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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!

LEAVE ME LOVE AND BOOBS!!!!!!

LOTS AND LOTS OF BOOBS!!!!!!!!!!

LABOR DAY, SEP 1ST IS MY BIRTHDAY...

ANOTHER YEAR IN CELEBRATION OF MY ARRIVAL INTO THIS WORLD.

KINDA BUMMED ABOUT IT.

SOMEONE HELP ME FEEL BETTER PLEASE.

ITS GONNA BE THE FIRST BIRTHDAY THAT I CAN REMEMBER THAT I WONT BE GETTING THAT PHONE CALL.

NO MATTER WHERE I WAS IN THE WORLD, MY MOM WOULD CALL AND SING HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

I WOULD MAKE HER CALL ME BACK JUST TO SAVE IT IN MY VOICEMAIL OR ON MY ANSWERING MACHINE.

LAST YEAR SHE SANG IT TO ME AS I WHEELED HER OUT TO THE COURTYARD OF THE HOSPICE SHE WAS IN.

IT WAS THE LAST TIME SHE WAS COHERENT.

UNDERSTANDING AND SPEAKING WELL.

TOTALLY HAVING HER WITS AND SARCASM ABOUT HER.

FIRING ON ALL CYLINDERS 100 PERCENT.

AFTER THAT IT WAS ALL DOWN HILL.

THIS IS A BIRTHDAY I THINK I AM GOING TO SKIP...

THIS WHOLE YEAR IS GONNA BE ONE I SKIP WHENEVER BROUGHT UP.

SO I HOPPED ON A GREYHOUND EARLY A.M. AND IM IN NORTH CAROLINA NOW...

IM AT A PRETTY AFFORDABLE HAMPTON INN..

GREAT INTERNERD AND A FULL COFFEE STATION IN THE LOBBY.

I JUST GOT BACK FROM EATING DINNER AND I HEAR A BANGING ON THE WALL FROM THE NEXT ROOM.

ALL I HEAR IS SOME BROAD GETTING THE FUCK OF HER LIFE!

SCREAMING "GIVE IT TO ME DADDY" OVER AND OVER.

SO IM BEING A PERV AND I HAVE THE TV ON MUTE AND A PLASTIC CUP UP AGAINST THE WALL TO TRY AND HEAR MORE.

ALL I COULD MAKE OUT WAS "FUCK THAT ASS" AND "YEAH DADDY" HAHA


I REALLY NEED TO GET SOME LOVIN SOON HAHA

OR AT LEAST A GOOD OLE' DIRTY FUCK SESSION!

"SIGH"

ANYONE IN THE AREA WANNA HANG OR WHAT NOT HIT ME UP!

OH AND ENJOY THIS....

I DID!

i will be in north carolina.

ill be on a bus for about 12 hours.

text me and keep me company.

hit me up if you wanna hang and such.

ill be in the fayetteville area.

do it!!!

Has anyone told you lately that they would always be there for you?
ha! nope.

When you think about your first kiss, what does it remind you of?
barfing... cause thats what i did right after.

Who are your last five texts from?
Caroline and Kim.

Do you think the last person you kissed is nice?
she was pretty worthless.

Who was the last person to call you?
King Sober

Do you miss anyone?
always do.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
normally i would say no, but if i could go back and spend more time with my mom i would. for sure.

What are your plans for this weekend?
resting hopefully.

Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?
depends on whom it is coming from and if they are not some random person.

Are you listening to music right now?
Pirates of the Caribbean sound track.

What was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
said my prayers and turned off the lights.

First time you kissed the last person you kissed?
last month.

Is this year the best year of your life?
actually it is the very worst year of my life.

Do you have a best friend?
i have a few.

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
drinking coffee and being aggrivated.

Do you fall for people easily?
unfortunately but im getting better at not doing it as much.

When is the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
last month.

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
nope, she lies.

In the past week have you gotten sick?
mmm yep.

How many clothes do you have in your closet?
too much.

Right now do you want to kiss someone?
nope... super single and my heart is on lockdown.

Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?
both

Would you ever get a tattoo?
duh

What's your mood?
tired, anxious, lonely

Where were you 1 hour ago?
down stairs kicking the washing machine

When's the last time you cried?
last week

Did you enjoy your weekend?
fuck no

Do you like your first name?
love it.

Do you regret doing something today?
i regret not making more of it

Last bed you slept in?
mine.

Can a boy and girl be friends without having feelings for each other?
yes

Where'd you get the shirt you're wearing?
ABRB are the shit!

Who do you currently like?
does it matter? im sure they will hurt me in the long run.

Sunrise or Sunset?
sunset and staying up till sunrise.

What movie is in your DVD player?
children of men.

Are you cocky?
oh yes

Have you ever been to Mexico?
yep. 2 words... donkey show

Your favorite tv show?
Carl Sagans' Cosmos

How many piercings do you have?
3 left in

Last two numbers in your phone number?
95

Who's the last person you called?
my sister

Where are your parents from?
NY

Are you afraid of the dark?
nope

Can you roll your tongue?
yeppp.

Best fast food french fries?
nathans

Has your day been eventful?
not at all.

Have you ever eaten at TGI Fridays?
yup. i frequent their bar up the street from my apt.

Can you skateboard?
yup.

How much money do you have on you right now?
maybe 50 bucks

Song you're listening to right now?
the one with the notes

Who's in your house?
me and my brother

What side of the bed do you sleep on?
beds are for lovers, i sleep on a chair.

Who was the last person in/on your bed other than you?
someone who wasnt worthy of being there for sure ha

Can you think of anyone you want in your bed?
hahaha nope. theres more room on the floor.

Something you're looking forward to in the next month?
NC

Last person you gave up on?
wow... too many to list to be honest.

AND FYI... I WANT TO LIVE HERE...

I WOULD SLAUGHTER A WILD PACK OF RULER SWINGIN' NUNS FOR A GOOD MARTINI RIGHT NOW.

3 parts Bombay Sapphire
1 part Grey Goose
1 part Dry Vermouth
shaken with a twist or stirred with a gimlet

DELICIOUS!

SOMEBODY MIRACLE 2 OR 3 TO ME ASAP!

so i got pretty banged up on friday...

was with a friend who offered a ride for me to run some errands...

the light changes and we start crossing the street....

and some asshole in an suv slammed us and crushed the focus we were in...

my girth basically kept the engine from sitting in my lap or lodging in my chest....

luckily air bags work and the sheer force of impact combined with my fat ass broke the seat into a laying position....

shitstick motherfucker cocksucker fuckin took off too, nice huh?

im pretty banged up.

nothing broken...

no cuts...

some bruises...

all my muscles and joints feel like i just did a triathlon while holding a vw bug on my back the whole time....

thankyou pain killers for taking the edge off...

so... now that i lived through ANOTHER vehicle wreck, whats up???

if it wasnt for bad luck....

you know where im going with this...

SO IT HAS COME TO THIS...

COME MAY 2009, I WILL BE COMPETING IN THE WORLD BEARD AND MOUSTACHE CHAMPIONSHIPS IN ANCHORAGE, ALASKA!

I WAS THINKING OF SHAVING AND GOING BACK TO MY INFAMOUS GOATEE BUT AFTER A FEW EMAILS I RECEIVED TODAY I BELIEVE IF I KEEP MY FACIAL FROCK GOING I CAN BE ONE OF THE BEST!

IM GOING FOR IT AND I WILL NEED YOUR SUPPORT!

LET ME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK!!!

I MIGHT NEED A CHEER TEAM WITH ME WHEN I GO SO LETS GET TO PLANNING PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!

ADD TEN MONTHS TO THESE LOVELY BRISTLES AND IT WILL BE MASSIVE!!!!

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DO IT!!!!

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