Deceptijohn

The date is September 1st. my lease is up, and noone has touched anything. were hoping to resign the lease but im not shure whats going on. were just gunna give the landlord the money and say listen dude, well figure it out. BTW! im drunk as shit and i have no fucking money. my work bounced a check  on me last week, and i got hit with huge overdraft fees. but i saw my dad yesterday and he said hed help me out. plus leo has the money to cover me for this instant. ill get the money from dad give that to leo, and pay my dad back. I feel like a huge piece of shit borrowing money. I absolutely hat4e asking for things because im so stubborn. i have absolutely refused to ask anyone for anything since ive been living on my own. But since i got fucked hard without a reach around on this one i gotta man up and admit that i dont hve my life as well planned out as i thought. but whatever its gunna be fine. ill have my dad payed back by the end of the week. its like that yanno!? But really tho, ium drunk. m leo and danny hit up the park and skated and drank some 40's. of course i had to keep drinking when i got home. ITS LABOR DAY!!!!!! Im not shure if im jut being irresponsible, or if im such a bitch about asking my dad for that money that i gotta get sauced up to do it. No Excuse for being home alone drunk wearing my roomate motorcycle helmet lolol.

    So its been a while since an update. Got a new roommate and i havn't really been able to get at a computer for long enuff to write an entry. But things are alright. My wrist really isnt healing up terribly well. I should go back for that 2nd set of X rays. Whatever ill see what happens. Also i once again wiped out on same street further  up the hill. Got some WICKED road rash on my left hip and a killer bruise to boot. Sucks mad hard. Work, still gay, but im trying to get a job as a machinist at United Electric Controls. But i dont feel like i can actually wake up and be in work at 6:30 AM. thats a nono. Been hanging out with this wicked cool/cute girl i met. She seems to dig me so im happy about that. were just doin that friend thing tho. yanno how those things are. Im somewhat apprehensive tho at times. being 20, its generally frowned upon to hang out with a 16 year old i guess. I honestly see nothing really weird about it at all. My friends seem to think its sketchy. But my parents were 18 and 13 when they first started dating. but my mom wicked lied about her age to my dad. But its whatever. i've no qualms, were just hanging out right? Anywhoo, last night i went to my former roommate ben's parents house for a sweet party. Many interesting people, a shit ton of beer, and ust plain tom-foolery. me, leo, ben and his friend kaiyum (sp?) went to bertucci's this afternoon for some lunch. Our waiter was their friend from the party last nite, so we tipped him good and he gave all 4 of us a cigarette, wicked cool dude, Thanks Nate! It was pouring like a mother fucker earlier. Shit was comin down. Sweet loud thunder close bright lightning. Its a rainy day. Gunna go chill in the living room and watch The Science Of Sleep. I <3 that movie.

Im going to punch each neighbor in directly in the face individually if they dont shut their mouths and get their fucking car started. I hate people who dont know how to properly jumpstart a vehicle. I was kinda hoping they'd reverse the terminals and fry that shit. But thats just my kinda mood today. I have to go to a family reunion for my mothers side of the family. Its kinda rad in the sense that theres a big ole pool, and free snackages. But it kinda sucks because i still cant drink there lol. But really, i barely know anyone there. I see them every year and barely any names ever get embedded. I dont even think there is anyone else around my age anyways. and if there were, i wouldnt know because i find it so awkward to socialize there. Like its almost scary because if your at some random place and some random person thinks your a fool, then whatever that shit dont matter. But if its some family member and you make yourself sound like a fucking spazoid then they're gunna remember, " o yeah John that fucking spazoid, hes a freak ass!" lolol. But really tho. I havnt got much to be worried about because mom has recently started a new medication so she might not even be feeling well enuff to go. And its not my dads side of the family so he wont wanna go without her, and i have no reason to go if they dont. But i hope they do, because i have 9 dollars in the bank right now, and no cigarettes.... that means i want them to buy me a fucking pack. In fact i think ill call them and figure this out.

    god i feel so nauseous and gross. For some reason today i didnt eat much of anything for breakfast and went to the skate park with Leo and Danny. We skated mad hard. im pretty shure i just didnt have enuff energy producing goods in my body. maybe a little dehydrated? I did drink a 40 last night. I ate some food like 45  minutes ago but now im extra queezy and wanna puke. Someone save me!!

So i got this wonderful day off work, and you would think id do something  productive right? NAAAHHH KID! I woke up, called my boss about my wrist and he said to just bring it in monday. I was happy about that because me and leo were up drinking pretty late. We had some good people over and had a good time. Im pretty shure we went out tagging as well. i  might have to check up on those. But all i've done today so far is sleep too late. i went back to sleep aafter calling my boss and slept til 10:30. Me and Leo were gunna skate, but he woke up a little after 11. We stalled a bit and it started pouring like a son of a bitch so we got high and ate hotdogs instead. Then my lazy stoner face proceeded to sleep from 3 to 6. So other than catching up on some much needed rest ive only helped contribute to the slaughtering of animals and their delicious hotdog waste parts. deeeeeeelish! maybe ill use this as a whole lazy day. i swear since ive moved in here ive never just hung out and had some alone time in my own room. ive only ever used it for bei ruit and sleeping. And lord knows there hasnt been a girl in here lol. Fucking dry spells. o wells, its whatever tho.

    Also i really need to obtain some money management skills. I certainly make enuff money to pay my bills and have fun money left over. Problem is i spend all that fun money on fun. I gotta start saving that shit up for some ink and a car. Its been over a year since my car accident and im tired of walking. Also a car would open up a whole new world of job opporotunities.

Also, heres a picture from that morning joe was wearing the bunny head running down the street while i beat his head with the hatchet at 5:30 am lol. someday Bryan will get that video up on youtube for me.