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i keep waking up at the wrong times feeling the wrong things. my life is in a good place and for the most part i am happy with every aspect of my life. i feel like i am looking for some chaos, which i don't really need anymore to be honest. i just don't want to get bored. i feel like the single most threatening thing is the idea of falling into a place where everything is for sure & there is nothing left to throw me through the loop. and i don't mean something expensive like my car getting towed, or something dramatic like a "friend" acting like an asshole. i'm back on my "i sortof maybe almost want a boyfriend" kick. it's annoying, make it stop.
on sunday i went and saw brendan (who apparently knows xanthia and agrees she has the *KEYOOOOTEST* laugh we've ever heard) and had him start work on "correcting" my lenore sleeve. ladies, don't turn 19 and let some fool with a tattoo machine do work on you. especially if he's only been tattooing for a year. it means that 4 years later you will be BEGGING someone to clean that mess up for you. i'm excited because i think this means this ridiculously oversized "dear mommy i love you" tattoo of mine will be finished before the summer. (excuse the photo, i'm on day 3 or something & beginning to peel.)
it's been raining a lot here--i love it. lots of people don't seem to enjoy the rain. i just want to find someone to make out with in it. i've mentioned making out twice now in one journal entry. am i getting spring fever? can that happen in february? i feel like that sort of thing should be reserved for march, maybe april. i'm afraid the rain will end soon and i'll have to wait until the beginning of next year to enjoy it again. can't it just rain once a week? the view from my office when the weather is questionable is sort of nice.
i've been guilt tripping myself--i took 4 days off from the gym on accident. it was just getting tattooed & going to metal monday & having an epic stoner passout moment that cost me my awesome month long track record. :/ so to make up for it my ass was in the gym at 8-FUCKING-AM this morning... you can all start calling me julene fonda now. and then thank annaliese for that particular addition to my sweet collection of fake/amusing last names. so far we're up to... julene horowitz dinosaur obscene "the cat" gaffney-fonda. that's sort of a mouthful, right? *insert sexually charged pun here*
i think i'm seeing the difference. i think i'm getting skinnier. or maybe i'm lying to myself, but i've cut my calories and all that other bullshit i already went over. it only sucks half the time, because i am a bad little julenie and i still drink beer sometimes. i can't help it, i like drinking... especially if that substance is beer. proof: i hit the gym, i watch my calories, and i'm definitely going on an all-day pub crawl come saturday. i am going to probably make a fool of myself and then my new friends will never invite me out with them again. it's going to be awesome.
annaliese tried to tell me someone was "the new john mayer" yesterday. i almost had to kill her. you guys better tell that girl not to talk shit on my baby daddy, or i will have to uncover benicio del toro as a homosexual. or something. you know who's not a homo? ryan fucking curry.
why helloooooooooo you fine specimin of fashion week manmeat! (i like bros, i'm sorry.) i'm moving back to the godsgirls house at the end of this month, let me show you why...
see? you wish you lived somewhere with cowboy & indian-like adventures. plus there is metal mondays in the close vicinity, and i feel like there's something amusing about listening to metal and drinking three shirley temples while talking to a stunt cock & some guy that makes epic box covers AND a jewchef AND a guy that is like 6'8". and of course chain smoking with annaliese.
i had more to tell you but i have to get to the post office soon as well as get some lunch before my stomach eats its way out of me. apparently my blueberry muffin did not cut it for breakfast this morning.
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Maga
I do wish I lived somewhere with cowboy and indian-like adventures. Y'all should get into cosplay and be the sailor scouts.
Julene
for the first time ever i have no idea what a comment means. the joy i am feeling right now cannot be measured. ;)
Maga
I hope the joy you're feeling came from typing "cosplay" into google and seeing the failest way white folk fail!
Meg
I hate the "i sort of want a boyfriend about now and fuck" disease. I have it too. Ill be your long distance fake boy boyfriend for awhile if you want. Ya know send you cute messages to wake up to and tell you how beautiful you are and you could pretend im a boy and text me pictures of your boobs.
i relaize i have a lot to say to you and this is going to be an obnoxious long comment. your lips look sexy in the tattoo picture.
I was watching the biggest loser last night and realized i need to watch it more often because not only do they have helpful tips, but seeing people lose huge amounts of weight and cry while there trainer yells at them makes me want to work out so bad. is that weird?
Also there is a bar here in IDAho that is starting to have a metal Monday. It sounds fun but too bad IDAho is filled with douche bags.
Also i will be seeing you in May and making you a steak finally. I don't know if john told you. I hope to also go on beer drinking adventures and me showing my butt crack to everyone on hollywood blvd so you can yell at them :)
ok im done now.
Julene
you might be better than a real boyfriend because i suspect you will not break up with me or randomly stop calling. i heard you were coming through, you should email me the dates... hopefully you're coming for more than just 2 or 3 days. i would like to cause mayhem with you again.
lifegrd31
Fuck a gym. This is how you should do it. You just need to borrow a toddler and a baby for a few hours.
River
It's difficult to tow that fine line of contentment vs. boredom. Stagnation is never a good thing but after reading this journal entry, I think you sound pretty damn secure about what you want and why. Also, having a boyfriend, as you probably already know, is not the greatest, most uber-awesome thing in the world, despite what Lifetime tv and movies like Kate and Leopold tell us. It's exhausting, two people trying to coexist in a semi-harmonious environment without clashing emotionally. I can barely put up with myself most days, let alone the idiosyncratic quirks of another.
So many girls are hitting the gyms lately. I'm jealous. And by "jealous" I really mean inspired. There's a rec. center right across the street from me. Have I ever walked in? No. But my dog once took a dump in their parking lot.
outstandin
1. Your Lenore tattoo is fucking awwwweeesome!
2. When did you steal my indian chief headdress?
3. There's nothing wrong with epic stoner pass out moments; especially when you're one of those naturally skinny peeps. :p
epidemic
You make me want to burn things down. That's not a negative thing. Just a fact. ARSON.
Julene
at least it's not the bad kind of arson. then i'd worry.
epidemic
Bad arson is highly discouraged. Good arson, however...well, it's on.
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lol i would definitely like to live somewhere with adventure possibilities like that... also rain is awesome... make out rain sounds even more awesome lol.... awesome your life is going good gotta love when then that happens. :)