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Theres a story i want to write, an idea of a book...these are bits and pieces of those ideas...
I sit in the bathtub.
Listening to my parents argue about. whatever.
My phone is buzzing with a notification of a new text. Its a friend telling me about her boyfriend and her in a fight.
I click ignore.
I sit in the bathtub. Theres no water. I'm not even
So, i haven't updated in almost 3 months.
I suppose its time.
I havent been up to much, I work too much, and just hangout with my few, trust worthy friends here. Got a new tattoo last week, pic is my default. I recently talked to Imogen about catching up on reading again, as one of my "trustworthy" friends "dumped" me from a friend. She suggested a
... read full entry >.if you think life has meaning. you're wrong.
if you think theres a point. wrong.
there is only now. no yesterday, and the future is already passing.
At the end of our lives, we're all dead anyways. all you take with you are your memories and your guilt.
I've decided the reasons i care less and less about holidays esp, christmas, is i believe less and
I find it funny, like most things in life, how twisted?? things can be. Yet again in my life, I've lost a friend due to her boy friends jealousy. One, she is effing good looking, and yes-my ex's best friend, but I valued her friendship, and ME never caring what people think of me-didnt care about these circumstances. I'm not too surprised. This is
... read full entry >Stars will fall tonight
Burning, raining down into the horizon
Just hurry up and disappoint me
Sum this up in three words
"I hate you"-----
"I hate you", Just say it now
Vision isnt that blurry,
you're trying to hurt me,
trying to bring me down.
I laugh, as you cry
I've faced colder hearts than yours
I've been cut deeper than ... read full entry >
So I'll give them hell.
Standing on the cliffs at midnight, staring at the stars
Im just another dark metaphor, in your existence
I know deep down I was always right.
One day, I knew you'd turn out to be a whore.
Cry in your bed alone, let the ... read full entry >
I miss learning new things everyday, history, physics, philosophy and psychology...all things I once fell asleep too, I NOW find most interesting. Its sad after years of "idling" through life, working...and that's ... read full entry >
you said you'd be there forever, but now i need you
You don't care for anyone but yourself, one day youll see.
Heaven on earth is what I pray, but Hell is what I bring
Revenge is on my breath, and the stench of your lies
drives me. moves me. and I just cant stand it anymore.
You want this to be of an ... read full entry >
By time the night is over, we will have
disappointed each other.
There is no fucking, tonight,
no holding you tight in my arms.
There is only fighting, arguing,
destruction of something of perfection.
This is just a dream, dear...
So wake up tomorrow,
with your fucking smeared makeup
Your pillow is wet with the tears from ... read full entry >
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