pia's journals

i just wanted to let you know that i am still alive.
also, that i am in love with chelsea and i don't know how i lived this long without her.

i have a weird feather in my hair that i stole from christine.
i am really horny. you guys should all know about it.

how come every guy i know is real nice? i want someone to hold me down and cut of my circulation (not cut off airflow, though)


i like double long and big wide.

i tried to fuck ian....but he's not interested...WHY GOD, WHY??????

you should go read my profile.

 

This was my virgin burn.
Took me pretty much less than 2 hours to get adjusted. It was like coming home. More so for me it seems than for many others. In alot of ways it was neither less nor more than I imagined. Like I knew every turn... A dream come true. Really wonderful and strange to feel that way...

I went Tuesday - Monday. And fairly quickly realised that much as the lights are stunning, the music is good, and parties are fun, I am, at least this year, a day time Playa person. It seems at it's most beautiful then.

A few things that really stuck to mind...

On my second day there a huge twister hit the Man. According to many veterans it was the biggest in years. It came from roughly 10 o'clock, and made it's way straight to the man. And then, as if designed, it stopped. Circling the Man and base, hiding both completely from sight. After maybe 10-15 seconds, it moved on, still just as strong.
I drove into it. Scratches and scrapes on my skin to mark it's passage. And suddenly the pelting stopped and I stood in complete stillness, surrounded by something that sounded like a hundred trains. Amazing. Later that same day I enjoyed sitting in an open shade structure during the only white-out of my stay. Baptism by wind and dust. :)

2nd, camping in a essentially residential camp (DoLab, they were never there nor did I really know anyone), and realising that not only did I still have a solid capacity for "extreme self reliance" but that flying solo, and largely sober was one of the most memorable and rewarding things I've experienced in my adult life. Even if i was alone, i never felt loneliness on the Playa. The place has breath and a heartbeat.

3rd, having a refreshingly still moment participating in a traditional japanese tea ceremony on the open playa.

4th, dancing on a frigid night at the Temple to some of the best dark breaks I've ever heard, and then a few days later, dancing in bath-warm night air from midnight to 9am without pause to more incredible music. And finally, after years of mechanical habits and frustration, rediscovering my love of dancing.

And last but not least, a speach made at Thunderdome on the last night of fights.
After the opening songs, my friend Hawk walks out and starts telling of a thing he experienced at the crack of dawn that same day.
He saw a lone woman sprinkling a circle of powder in the center of the dome. Half jokingly he asked her what sort of spell she was casting on the arena, to which she answered; "These are the ashes of my 18 year old daughter Amber. She would have loved this place." That merited a minuted of largely pensive or tearful silence. I couldn't spot a dry eye in sight.

I don't think I'll ever forget how any of that felt.


And oddly, I feared the decompression period would be very hard on me, but i pretty much find myself smiling through most of the days...

Why is this world full of messed up people that derive all their pleasure from hurting other people...?

People break up, it happens. So why must there always be people intentionally telling lies or exageration to one or both of the people involved. Usually which ever one is in more pain. It's seriously the most screwed up thing in the world. And they're always "friends"

Some friends. I might actually need to break my anti-vengeance rule on this one.

But perhaps I'll wait. Revenge is, after all, "a dish best served cold"...

OMGOMGOMG.

 

I love them so.

It's 98 degrees in my room and there's an ant trail running across my floor. Someone kill me.

 

Awwww..... I miss all the pretty ladies! I wanna come hang out again!!!

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