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freaking out

posted : May 17, 2017 @ 07:01AM pst

well, apparently i'm not the only one with bronchitis. i spoke to two strangers yesterday who have been suffering from bronchitis for two weeks, like me. fuck spring. fuck all this bukakke polination shit!! i keep hockin' big honkin' loogies, and can't fucking breathe! 

cause of this, i'm way behind on my grad work, and it's finals week. i'm screwed. my chronic pain has doubled, and my incompetent pcp keeps referring me to rheumatologists, all of which keep rejecting me out right. 

here's a common phrase, "We don't treat fibromyaliga." 

me: "Ok, so, is that my diagnosis?"

them: "We're not at liberty to say." 


all so very helpful, western medicine. 

so, been out for two weeks, basically binge eating, not breathing, and being in pain. 

no matter...

so, i tried a new dating app, Bumble. it's pretty progressive...except for the guys i swipe right on. the first convo i had was a guy who could not put together a sentence, and kept asking for nudes. the second guy seemed really awesome, asked me out for last night, and canceled a half hour before the date, saying that he "just didn't feel like it". my bff says that's the new generation; FOMO twenty-somethings that make multiple plans, pick the best, and flake out at the last minute. i'm like, REALLY?! that's a thing?! 

not gonna lie, i screamed for a good twenty minutes about the inconsideracy of that entire interaction, thinking to myself why do i even bother?! 


so, now i'm sitting in bed, pondering the idiocracy of the world, trying to summon up the motivation to do an exorbitant amount of homework, and vaping instead. 

does anyone wanna recommend some good music? or...interesting websites or something?

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doctors are so shitty with fibro, i'm sorry.

as for good music. i just posted some in the "what are you listening to" forum that you might like :) beautiful queer art rock folk.

posted May 20, 2017 @ 06:27PM pst

"beautiful queer art rock folk"?! that's probably my favorite genre of music!!! i'm gonna go check that out now, thanks @Blath

posted May 22, 2017 @ 01:24PM pst

Let me know what you think! I've been a fan of SOAIF for yeaaaaars now. 

posted May 22, 2017 @ 04:28PM pst

Never heard of them, but I fell in love after hearing that song. 

posted May 22, 2017 @ 05:40PM pst


posted May 23, 2017 @ 12:48PM pst

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