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posted : Mar 07, 2017 @ 07:44PM pst

Given that it’s International Women’s Day I’m going to break kayfabe here for a minute and be real and give thanks to not just the strongest woman but for sure the strongest person I have in my life in my mother.

I promise this is not hyperbole when I say I was a complete and utter shithead when I was a kid, particularly as a teenager. I’m not going to go into just what special kind of shitheel I was because that’s not me any more and it’s in the past but she managed to not only deal with that but still turn me into the at least halfway decent human being and somewhat productive member of society that I am today. All without the asshole of an old man that walked out on us when I was all of 12 years old. Not just that, but then steadfastly refused to provide anything more than the bare minimum to help provide for his kids, and even that only under protest.

She did all of that as a nurse working full time shift work saving other people’s goddamn lives.

Then, just to kick life right in the dick, fought and beat breast cancer.

I’ve lead a remarkably privileged life, mostly thanks to her, but I can only hope that if I ever have the misfortune of facing that kind of adversity I can do so with even a fraction of the dignity and class she did.

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<3

posted Mar 08, 2017 @ 07:14AM pst
Lace

Woah, your mum sounds like an amazing and strong woman! 

posted Mar 09, 2017 @ 03:03AM pst
Faintofmatts

She really is.

It's not that she never gets angry or upset but she just powers through it, regardless of whatever else is going on.

posted Mar 11, 2017 @ 04:11AM pst
Blath

this was lovely to read.

posted Mar 14, 2017 @ 02:02PM pst
Faintofmatts

Thankyou.

It was super uncomfortable to write.

Unless I'm really angry about something I find it really difficult to be honest and open about how I really feel.

But I'm still glad I did.

posted Mar 14, 2017 @ 07:32PM pst
Blath

Hm, interesting. it didnt read like that.

posted Mar 15, 2017 @ 02:20PM pst
Faintofmatts

Don't get me wrong, if there's one thing I'm definitely not modest about it's that when I really try I'm a GREAT writer.

And writing this rather than having to physically tell people definitely makes it easier to disassociate myself from actually talking about my feelings.

I almost would need both hands at this point to count the number of relationships I've fucked at this point because of my almost complete inability to open up about my feelings.

But even just writing this made me feel uncomfortable. And on top of that being paranoid about people thinking I'm just chasing attention or 'likes' online.

I'm just glad people seem to be receiving it in the intention I meant for it.

posted Mar 16, 2017 @ 04:25PM pst

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