Its funny that occasionally everything have to be in complete disarray to make sense.

I was walking to work a couple of days ago, completely freezing.. Like the cold was tunelling into my bones piercing into any part of exposed skin or porous material...
All I could hear was somewhat of continuing grinding of gravel under my feet into the more solid ground... even though I walk lightly considering I weigh little
Watching water molecules dance all over like they're in a rush to accomplish something.
I smiled because the little things in life conquer me daily.
I'm trying to get more in touch with my spiritual-ness
And coping with the fact that I never feel connected to my body.
Or maybe I'm crazy?

Its so frustrating I cannot for once in my life mimic my thoughts through words and I want to so badly to share with people how I see things.. One day I will perfect that art...

I have no "real' plan for life other than take it as it comes.. And it amazes me constantly.
All the time I have alone I cherish because I feel like im starting to finally "get myself" and basically... I make no sense.. what so ever.



I can say I have all these plans and how great I am going to end up but I really don't know...I really don't



So, I think they finally fired the man at work who sexually harassed me...Which is a big relief...I was reading an LJ of someone who works in the same building and had a coincidental run in with someone and they fired them on the spot which has me questioning the integrity of the work place and their balance of morals...



I hated seeing him walk by and peer into me like he was burning a hole through the back of my head and I could feel his eyes on me at all times and accompanied by visual assurance I was sure it was happening very often...


Also, I'm doing my best to discard saying pointless things and holding my tongue... I hate the way girls...(not women..) talk..with all this "needless-to-be-said" nonsense and mindless drivel drives me insane.. all this talk about weight and mass appeal..

Oh well I'm trying to make me happy first when it comes to stimulating others visually id rather adorn this corpus with something to make me happy before trying to calculate in others unwritten, unspoken (but assumed) request. rant rant.


Need sleep.



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