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These Days posted : 05/19/09 at 08:40am pst listening to:Chelsea Girl, by Nico

Does anything good ever come from midnight thinking? Bruised thoughts, battered soul, and the wolf is always at the door. Still, these days I seem to do a lot of midnight thinking, although in truth, it's actually more 3 a.m. thinking. Midnight sounds more poetic.

These days.

These days I find myself feeling hope again, after such a long time in a fallow state. But hope is stranger, knocking at a locked door, and it takes an act of will to let it enter my life. It's hard to dash hopelessness. But the absence of hope is death, perhaps a living death, prolonged, a slow dying. I'm ready to leave that life behind.

I have always found myself living on the edge, in the hinterlands, the grey areas. When you look on old maps, when the map makers reached unexplored territory, they would write, "Thar be dragons." Well, there are no maps of the human heart, but if there were, where you'd find me would be a little note, "Thar be dragons," and "thar be me." Sorry to talk like a pirate, but you'd probably find a few of them "thar" as well. Argh.

And still, my mind keeps me from sleep, sweet oblivion, where only my dreams can haunt me. So I succumb to midnight thinking, and to wondering, if anything good ever comes from it. You tell me?

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Charlie
05/19/09 12:27pm pst

go listen to These Days by Nico, i think its the perfect song for yu right now.

<3

Ryan0666
05/19/09 02:29pm pst

Where do you think I got the title? It's what I was listening to when I wrote it.

Charlie
05/19/09 07:23pm pst

niiice. that song is so soothing to me, makes me feel like she was i my head when she wrote it...about 10 years before i was born lol

Ryan0666
05/20/09 12:04am pst

More like 20 plus years before you were born, and Jackson Browne wrote it. He was her boyfriend and rhythm guitarist at the time.

Ash
05/19/09 09:01pm pst

Midnight thinking is usually toxic in my experience. Unfortunately it's one of those things that is hard to stop doing.

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