Manolos's journals

so i got my x pole the other day. totally stoked.

asked my stepdad to help me put it up saturday mornin. he told me no

said it wasn't goin in the basement.

my mom and i told him everything. told him that it was removable and that it wouldn't leave any marks. told him how it would be put up in the basement and everything

i want to cry. i wanted to start working on lesson plans so i could start giving lessons. my friends have said they would pay me for lessons...i am really really bummed. i might have to sell my pole...

so i finished level 3...almost busted my ass in the beginning too

 

i am jobless come friday..

and my best friend had always talked about how she was gonna take me on her graduation trip her mom said she would pay for...not anymore. said she is taking someone else now...so that means we aren't besties i guess

i am ready to move.

my friend had me send her my resumes bc her friend needs a nanny for her 3 yr old boy.

couple are kind of big deals. so that equals big money is what i was told.

my life is kind of in limbo here. i have been told that the people i hang out with like to stab me in the back. that's what i get for getting people into shows for free all the time. i have been getting used.

sucks.

 

a little dark and blurry

song: 1 More Fix by Rockets To Ruin

myspace.com/rocketstoruin

 

 

 

so boy that kept me up sex texting is deleted from phone

he was always expecting me to do all the work.

like last night he was eating at the same place i was

a mutual friend told their table i was on the other side of the patio.

one of the girls came over to say hi.

she texts me later to tell me boy was mad that i didn't come over to say hi

why do i always have to be the one who reaches out to make contact?

i never ever fall for guys. just always sleep with them and move on.

i fell for him without really knowing him. it was a big deal to me.

glad i didn't get in deeper for him to hurt me more

sex texting kept me up till 630am

no joke.

some of the texts made me shutter

but i have to be good and not fuck and run

i actually like this one

i want a new pair really bad...they have to be hot tho...i could get another pair of stripper heels for pole class...but i heart my boots too much..hmmm maybe new cowboy boots. i could totally go for a cream pair for the summer...

my friends rocked my face off last night! they played only 4 songs for this local tv special but it was friggin awesome! i want them to get soo big and rock everyone's face off...

i like this boy. buuuuut i don't really know him that well so i am trying to slowly get to know him and he keeps goin all girl on me and being dramatic about stupid shit. the girls that hang around him are soooo dramatic all the time and they are wearing off on him.

Example A:

3/4/08 331am: i get a text message from him asking me where i was "tonight/lastnight. I told him that i was at smiths and he asked why i didn't come say hey to him. he honestly looked straight at me and right through me. he bumped into me a couple of times. So why should I go out of my way to possibly get shunned, right? well i tell him this and he gets pissed. I add in that I left after Rockets to Ruin played (friends that rocked my face off- www.myspace.com/rocketstoruin   cleve is the only one that is single!) So then he gets even madder that I didn't even stay to see him play and he says that I am his second disappointment of the night. I tell him that I had texted him and myspaced messaged him that day and he never responded. So again why should i go out of my way to try and be his friend when he never responds to my text messages? i am not gonna hang around like the others girls and hang on to his every word. i don't have time for that shit. well he said he was sorry and that he had been looking forward to pulling me into the back for a quick dance session( he likes when i vibrate and grind against his cock- but what guy doesn't like that !) whatev. he texted me again at like 10am tryin to be cute but i was too busy gettin ready.

but seriously ! this guy has also had the nerve to come up to me when i was out to eat one night for my besties bday and asked me how come i never respond to his text messages.

however, when i get him away from those annoying ass groupie girls he is awesome. like such a cool guy...i bet you they wouldn't notice a bus comin at them...they aren't that bright..lol

wow....i am exhausted. but i don't think i have a reason to be

yesterday i

-baked choc chip cookies from scratch

-baked orange rolls

-make bbq tofu

- pole dance class...was kinda dull

 

i woke up and felt like i had been hit by a truck. i had odd dreams...maybe that is what the deal was.

im at smiths olde bar today work in the booking office...i love this job. i have soo much fun and share soo many giggles...

there is an awesome show at smiths saturday night....lord t and eloise...

awesome. then my friends are playing for comcast on demand local music program tuesday night at smiths too!

i need better pics of myself. i always look so sorority girl in my pics. and i really wanna get a tattoo that isn't hidden...10 tattoos and you cant see em unless i take my clothes off! AH! oh and i need to touch up my purple in my hair..i need to do that..grr i keep forgetting...