MadMaxxx's journals

Happy Valentines Day...make sure you get some! I will be.

Chillen at work on a nice Icy day in New York...Check out the pimp ass early 90's group 3rd bass..thats what old school rap is all about! Thats right I"m white.

I had this incredible dream today, I moved to a new city. I couldn’t tell which it was but I know it was a big city and it was snowing towards the end of the dream. I was wondering around and met an amazing girl; short hair, pretty eyes, awesome personality; I thought it was her, the one, my love. She showed me around town and took me with her to return a rental truck she had, I even remember the guy who worked at the rental place. I met her sister, she was riding with us in the truck when we returned it . N as ill call her, cause I remember her name started with the letter N asked me out to a movie, and it started snowing big fluffy snow flakes, it was beautiful. I held her and she asked what happened to the taking it slow. I responded I just have a feeling this time, kissing her. There was alot more that happened but I cant remember but it took place over 2 days.  I couldn’t get her phone number or name though, which confused me. I thought it was so real, I was actually happy...and then I woke up to this cold reality. With no one.

I bet $10 that no one reads my journal entries... but any way I found my hobo goves from last year and i love them...can’t take them off. I started visiting the gym on a regular basis now, stopped doing drugs, and put a portfolio together to take to the local record company to get a full time job. Part time jobs with no benefits suck. I haven’t been staying at my apt as much as I use to after my gf left me for some other guy...psh. I have become "the man on the couch" at a few friends’ houses, and well discovered that my friends love me and I have no idea why. But it really makes me happy to know that some people really do care. It’s funny how the ones you never expected to care, care more than the ones you thought really did.
I feel great and want to continue this way, and maybe find someone special to share life with.

Now off to practice with the band. next objective to get them motivated and stop smoking so much pot.

will it ever find me? I thought it did once but it just up and left me :( I hope it finds me again and stays forever...