MojoKiss's journals

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so whats up

kinda tired today but not stressed. been a busy boy but the money aint comin in. dont wanna go too corporate i like to be free... its hard sometimes to find ways to make the money when you depend on your own secretary skills and book keeping. its a pain in the royal ass.

I asked a friend of mine to be my secretary as a joke. then i said. wait no i think im serious.

i need a team i need teamwork. i need cooperation i need unity of effort.

i need dedication.. to be with like minds who are dedicated to similar things.

im tired but not just that... im a little discouraged.

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ts so easy to act like everyone else around you - and when things get negative, they tend to spread to others around. It feels right maybe, to respond to the negative with more negative... but fighting fire with fire, sometimes burns down your own neighborhood... like a bunch of inner city riots, and fighting fire with hot air coming outta your mouth in the form of empty bull shit hyped up language only fans the flames,,, right?

whats up with codependancy - is it like a competition to see who can be more dramatic and prove they need the other person more than the other person needs them? Seems amateur and childish but some people never grow up... they never get free from being so needy. its like people look for someone to anchor them down and the get attached to. Its like they wanna be in a little box so they can always know where they stand. Keep your enimies close... that type of thing... like the walls of the box are your enimies so you wanna keep your world small but then you resent the fact that you have to be so confined in order to function... and "you" blame it on the people in your life.

hypothetically.

But theres a different way.

And I live it.

I'm not a preacher im a doer and i speak my own truth after the fact that i do it.

To be the calm wind... that sets the breath into a slow deep high tensile rythm that gradually shows the world around yoou that you aren't one to be brittle, nor one to bend to easily. You cant be broken and yoou can't be abused and used. And in this peace, you lessen the madness around you - tho some may come to you for support, its only the sensible ones who recognize the sense that you maitain within your being.

We have cirtain freedoms tho we may not have rights. We have the freedom to change form and to adapt and to grow within ourselves. Some say meditation is the way... and it may be - as meditation is something we all do - only in different forms and on different matters. To bring into subduction the notions around you and bring them into the light and into accountability. To simply see, and then to know.

To think in lines is to think blindly. To think with they eyes is to think without listening to the inner voice. Lines converge and confuse... voices tell only myths. But the inner being you possess and that possesses you, hand in hand, is the way that will bring you into ballance when youve been beaten by the world.

The more you relate, listen and commune with your inner being, while sharing it with others of like awareness, the more you will confirm who you are and what you are capable of, and what you can face and withstand, with grace and beauty just as the nature, which created you, desires to make all things. Even the bombs we fashion out of natures elements, obey the laws of nature and look beautiful when exploding, tho causing great loss which was the human intent. There is always grace in creation - which we all are... we are creations every day. Creation has no end or begining, is it a never ending being. We are creation. When we doubt, it might save us, but when we have faith only in doubt, it will remove us from creation and give our spirit, mind and body to another form of being that may have the chance to maintain proper respect

Matt Mayes, Mojokiss

this is careese. she was my first tall skinny hot model. these are new pics from my current tour.. bitch.

hey im travelin the country takin pics and workin on networking etc.

shooting some fashion stuff and other stuff

whatevs.

im all about texting

727 678 5570 so just say hey. let me know who it is.

matty

its all about using less water and steeping it longer and using creme instead of half n half or milk... then use honey for sweetener. color should be a soft but opaque mossy green

 

enjoy

 

 

Just wanted to drop a little note out there about my current health and interesting experiences.

Through improved clearer nutrition - free from toxins, i find my mind becoming more sensitive to understanding the nature of itself. Yes, I can become more sensitive and uncomfortable with toxins, but this is a blessing as i can know when to remove myself from harm that would bring my body, and "me" down.

I am made up of many parts and layers. There is no one part of me that defines who i am. This goes for everything from the food that is in my stomach to the cells that are in my various systems to the blood in my circulation to the things i smell to the way i feel and think. All of these are the experience of "me" and there is no boundary to "me". I span the galaxies and beyond... to subtle degrees.

As my body experiences new things that it learns are benificial to it, it in turn encourages me to consume more of those things. It also finds itself to be more satisfied and less anxious.

My anxiety is that of my body growing frustrated wth how im living my life. When i eat better, my anxieties go away and my energy becomes available for more creative and restful things, or for whatever i need it for. I am able to focus on more productive things outside of my body rather than being concerned about the anxiety within my being.

I am able to speak more freely and openly with others.

The types of food changes i have made are that of avoiding sugar and replacing it always with honey instead. I have also deleted all filtered water from my diet. this includes tap water. I have replaced chemically filtered water with natural water as it comes from bio-healthy sources. I've stopped drinking chemicals and hormones from milk. I've continued to consume milk, both cow and goats milk, which i find to be very treatful and comforting as well as satisfying and so far, easily digested, not causing me depression or fatigue. I have not been drinking raw milk as of now, but all the milk is from free grazing stock and healthy fed with no pesticides in the feed or unnatural hormones in their bodies. I've started eating free range eggs as well.

I've stopped drinking coffee, and in the past few months have stopped smoking. I've replaced coffee with yerba mate, which i happen to enjoy a little more than coffe and find it more benificial to my mood and tastes.

I've avoided placing myself in situations which i feel i do not belong in. And have replaced them with situations I feel useful and proud to be a part of. Where i feel productive and can be myself.

I've avoided religeon.

I've avoided gurus

I've avoided many comforts

I've been motivated by my abilities - not my fears or lusts.

I've in time, learned what works for me.

I wanted to write a little something here to perhaps encourage someone and to get some feedback.

I've noticed that my opinions with slowly influence others but that i can't expect a good reaction from others at first and I just want to share my experiences that i know have made my moments in life better.

I hope we took enough pics. they're really beautiful. We still got some more to go on tuesday but we're takin a break for now. I'm happy with the photos. we did video too. can't wait to show chelsea

So hello. Once again sorry about the change of accounts. Its about 7:33 here in Florida right now. I went to sleep with a mild migrane around 2 am. I woke up around 6:30 or so. I felt amazing for some odd reason. I don't understand my body. yesterday i had to get up at 3 pm and when i tried... i felt like HELL. pain everywhere. I could hardly stand up... it was rotten. I wasn't hung over or anything like that. Its just that i went to bed around 10 am that day. There's something to be said i guess, about NOT staying up extra long hours and then sleeping short hours i guess. Well i made a nice big grits and eggs breakfast and it did me right. I MIGHT have coffee later on before i leave to do some errands. Im broke and its a joke. But i have a little gas money to get me where i need to go - and hopefully I'll also have more money by the end of the day.

I"M SHOOTING BILLIE! She's hot. We are gonna take a lot of pictures. They're gonna be amazing. She's really excited and i am too. She seems to know some nice locations and she's fearless. Be good to her. We're gonna shoot this friday and then I'll ftp the finished goodies to gg. "just the top of the muphin" she says. haha. and she's really into the fashion edge of things as from what i can remember from our phone conversation yesterday. Oh boy i think i might lay down and close the eyes a little more.

- love matt