Sammie

So Ty has been ignoring me, and I've been trying to figure out why
so I've been texting him asking him hey what'd i do? why are you
ignoring me? and I haven't heard from him in a good two weeks
and well today he finally gets back to me, and says holy fuck my
died and i don't feel like being a social person right now. I'm thinking
to myself wow good job Sam! way to really fuck that up!! but i wouldn't
have pestered him so much if he had just gotten to me sooner and
been like hey sorry i can't talk, i've got too much going on or just
given me something. But I'm not gonna lie he did tell me he was busy
but he tells me he's busy all the time, so i just assumed he was busy
skateboarding, and well god why the hell doesn't he have the time to
gimme a text or call back, and thats when i find out his dad died this
time last year, HOW THE HELL WAS I SUPPOSE TO KNOW!!! HE DIDN'T
TELL ME!!!!!

And i feel like a total ass, and it sucks :(

So i got the no, that i wasn't what GG was looking for
but once i get some things organized, i'll definitely give
it another go, and hopefully the next time around it'll
be the opposite answer, lol i wish that i could just meet
you guys haha, cause my personality is a lot different
than what you can read on your questionaires, i'm really
bubbly and friendly and smiling is my favorite thing to do
haha! but oh well next time ladies!!!

So i got my behind tattooed today!!
a diamond on each cheek unfortunately
i was lost in the excitement and forgot
to take pictures, but thats ok cause we
didn't get to finish today but all good
it should be done with in the next session
which should be may 14th! so expect pics
then :D

So i work with spencer.... I've pretty much had an attraction to him
since the day i laid eyes on him, and well with him we're always so awkward with each
other, and the other night i told him to come to the strat and drink with my friend and i
and he did and his friends came too, some of his friends went to another table, and him and
his friend dan stayed with us, because fortunately his friend worked with my friend so they were
talking, and his friend dan says, you like spencer don't you and i'm like uhh.... so what if i do, he
doesn't like me, and then he says to me, i don't know about that, i've know spencer for a long time
and it seems like you two have a physical attraction to each other, so yea and now me and spencer
are quite tight friends since i've worked with him, and I really don't know how to go about you know
"hooking up" with him like i don't want to just fool around with him, i like him more than just a quick
fuck. Also the thing is i'm also in love with another guy who just doesn't want anything more than
beneficial relationship and he also just recently broke up with a girl he's still in love with and is hoping
to get back with her eventually, so i'm kinda stuck between a rock and a hard place i don't have a clue,
should i approach him in a more personal way, or just leave this relationship a friendship?

oh and p.s. i know we work together but he's leaving soon to another shop so... also there's quite a few
couples in my shop, so this work relationship professionalism shit means nothing to me if you're gonna
bring that up haha....

Wow well i mean i didn't think that it'd bother me that
the gods girls ppl haven't messaged me, and it kinda
hasn't but geez, it would be nice to know a yes or no
by now, and its been like two weeks, but i guess i'll
just have to hang on a lil bit longer hopefully they'll
message me soon! :D