here

posted : Feb 23, 2019 @ 04:28PM pst listening to : my awesome spotify playlist

Fuck. 

That happened. 

My family pushed me too far, so I left. I went to NJ, now I'm a resident, and STILL living out of a bag a month and a half later. 

My family has been psychologically abusing me since I was young. It got too much. I was a target, and the guilt-tripping, telling me I'm fucked up and a trash person became too much for me to handle. 

So I fled at the beginning of January. There was nothing left for me in MA. I'd been sexually assaulted, I'd been dumped by my best friend, and I was barely surviving at my parent's house. I'm 30. It's time to move on. 

So, move on I did...first to South Jersey to live with a partner. I tried to off myself there and spent a week in the hospital. My partner dumped me immediately and said I was never welcome back in his life. He couldn't forgive an attempt. 

So, I went to live with a friend in North Jersey after I was released. Now I'm living with his best friend, and being his best friend's live in lover. Why? Well, why not, I suppose. 

I still have no job. My depression is bad, like woah. First I couldn't sleep and eat and now that's all I do. 

But, I'm moving on. I can't not move on. I need to move on. Be myself. Do my own thing. 

Right?

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ChaosTroll

I hope that you will have happy times in New Jersey and things will improve for you. 

posted Feb 25, 2019 @ 11:39PM pst
Seleste

Thank you. I appreciate that. 

posted Mar 01, 2019 @ 12:15PM pst

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