Madie's journals

WHOS ALL COMING TO CALGARY FOR THE CONVENTION...
DOES ANYONE WANNA GET A HOTEL, THERES A GIRL AT MY SHOP THAT"S GOING AND WE WANNA GO IN ON A HOTEL ROOM.

HOLLA IF YOU"RE COMING AND WANNA DO THIS SHIT!!!!


xoxox.
Madie.

I just picked up the New Misery Signals album Controller...

AMAZING.

If any of you get a chance, CHECK IT THE FUCK OUT!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.myspace.com/miserysignals


xoxox.
Madie.

I really suck at life, and I am sorry.

But I'm over sucking, okay, I have more time to do things besides work cause my bills are starting to shrink, and it makes me smile.



Here's a fast recap of life as of late.

I travel way too much; and plan to continue doing so.

I went to Toronto, it was absolutely AMAZING.



Brittany: you are the cutest thing in the whole entire world and I loved randomly adventuring with you.

Wren:; I don't think you need me to tell you how much I love you, I tell you on a daily basis.xoxox.

Swindle;Blackout nights, and random adventures for samosa's and way too short american apparel dresses warmed my heart, oh and when you watched me randomly pole dance at the party later on saturday.

Charity;You are amazing as usual, I wish I would have gotten to hang out with you more. I miss youxoxox.

Cyn;I'm sad I didn't get to spend much time with you this year you little gorgeous one, it was great seeing you though!

Livia;I will see you soon, I love you as always.

Alice;You are such a shit head and I love it; I like when you totally coined me as a huge stoner outside the gallery, then told me that I had some ghetto in my dancing, haha! xoxo.

Katrina;You make me smile way too big, and are the cutest thing EVER.

Porcelain;Shit Girl you are gorgeous, Seeing you in nothing but undies and pasties was definately a bonus to the weekend.

Juliet;whoa baby, you are adorable, I wish I coulda hung out with you more.

Dee;So cuteeeeeeeeeeeee!!!xoxox.

HARLOW; I think I have fallen madly in love with you!!! I am going to make it out to LA when you are going!! then I am going to steal you and put you in my pocket and carry you around with me!!xo.





To all the girls I didn't get to hang out with much, I'm sorry, you were all adorable, and I had fun meeting you all. xoxox.Last but not least;

FARHAAD- HOLY SHIT, I had a lot of fun hanging out with you. and eventhough nobody introduced us, I finally did the honors for us, and from that moment it was great. Talking about the celtics game, and dunks, and pantera...oh...and flo-rida... like I said, i will be in LA as soon as I can and me you and Harlow are gonna get insane.





xoxox. pps...Tomorrow Julene...I have everything ready to send on my other computer.

Madie.xoxox.

NEW BYD ALBUM CAME OUT TODAY.
GET INTO IT!!!

XOXOX.
MADIE.

I finally got the other side of my leg tattooed the other day, I got "If you do, If you don't" by Cartel off the new album, and if anyone was wondering, the other song is "the goodbye song" by New Found Glory.


I also thanks to Charity and Todd's visit last october, became obsessed with Miss Dior Cherie, however could not find the 100ml anywhere around here, so luckily my moms went to mexico and found it for me!!!!!


Last night me and my best friend went to two different walmarts for a total of about 3.5 hours to buy things to make arts and crafts, however, me being the idiot I am thought all the easter stuff was amazing, so I did indeed by bunny ears.


My room is so bright and it is pissing me off bad today.

I AM A HAPPY LITTLE DUCK THOUGH!!!!!!!!!
xoxox
Madie.

I have officially started throwing everything inside my body up,
I assume I am just sick, with the flu or something...
but something in my head tells me its my emotions fucking with me.

I just finally got my wits about me and gave up on something that made me so amazingly happy for a long time...

I think that's is what is making me so ill...
I wish the dreams would stop...


ugh I'm sorry to be such a bum out.

xoxox.
Madie.

If you haven't already listened to this, and like heavy shit;

get into it;
myspace.com/buryyourdead
myspace.com/buryyourdead
myspace.com/buryyourdead

New shit is amazing; not to mention they are some of the best dudes I've ever hung out with.

xoxox.
Madie.

DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My boobs are honestly shrinking by the day, I have gone from being a D almost DD to a B cup in like 2.5 months, well since christmas. I don't get it.
well I do get it but honestly. it makes me kinda sad sometimes.

I posted some more updated pictures, because I feel as if People need to see my shrinking booobies!
I am watching Last Kiss, which makes me cry, and miss things that I shouldn't but I do.
PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT.

I need lovin. or just a dirty text or something.

xoxox.
Madie.

I put up some pictures of booooooobs!

I also finally got off my lazy ass and shot 2 diys tonight as I deleted the previous ones I had off my computer due to an absolute freak out I had for no reason.

xoxox.
Madie.

Tell me if I'm crazy or not...
cause I have a feeling this might make me a little bit crazy...
I thought that when you were younger you were supposed to be way into having sex, and at least from what I've witnessed around here " sleep with a bunch of different dudes" on a regular basis.
I have no commitment to anyone, But I have only slept with one guy in the past year... and I feel no need to even think about sleeping with anyone else...
it makes no sense to me, and it's not like I'm having sex on a regular basis, I'm talking every few months, and I somehow seem to be fine with that...
I haven't even kissed another guy, I feel as if I am missing out on something maybe?...

does anyone know what I'm talking about, or have any advice?

xoxox.
Madie.