TheUberDork

it's too damn late for me to be up.  I will not be getting up to run today.  sweet.
 :-[

anyhow my best female friend  (RL female friend... they do exist!)    anyhow she's in this relationship.  with this guy... this guy who doesn't appreciate her.  and that's nothing new or anything...  she swears she had desires to marry him   or whatever.  and we just spent that past hour ... okay I spent the past hour trying to explain to her that it's not her job to fix him.  move on.  find someone who does appreciate her...   

(maybe I should explain our relationship a bit)... when we first met I had a massive crush on her, she was a real cutie when we met.  she still is cute, she makes me laugh and giggle.  and we made the "if I'm 30 and not married, you're it"  pact that so many have before us.  anyhow  that's not important.  I'm her friend, I care deeply for her.   I like her being my friend and would not jeopardize that.

anyhow she's kind of had this little crush on a friend of mine,  one of my best friends.  she tells me how he's genuinely a good guy... and this and that  and that's why she likes him  (ahem? I'm not genuine and good  and genuinely good? eh?  wtf?)  ANYHOW.

since the first time I introduced them she's been taken by him. 

he however is pretty NOT interested in dating  and believe me we have tried setting him up, hooking him up and he's had a handful of attractive girls interested in him... he swears he's more interested in work and school and getting his debts paid off.  that's clear.  it's very VERY important to him.  once he gets that done  he can move out from his parents, do whatever he wants kind of thing y'know?

not that his parents are constraining or anything.  his parents are actually very cool and loving people .. ANYHOW off topic.

she  likes him.  he  is not so interested in her.   he sees that she can be mean,  and unforgiving.   sure he thinks she's cute enough yea... but he is a pretty decent judge of inner character.  and he's right.  my lady friend, she can be brutally honest.  to the point of being mean.   I can see that if they spent enough amount of time together just him and her ... they would probably grow to despise eachother.   


oh yea did I mention she wants him to come over to her place and do some miscellaneous odd jobs?  last I checked he was not a terribly handy guy.  no more than me.    he's a geek, a gamer, a dork,  much like myself.

anyhow she wants to spend more time with him.  getting to know him but also to make her current guy  (who doesn't appreciate her)... well apparently she has it in her head that spending time with my friend will get it through this other guy's head that he needs to show her some appreciation... 

oh yes I tried to explain that she needs to talk to him... it's the only right and good way to deal with that.  and if he doesn't respond there's nothing else she can do.  move on. find someone else.  as there are others that care about her ...

anyhow I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.  she wants his phone number.  so she can (maybe) call him...  I told her I would have to run it by him... she got upset and I was like "hey it's not like give out your number all willey niley, why would i ive out his!?"


clever? yes?  well  I'm kinda stuck

here I am, I know what he thinks of her, and that he does not have interest in her.  at least not the kind she wants.....  and there she is a girl I know and pretty much trust and she can be a very caring person... but for the most part she can be kind of cold and unsympathetic to others.    I don't think they would be good together. and I don't want my friends hating each other.

what would you do?  give the number?  tell the girl you think it's a bad idea? what?  she doesn't want me to tell him WHY she wants it....  which is going to be difficult enough skating around.  but I think a simple "I dunno man, she probably wants to hang out sometime and is sick of trying to get to you through me -ha ha-"

(which is actually pretty much the truth.

anyhow   help ladies?  I may never understand the female psyche... but I could totally use some help here..

work sucks.  they need to hire me a helper monkey  or pay me a significant dollar amount more an hour.

so.  for some reason  girls are really into halloween.  at least most of the girls I know.

fortunately   most of the guys I know could care less about dressing up.

I guess maybe that has something to do with:  1) girls don't have to feel slutty for dressing up slutty, it's a costume, it's okay.  something like that.  2)  see #1:  it's an excuse to dress slutty without actually getting labeled as such.

which I'm fine with. dressing a certain way does not make anyone a slut....  but it can make one APPEAR to be a slut.  and well apperances... are everything at least at first right? right.

anyhow I just don't see any guys getting all excited about their hot nurse or slutty witch costumes...   and most of the guys I talk to are not happy about dressing up.

in the office our boss is making us do Shrek.  I (quickly) put in my request to have the 31st off.    and got it...  only to receive an e-vite to my sister's halloween party.

cool.  my sister and I ... well we've grown up a lot and get along pretty well  good even.  which is cool.  but fuck me in the ass now I have to get a costume for a damn party.  (at which there will be no single women.  just single chubster me.  that's okay. there will be booze.  and video games and that's pretty much enough to keep me entertained....  there will also be food and that's good too.

but damnit a costume?  well fuck.

I remember a friend with a certain shirt, he probably made it in silk screening back in High School.  well I've been trolling the interwebz for it for nearly 2 weeks now.  and finally ... FINALLY




I found a site where I could make it myself.  and so I did,  I have created my costume.

I give you, My Costume.

feel free to buy it if you like it.  It truly is the perfect men's halloween costume.

so there's this girl, we'll call her Kathie.
 we went on one date back in high school.  she was probably the most beautiful girl I ever had the chance to go out on a date with.

well at that time in her life I was not for her.  she was not ready for me.  I guess that's what she says.   she stopped talking to me for a LONG LONG LONG LONG time. 

it killed me a little inside.   Feeling so certain, so strongly about someone.  there's some kind of connection here even if you don't see it.  I can just feel it.

well years went by, and now we're talking again, and have been for well into a year.  we're into the same geeky things, similar tastes in music.  and we could talk all day and I'd never be bored. 

here's the problem:  we talk online.  she moved up to Washington to be with her now fiancee that she met in/on WoW  ...yes... met on wow.  we both play together and she convinced me to drag my mains to her server, that's been fine. 

but here's this girl I cannot be with.... I want to tell her what I think, how I feel  but I know that will only end a beautiful friendsip.  one that means the world to me.  more than the world. she means more than anyone to me.  and I can't even tell her.  and it's killing me inside.


they say you're supposed to fight for what you believe in.  never give up, never give in.  but what can I even do?  everything about her just feels right.  I dreamt about her last night.  so now I can't get her out of my head during the day, or night!  :(

this sucks.  

I can haz katherz?  :-/

Some times I write really long  blogs that no one reads.  maybe I do that because I know people won't read them if they're too long.


Sometimes I write short deep blogs that the wrong people read.


and sometimes I write blogs like this, that don't really mean anything I just don't have anything meaningful to say.

















or do I?