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.if you think life has meaning. you're wrong.
if you think theres a point. wrong.
there is only now. no yesterday, and the future is already passing.
At the end of our lives, we're all dead anyways. all you take with you are your memories and your guilt.
I've decided the reasons i care less and less about holidays esp, christmas, is i believe less and less in the traditions or at least think if im not religious and dont buy into them, why am i celebrating them?
Family mostly.
Yet my own mom told me if i dont believe in God, im going to hell. Okay. that really makes me want to believe. Just because I do or dont, doesnt mean I live without morals. fuck.
We live, we die.
Theres nights i have evil thoughts of burning cars, breaking windows...strapping dildos to the IRS buildings. I want to walk up to the Scienceology church, and smack the people.
Fear keeps us held down. Fear keeps us obiedient A fear of consequence.
My ex fucked other guys behind my back, obviously she has NO self respect, and doesnt care for others around her. Yet, she has a boyfriend from the time she dropped me. No morals and lies through her teeth. Yet I sleep alone. What Karma is there in that? Cheat or be cheated on? She fucked up, yet she can have a relationship...and I cant. Fair...life is not.
I wish I could see her all alone, then i can spit on her, call her a tramp, and have a nice day.
I want to rise above, with a girl, who is hotter than her, smarter. We all die. We all burn, or rot. So really its pointless. I saw this years ago in school. Then I dropped out. Regret.
Pointless to feel that. If theres a heaven, why wont i see it, simply because I have doubts?
So i go to hell? What level of inferno is that? Really if I dont think theres an all powerful all knowing God, then I dont think theres a hell. duh. we just are. We are born, we die. We're no different than the cows we slaughter, no different than the grass they eat. Plankton. The one organism that if were to go extinct, we all die. Weird how a small organism in the ocean controls us all. Next time the church kids come over to sell me their mormon bible or the jahova?? witness talk about their beliefs on my door step, Ill just vomit on their ironed little suits. Dont preach to me. We all die. We all rot.
All this was just a random thought. :)
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ChrisMurder
yah. if that whole 2012 thing doesnt happen, im going to be a little sad inside. I hate that whole idea of believing is salvation. wtf. theres just somethng wrong with that.
Gemma
It's amazing how fear can hold people back... be motivation...
In everday life or religion.
And yeah Ive also been told I'll go to hell... ok. At least I know I Had a damn good time before getting there. hahaa :D And I totally agree people CAN not believe in anything and Still hold morals. Completely.
ChrisMurder
Im so glad to see people agree, or at least see my point on this. well, it was more of a random thought of mine, and 5849503 people often have the same views..but yah..ill just stop now.
Gemma
Your blog. You don't have to haha. ;)
Hezzy
Well put. I think religion is just wrong and creates a whole lot of unneccesary hatred. >:(
ChrisMurder
I knowww, wars and other rivalaries have been started because of religion. Pretty stupid and ignorant.
Ronnie
I completely agree with you on this. Religion is just a form of control that is exercised through fear. It's a beautiful thing to see through the motives of others. There's no karma, no morals, no anything....all of those things are just tools of religions. Things are or they are not. Your ex-girlfriend is obviously just a slag who has no respect for your relationship. A relationship isn't made of morals, it's made of an agreement between the people in the relationship, simple as that. She violated that agreement, that's her problem and her loss.
Just think about our place in the universe. How insignificant!!!
ChrisMurder
Yah, I went into all this crazy convo with a friend, on that last line you wrote. Im like uhh if the universe is infinite, how fucking Ignorant we are, if we think we're the only planet with life on it. We're in one of just a bunch of galaxies. I can get how a person can make a mistake, once, in a relationship, maybe some fault...but 3 times. I just wish i found out BEFORE the breakup, that way I could have left her ass on the side walk. :)
Imogen
I'm completely with you on this :)
also, this is one of the best quotes ever:
"Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able? Then he is not omnipotent. Is he able, but not willing? Then he is malevolent. Is he both able and willing? Then whence cometh evil? Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?"-Epicurus.
ChrisMurder
<3 you and your quotes by great people. I love that quote.
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I've been told I will go to hell. All those god-fearing people think that because they "believe", they will be "saved". But every religious person in this world picks and chooses the parts of the bible, of the religion, that they want to obey.
So I'll see you there, fuckers. If we ever make it that far.