erin's journals

dude.

im in penthouse.



whoa.

whoawhoawhoawhoa.

along with natty, catra, mandy and melodie.

i believe there was talk of a marc jacob's handbag? somewhere when we initially discovered this? *cough* heh.

um... i dont have much time to talk but, i'll post some photos real quick.

london & i :


dayna and i :



dayna and i again :



i'm back in new york, trying to find a job and booking some modeling jobs.

can i just say how much i loved shooting with london?

yeah. i miss the girls back weeeeest. and katie.

xo.
-erin.

hello dear friends.

so you are all very jealous because last night i got to bite dayna's boobs and got to kiss her a few times. yes, yes i know. i win.

so, i STILL have not yet sold my car. i'm attempting to make shon buy it. sending him harrassing text messages hoping to pursuade him into buying it. i'm sending him telepathic messages right now. basically if i don't sell it, i'm completely fucked in a number of ways. please sell car, please sell.

tonight is special. super secret sleep over. not so secret anymore. there will be sushi and booze and tits and camera's and air mattresses... it's all going to be very exciting.

this one time, me and katie b went to the hipster club:




so anyway, my internet hates me today for some unknown reason.

goddamnit those double shot starbucks drinks are fucking delicious. maybe even more satisfying then the grape slurpee i just finished. i'm convinced that when hungover, slurpee's may be one of 5 things that could save your life. slurpee's, advil, duvet's, fast food and water. that seem's like a good list. i'm satisfied with it.

then there's this :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N3VsKTZvlv4


fuck this damn internet connection today. nothing's loading, gadoghad. fuckerrr.

i've run out of patience for it.

xo.
-erin.

p.s if your in portland, i'm gonna be at devils point tomorrow night. come and say bye to me.

ello'

its cold as balls outside. that sucks. i'm currently sitting in the kitchen as i so often do drinking some green tea debating wether or not to go over to stormy's and bang her door down. i feel as though that would result in us going to nordstrom and me spending money that i don't have. speaking of money that i don't have... i still haven't sold my car yet. it's bumming me out. i'll make ANOTHER craigslist post.

so, i'm also currently suffering from a mild hangover (because i have already pumped myself full of advil and vitamins). here are a couple photos from the adventures of last night :






i don't really remember getting home... i mean i kind of do but, not entirely. i have to work tonight. i'm sleepy.

thanksgiving was awesome, we went up to seattle and stayed with mariam and her family for a couple nights on mercer island then we stayed with jorma's parents again on vashon island. they're so fucking awesome. we watched the james bond-a-thon and jorma's mom baked us apple pie. all very exciting, i know. i purchased new slippers from target that i broke in this past week. i think i'm still recovering from turkey-itis. everything feels very heavy. ah well, whatever.

i smelled a poop so terrible yesterday that it actually made me throw up. annnnnd it wasn't even my own. it polluted the entire upper level of the house for about an hour after it was initially "dropped off". grossgrossgross.

so, jorma left today. thats sad. i've decided that i'm going to get 'tina' tattooed on me with a heart around it. that's what we like to call jorma sometimes when he's acting especially girl-ish (which is often). i'm not sure where i'm going to put it yet but i'll think of somewhere special.

so, about an hour ago, i dropped my sidekick in my coffee cup (no idea how) and it freaked out and shut off on me. i had to take the damn thing apart and clean it all out but now it smells like coffee.

umm... i did a photoshoot with london a week or so ago (and have another one coming up) so, here are some of the photos:




i'm excited about the upcoming one. it's gonna be fucking awesome.

maybe stormy's gonna be in the black eye club.

anyway... um. what else... i bought my plane ticket back to nyc. i'm stoked.

alright, thats all i guess.

xo.
-erin.

hello.

my feet are stupid cold. it sucks. my throat is scratchy. i downloaded about 100 new songs yesterday. i really enjoy girls against boys. i suggest it.

i worked at devils point last night, it was a good night overall. it took me a while to snap out of being sick and in the house all day yesterday to interacting with people but it was good. i always enjoy spending time with the stormy...

another photo :



i've decided that if we were combined into one person we would make the perfect housewife. jorma says it would be perfect if we had her face. jerk.

speaking of jorma, i have to go pick him up from the airport in a couple of hours... and there's an interview that veronica did with him up in the read section :

look at me with all my intergeek html codes

we're going to see danzig tonight, its going to be fucking amazing. i'm so bloody excited. i want to wear all white. i hope he's wearing his green shirt covered in butterflies when he gets off the plane and smells as offensive as possible. we're gonna bum everyone at the show out but fuck em. team shitty! team shitty!!

so i've been trying to sell my car for the past couple of weeks and i've had people emailing me but they never reply after i send my reply. basically, if i don't sell my car before december 1st, i'm fucked. anyone in or around portland want to buy my car? please? haha...

so last week or the week before we went to go see the boys from back east play here in portland. a photo (katie, yak & myself) :



i saw the photos i did with london last night, they look fucking amazing. i'm currently trying to get her to send me one but she is not replying to my messages that are instant. haha.

when do bills ever end? i swear mine are never ending and i'm barely keeping up with them all. which reminds me, fucking parking tickets. shit. i forgot those until just right now. uuuugh. stupid los angeles and its stupid parking assholes. i can park basically anywhere i want to in portland and i don't pay, i don't get tickets... fuck los angeles parking. i think remembering that stressed me out a little.

i'm going on tour at the end of january for 5 weeks. east coast. cupcake should be released... we'll be selling it. possibly something to the affect of black eye club happening at show's. more information when i'm sure but i'm gonna see leona and smush the fuck out of her.

dear new york, i'm returning to you soon. please present me with an apartment that i can move into (another bill, hah). before that, please let my friends open their couches to me.

okay... i guess i'll go. read one of my 8 million books i've recently bought.

xo.
-erin.

this is gonna be us tonight... in all white :

hello.

so, basically the entire time that i lived in los angeles, i didn't get sick. i don't even think i got a minor cough. that was like a year and a half of straight not sickness and now this is the second time i've been sick this month. my voice is almost completely gone but, theres a tiny whisper left that i can squeeze out.

shows that you are SOOOO jealous of that i'm going to be seeing in the next week :

-blind guardian - fuck yes brother.
-danzig - team shitty (katie, yorma & i) reunited gonna see danzig.

i was gonna go see the rapture on wed (tomorrow? i dont know i don't remember days anymore) but, blind guardian is playing on the same night so we'll be going up to seattle for that.

wow, i haven't updated in a while, i don't even know where to start. hmm... let's see... so slow suicide stimulus (look them up on myspace) came into towj for 2 days. it was hevanly. it was so good to see gavone, chan and melski. the last time we saw melski... well... we drugged him and then beat him up (please see - cupcake). he never hit the floor though. surprising. anyway, saw borat with those boys. zach and yak were in love i think. instant vibe.

i don't like ali g, so i thought i was going to hate borat but... it was actually pretty fucking hillarious. there were times when everyone in the theatre was silent and i had to think to myself "that was really fucked up, am i going to be the only one laughing at this insanely racist joke that no one else caught on to?" then i'd hear katie cakkling from a few seats over and knew it was all alright. i guess the movie was made to be laughed at by most people but laughed at harder by the people who see between the lines.

i got this lovingly message on myspace the other day :



i replied with something to the effect of : LOLllLlzzZz OmG!!!

i'd just like to point out that the entire time i've been sitting here i've coughed out about half of one of my lungs.

thanksgiving is coming up soon. jorma is flying into portland and then we're going to drive up to seattle to see his parents and mommy and her parents. a whole family event. should be wonderful. i'm pretty excited to have jorma's mom make me a lattee.

i really want a cigarette but i know if i do its going to murder my throat.

i've decided that i want to quit smoking before i get lung cancer. so, i heard there's this book that you can read that when you're done, you just don't desire a cigarette anymore... its just over. you think they're disgusting and thats the end. so, if that doesn't work yak's sister was hypnotized and hasn't smoked in a month. i think i will try that... i would just try not smoking anymore but i'm no fun to be around when thats happening and at the moment, i'm constantly surrounded by at least one person for the next 3 weeks or so.

so the day before yesterday i took stormy grocery shopping to fred meyer. let me tell you about this place they call fred meyer... one stop shop! this one time i went there got groceries, a foam mat (for katie), western union, wamu and starbucks all in one place. how amazing is that?

i'm babbling about nothing because i cant use my voice. my face is full of like 20 pounds of mukus.

wanna make out?

hah.

alright. the end.

the other night, post go go dancing at dante's :


and mine & stormy's boobs are in love :


speaking of stormy, she's taking me to thai food today. mmmm

xo.
-erin.


oh and p.s - i'd just like to point out that me and emma are in love.

hi.

well well well, its pissing rain in portland which comes as no surprise. i hear it does that a lot here which i'm alright with because it least it brings the temperature up a bit. i'm going to hang out with one of my 6 or 7 friends here in portland today. i have a secret message from him from the mother land (los angeles). i more so said that to remind myself.

i've had a very strange past week or two. so much has happened without doing anything at all. i saw throwrag, eagles of death metal and a bit of joan jett. i also saw she wants revenge (again) and placebo. they covered kate bush, it reminded me of the radio show and annaliese. i've gotten to hang out with stormy a bunch of times, snow as well. 'kate' and i are also going to be shooting with miss london lunoux. i'm pretty excited about that because word on the street is she's gotten very good. it should be interesting from what she's told me.

i'm go go dancing tomorrow at dante's... should be interesting as well. i haven't danced in front of people in a really long time. bring on the stage fright.

so halloween, katie and i got all dressed up and had nowhere to go. luckily we were saved by our moped loving friend and ended up doing something fun.

a couple of the only photos i have :




we didn't really go out the weekend before halloween so when we went out on halloween night not very many people were dressed up. oh well. i was on a safari and i had a lovely evening.

there's been more talk of london in january. i will be trying to book some shoots for the time that i'm out there. i definately want to shoot with miss emma. i shot with her once before but the photos were lost. bum out.

i'm sitting on the porch wearing pink pants covered in milk and cookies, a black t-shirt and a hobo jacket. really its just a trench coat but because its so big on me i will just keep calling it my hobo jacket.

i'm going to see my mother in 49 days! i'm so bloody excited! she's pretty dope. yeah, i said dope. don't judge me.

i miss new york a lot but i'm getting more into portland. i thought for a minute i wouldn't last here because i wasn't doing anything and rah rah, bored all that shit but, today is a much better day and i feel like i have a new outlook. optimism.

the shitty is back in america and that makes me sooooooo happy. he is going to come visit us around thanksgiving which makes me even happier! mmmtriadofawesome :



um. i'm ranting on and on and on... du du du.

i started writing in my journal again. hah, i have a journal. i think i'm considered an adult now? is it funny that i still have a journal? let's just call it a book.

alright, i have about a half hour left to get ready, word.

xo.
-erin.

my cousin michael has a really shitty irish accent.

hi.

du du du.  so, i'm in portland, oregon.  got here a few days ago by way of san francisco where i was visiting the husband.  its weird to not be in new york anymore.  i think i adopted it as "home" really quickly so now that im not there anymore i'm feeling... (insert word somewhat similar to distant here)

anyway, the dvd is being edited.  it shall be fun.  if you haven't done so already ago to : myspace.com/acupcakeorange and add it. 

so, where i'm staying in portland is this huge 5 bedroom house with a giant kitchen, den, livingroom, etc.  basically a massive house BUT, its expensive as all hell to heat SO, me and katie have been freezing our balls off for the past 3 days.  i kind of feel like a squatter.   there are only certain rooms in the house that are warm due to space heaters and sealing all doors and windows but almost immediately after you turn the space heater off the room gets cold.  i now understand what its like to be "cold to the bone".  i'm currently wearing 2 t-shirts, a flannel and a hoodie, jeans, socks (which i only own 4 pairs of) and shoes.  i was wearing gloves but, its hard to work the mousepad on this laptop with gloves on so i'm suffering without them. 

today is the day of getting er' dun.  i'm going to find a triple a and get on this whole getting the title of my car thing so i can sell the damn thing.  i hate having a car, i don't think i ever want to have one again actually.  after that, i'm pretty sure i'm going to run over and break into stormy's house, bag all her clothes and bring them to a fluff and fold.  that girls clothing selection is almost the size of annaliese's.  geesh.

erm... what else.   i am 75% sure that i'm going to london in january for a week or two.  meaning, i'll be attending the launch party.  thinking about it is giving me butterflies. 

i may go to the thrift store today and buy a bunch of sheets to create a heat fort in one of the bedrooms.  it could be glorious.  little heat fort... mmmm.  heat.  i wouldn't mind standing IN a fire right about now.

this "journal" is all over the place..

6 minutes in heavan?  i think?  i don't remember.  i wasn't "there".

i'm reading a book called the diary of a drug feind by aliester crowley.  its really good.  at first, i hated the wife in the story but she kind of grew on me.  maybe it was because she at one point thought she was possessed by angelic spirits who had told her she was the chosen one and her husband was possessed by the devil.  heh.

alright, this is just getting ridiculous.  i'm going to go.

xo.

-erin.

p.s - does anyone notice that annaliese only names MY set's with the stupid names?  someone kick her for me.

hi.  how are you?

hi.

so, i just got a text message from annaliese at 315am to the affect of "someone you have messed around with has an std..." then at the end of the message it refer's to saving money by switching to geico. (it was a joke). asshole.

i had a photoshoot the other day.

couple of photos from it :





this was the last roll. i posed myself. good to see not all of them looked weird.

i've lost about 15 pounds since i shot my sets that are live right now. and my hair's grown about 6 inches.

going westward on saturday.

seeing annaliese on sunday. in a secret location.

i got a mote today that i wanted to respond to sooooo badly, but, i couldn't. for their sake. ever been in that situation? we'll have to give it another couple weeks.

anyway.

filming tomorrow, we're smashing a computer i think. i'm stoked. i like to smash things. HULK SMASH.

i'm so tired.

goodnight.

xo.
-erin.

dear my brit. i miss you so much. its true.

hi.

so the other night, katie and i were bored in brooklyn so we called up our friend Io to provide us with an adventure. needless to say io provided us with an EPIC adventure which included things like the brambull (an area in central park where gay men go to have anonymous sex with other gay men in the bushes) and surviving a walk through the middle of it. a man named victor who drove a garbage go cart in central park. he let me drive, i almost smashed into a wall because i couldn't get the brakes to work. then we almost made out in a pile of bacon in the grocery store (of course to see if we could get kicked out, we didn't) and alas, the alice in wonderland statue, we loved it :





about 2 weeks ago katie found this cabin on a 400 acre property upstate ny so we retreated up there for a few days. played a lot of monopoly, sorry, stared at the dog a lot, talked to eachother, obsessed over keeping the fire going and listened to a lot of 1. murder city devils 2. david bowie and 3. hank williams. it was pretty lovely. fiilmed some new stuff for cupcake including lamb cased hot dogs (the most disgusting things i've ever touched), plexi glass and kethcup vs. mustard. some photos from the cabin :





so, there it is. a bunch of photos of what i've been doing the past few weeks. i'm totally in love with new york. its the greatest place ever. i cant wait to meet more people and do more stuff...

speaking of doing stuff.

who's going to the uk launch party? jan 18th? i have something in the works as a plan to get me and the katie out there for that. stay tuned for more information on how to sponsor the erin and katie do the uk launch party fund (and erin get's to see the brit that isn't emma).

xo.
-erin.

p.s -
myspace.com/buttpartyerin
myspace.com/acupcakeorange
(stay tuned in these places as well)

Q: WHAT MADE YOU SMILE TODAY?
A: buying delicious treats at the bakery.

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT 8 THIS MORNING?
A: sleeeeeeeeping.

Q: WHAT WERE YOU DOING 15 MINUTES AGO?
A: recovering from katie b. standing on the back of my knee and bending it the wrong way.

Q: SOMETHING THAT HAPPENED TO YOU IN 1996?
A: i don't even remember 1996. what happend that year? i think thats when i met the first girl i ever slept with.

Q: LAST THING YOU SAID ALOUD?
A: "asshole!!"

Q: WHERE DO YOU KEEP YOUR CHANGE?
A: i have a little bag zipper thing that i keep in my purse. i try to throw my change in it but it always seems to end up at the bottom of my purse. every now and then i clean it out and put it in the little bag.

Q: WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE TODAY?
A: its hot like africa. 78 or something and humid. oh east coast. wheee.

Q: FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
A: chocolate chip cookie dough. mmmmmm...

Q: SOMETHING YOU ARE EXCITED ABOUT?
A: there are a bunch of things i'm excited about. cupcake is really exciting, a cabin in the woods tomorrow morning is also exciting... and other things that i will choose to keep to myself.

Q: LAST RAINBOW YOU SAW?
A: it was the one that came out of katie's ass when she found sugar free pudding at the grocery store yesterday.

Q: WHAT SIZE SHOE DO YOU WEAR?
A: 7 1/2 - 8 ish.

Q: DO YOU HAVE ANY SISTERS?
A: i have 2 sisters. they're both younger than i. the older one just started grade 10. i was trying to get her to tell me if shes still a virgin or not. she said she is.

Q: ARE YOU VERY RANDOM?
A: totally.

Q: DO YOU WANT TO CUT YOUR HAIR?
A: newp. i love my hair being loooooong.

Q: ARE YOU OVER THE AGE OF 25?
A: no sir. not yet.

Q: DO YOU TALK A LOT?
A: not really. i guess i do to some people like the best friends and my family i'll talk for hours about things that generally make no sense. sometimes i sing to them (out of tune). but, people that i don't know really really well i don't talk that much to. lil bit.

Q: DO YOU WATCH THE OC?
A: fuck yeah brother.

Q: DOES YOUR SCREEN NAME HAVE AN '' X '' IN IT?
A: hahahhahhahha, no but i wish it did. maybe i'll make a new one.

Q: DO YOU KNOW ANYONE CALLED STEVE?
A: i know lots of dudes named steve. uncle, brother, ex-boyfriend. they were all stephen/steven's. well, except for the uncle. he's a steve.

Q: DO YOU MAKE UP YOUR OWN WORDS?
A: i actually just got asked to make up a word to describe a magical situation. i will have to think long and hard.

Q: ARE YOU TICKLISH?
A: not really. i kind of feel ripped off but i'm not ticklish.

Q: ARE YOU TYPICALLY A JEALOUS PERSON?
A: never. i'm so the opposite of jealous.

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHOSE NAME STARTS WITH THE LETTER "J":
A: J... Jorma. the yorma. dorm room. joooooooorma. shittysinloveshittysinlove.

Q: NAME A FRIEND WHOSE NAME STARTS WITH AN "A":
A: same as katies... annaliessssssssssseeeeee.

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS?
A: katie b.

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?:
A: "i'm walking kubrick, where is you"

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A. sometimes.

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
A: uhh. i don't really know. whats coming up in ny?

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A: bacon, eggs, toast & potatoes.

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE, AND WHO WAS IT?
A: "do you want me to tell you about last.fm again??" to chris.

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: sometimes. i didn't for a long time but then i moved in with ethan who was on demand friendly. i learned that cable is NOT the enemy. its actually quite lovely. thank god for hbo on demand.

Q: DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE AND THEY DON'T KNOW ABOUT IT?
A: um. i'm pretty obvious about my crush's. but, yeah, there are crushes who don't know about it. i think its more so because i don't know if i like them enough to show them the crush on my end.

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: canadian. no.

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: i'm already murried.

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?
A: i don't say it unless i mean it.

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
A: i SHOULD be hanging out with sir britain but, i'm sitting on the toilet instead.

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: vida, ern, pxsy, princess (a new one)

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: funny this question should be asked. YES. i totally do.

Q: YOUNGEST PERSON IN YOUR FAMILY?
A: my youngest sister is 10?

Q: ARE YOU A HEAVY SLEEPER?
A: yeah you could piss on my face while tazing me and i would never know.

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: haha, yeah. right. im lazy as fuck.

Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
A: the devil and daniel johnston

Q: WHAT KIND OF CELLPHONE DO YOU HAVE?
A: sidekick 2, i also use every function.

Q: WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
A: a combination of autolux, daniel johnston and wolf parade playlist.

the end.

xo.
-erin

oh yeah, i have a new set up. wheee. its weird to not know when they're coming anymore. it's like a real surprise.
dear annaliese, stop neglecting me. i demand an aim date.