Sammie's journals

So Ty has been ignoring me, and I've been trying to figure out why
so I've been texting him asking him hey what'd i do? why are you
ignoring me? and I haven't heard from him in a good two weeks
and well today he finally gets back to me, and says holy fuck my
died and i don't feel like being a social person right now. I'm thinking
to myself wow good job Sam! way to really fuck that up!! but i wouldn't
have pestered him so much if he had just gotten to me sooner and
been like hey sorry i can't talk, i've got too much going on or just
given me something. But I'm not gonna lie he did tell me he was busy
but he tells me he's busy all the time, so i just assumed he was busy
skateboarding, and well god why the hell doesn't he have the time to
gimme a text or call back, and thats when i find out his dad died this
time last year, HOW THE HELL WAS I SUPPOSE TO KNOW!!! HE DIDN'T
TELL ME!!!!!

And i feel like a total ass, and it sucks :(

So i got the no, that i wasn't what GG was looking for
but once i get some things organized, i'll definitely give
it another go, and hopefully the next time around it'll
be the opposite answer, lol i wish that i could just meet
you guys haha, cause my personality is a lot different
than what you can read on your questionaires, i'm really
bubbly and friendly and smiling is my favorite thing to do
haha! but oh well next time ladies!!!

So i got my behind tattooed today!!
a diamond on each cheek unfortunately
i was lost in the excitement and forgot
to take pictures, but thats ok cause we
didn't get to finish today but all good
it should be done with in the next session
which should be may 14th! so expect pics
then :D

So i work with spencer.... I've pretty much had an attraction to him
since the day i laid eyes on him, and well with him we're always so awkward with each
other, and the other night i told him to come to the strat and drink with my friend and i
and he did and his friends came too, some of his friends went to another table, and him and
his friend dan stayed with us, because fortunately his friend worked with my friend so they were
talking, and his friend dan says, you like spencer don't you and i'm like uhh.... so what if i do, he
doesn't like me, and then he says to me, i don't know about that, i've know spencer for a long time
and it seems like you two have a physical attraction to each other, so yea and now me and spencer
are quite tight friends since i've worked with him, and I really don't know how to go about you know
"hooking up" with him like i don't want to just fool around with him, i like him more than just a quick
fuck. Also the thing is i'm also in love with another guy who just doesn't want anything more than
beneficial relationship and he also just recently broke up with a girl he's still in love with and is hoping
to get back with her eventually, so i'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place i don't have a clue,
should i approach him in a more personal way, or just leave this relationship a friendship?

oh and p.s. i know we work together but he's leaving soon to another shop so... also there's quite a few
couples in my shop, so this work relationship professionalism shit means nothing to me if you're gonna
bring that up haha....

Wow well i mean i didn't think that it'd bother me that
the gods girls ppl haven't messaged me, and it kinda
hasn't but geez, it would be nice to know a yes or no
by now, and its been like two weeks, but i guess i'll
just have to hang on a lil bit longer hopefully they'll
message me soon! :D

So Last night I went to this dingy lil pub called the strat
which is basically my favorite pub haha, and i go to almost
every weekend... but anyways so my friend and i we're
playing pool, and these big nasty guys started talking to
us and trying to get us to drink with them, and i was like
nah its good, they introduced themselves to us and my friend
gives them our real names, and then they bring their drinks
to our table, and i showed this one nasty guy my tattoo in
my lip and my scaring on my arm... he's like you're hard!
and he's got this gross raspy voice... I pretty much act like
i'm the queens shit, and he basically needs to get away from
me kinda attitude, and then i start dissing his tattoo's and
how gross they are.... so my friend and i go out for a smoke
we come back in and the fucker POORS BEER all down my back
i fucking turned around picked up a drink and just threw it in
his face! and well since this is MY bar i know all the bouncers
so i go to all the bouncers and just go hey you guys see that
guy right there if he ever comes near me again he's gone...
they say no worries sam, we got your back! :D
So don't mess with me nasty boys!

So I got my first tattoo done today and it says WHAT?!
on the inside of my lip, and fyi no it didn't hurt that bad
it was actually pretty decent not bad at all i mean if it
wasn't so quick then yea it probably would've been a lil
more drastic, but since it only took, like maybe 10 mins
it was such a breeze! no problems at all and i love it!!
when i get home from work I'll put it in my profile pics
haha, I'm such a loser, this is what i got for my first tattoo
*shakes head* :P

Oh so at work the other day, I finally learnt how
to clean the piercing tools, its funny cause the other
apprentices that have been there for so long HATE
doing the tools, and for new apprentices they get so
stoked and excited, cause well for me in my eyes I'm
one step closer to getting to poke someone with something
sharp! But the sad thing is, is that My boss who is apprenticing
me is leaving for a bit to "fix" the bad gossip about the other
shop, and to get back up to it's great standards again, and
unfortunately that requires, a good few months to do that
so my apprenticeship will be put on hold for a bit till he comes
back, I really hope that he can do it quick! Cause I'm just itching
to learn! He knows this, but he hates to be pestered, trust me
I found that out the hard way, he told me once to back off
and that he'll teach me when he's got more time, so you know
I backed off, and thank goodness he got someone to teach me
tools before he leaves!!! He always joked with me about
learning tools, cause I was asking him to teach me and he said
"hey if I teach you tools, then you're more useful, and i can't just
fire you"
So obviously he thinks I'm worth it, since he taught me before he left!
I've got the biggest smile on my face, cause it makes me feel so happy
that he's seeing how hard I've been working, and how bad I want it!!

Wow, I feel like i haven't been on GG in forever...
so I'm sorry for anyone that I haven't replied to in
a while, I'm so tired and exhausted, I've been working
so much and even this week i have no days off till the 10th
hopefully, but I'll be getting my lip tattooed on wed...
and In may I'll be getting my ass tattooed with two big
diamonds on each cheek, so I'm pretty stoked on that :D

So I'm at work, and I told everyone that I want to be a GG, I work in a tattoo/piercing shop, so everyone knows about GG, and they're try to tell me that i'll regret it, and that when I get older and have kids, they'll google my name and find nakie pics of me. Well I'm not letting them syke me outta of it, I know i wanna be a GG, and nobody can talk me outta of it... If I do get accepted into GG, I don't think I'd let it bother me if ppl see me on the streets and recognize me, ppl can say what they want to say... everyone has their own opinion, and mine is that I'm comfortable with myself, and I know that I'd love to be a GG, and rep it PROUDLY!!!