Symone's journals

BE ON THE LOOK OUT. <3

so i'm officially transfered to a more northern  hottopic.
as of 6/9/08.
so visit me there and let me talk you into buying things you don't need.
i'm so stoked to be out of tacoma.
tacoma and i had our fair share of love and war.
i'm ready to start a new chapter in my life now.
i am currently looking for a cheap place to live in the capitol hill area.
preferably.
until i find one i'll be on lydia's couch in that teeny apartment.
so if you want to let me sleep on your couch, speak up!
or maybe if you want to donate food. hahah.
also i'm looking for a PT server or cocktail waitress position.
i have experience, let know me if you've heard of anything.

in the mean while i'm going to watch everything fall into place.

"Bedroom Bandit" is in the running for the best DIY.

if you love me,
vote for me in the "BEST DIY EVAR TOUNAMENT!" forum!


http://www.godsgirls.com/forum/

xoxo! i can't believe i got nominated!
i love you guysssss!
and i love livia!!! <333

"... so now I say to you
plain as I can
if you are fighting
stop fighting
if you are marching
stop marching
come back to me
come back to me is my request."

this quote keeps running through my head.
i hope you can hear it.





on a lighter note:

i'm very much in love with nicole kidman.

i'm so glad it's almost summer.
tonight my friends and i had a midnight BBQ.
it was fantastic.
i ate until i couldn't eat anymore.

you know it's almost summer when you're smiling more,
and it's too hot to wear a lot of clothes,
and when all you want to do is drink booze.
well... that's when i know it's summer anyways!

this weekend was my first folklife.




sippin' on the joosey JOOSE with heather.





i also like to bar hop.
guess where i am in these photos!!!

heather and i at bar #3.


bar #1 with lydia and heather.


hi, i party at bar #1. (also with heather and staci, and some random dude)



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i'm still in the process of moving to seattle.
someone in the company is making things a bit difficult for me.
i hear nothing but good things from the store i want to transfer too though.
but working at my store is getting harder and harder to bare.
if i have to stay any longer than july i might just have to find a new job.

but other than that things are moving so fast.
and i am enjoying it.
it's been SOOOO hot lately.
i like it, but i don't like how i sweat my ass off every day!
summer is coming. times are a changing!

speaking of fast -
i stumbled into the arms of an amazing guy.
we barely met, but we know that we're supposed to be together.
i obviously wear my heart on my sleeve.



and i will risk anything and everything for love.

i saw michale graves play recently.
(for those of you that don't know michale graves was a former member of the misfits)

he looked totally nu-metal and it bummed me out.
then he talked about how he did his tour to promote himself
"gimmick free" and how he was tired of the makeup and the misfits image.
too bad i went there to see him decked out in black and corpse paint.
but no. he hated on it instead,
and what's even more funny is that he uses the misfit image to promote himself.
don't hate on something and then use it to glorify yourself, douche.
the crowd was all stoked on him being against the symbolism of misfits,
but too bad about 90% of them had misfits shirts or the crimson skull
tattooed on their bodies. faggots!

on the other hand,
city and colour was amazing!
i'm looking forward for his return in september.
it was a million degrees in the venue though.
hands down one of my favorite artists.



until we meet again.

x.

so after my mini vacay-
i left seattle.
bruised, broken, and tired.

i learned a lot of new things about myself,
and even more about you.
my mind changes with the day.
there's always choices to be made.
i choose to not think about what i do.
i choose to not take in the words that come from your mouth.
and i choose to only take things by the minute.



i should be living in the city by july.
i also have another amazing vacation in july!
the sarah's and i are going to sf, la, hollywood, and vegas!
it's going to be so fucking epic!!

this week has sure been a doozy.


i went to see the nekromantix on sunday!


they were fantastic on stage.
off stage, in the bar, is a whole different story.
so a friend and i went to the bar to get some drinks before their set.
of course all the seats were packed with mohawks and spikes and leather jackets. :]
so we stood in the middle of the room.
then randomly some guy walks up and starts talking to us,
asking us if we came to see the nekromantix,
we say yes, and then he goes "that's the drummer right there,"
then to my friend, "you should go pinch his butt!"
we then realized this was some sort of planned set up. haha.
my friend laughs and quickly declines and tells the guy to pinch the drummers butt.
so he does, the drummer turns around, they rough house a bit,
then he walks over and tries to get my friend to pinch his butt himself.
i'm trying so hard not to laugh at his ever-so-obvious attempts to hit on my friend.
then to our surprise he starts to NAME DROP himself!
he talked about how when they played hootanany in so cal,
after they were done everyone left before social distortion,
and how they were about to go on,
and the normal "thanks for coming out guys."
we thought that he couldn't be the real drummer because of how ridiculous he was acting,
and we had no idea what anyone in the band actually looked like.
we decided he was a roadie until another friend of mine asked me why i was being a groupie!
i told her i was totally innocent!  weird, band guys are all alike.

then on tuesday i come to find that there are many changes at my work.
one of my co-workers was promoted to be manager of her own store!
yay for her! nay because she's leaving.
the second one stepped down from her manager position to be part time,
but actually she just wants to quit.
so she'll leave soon.
and because she stepped down,
a woman that i dislike terribly will be taking her spot.
i have a bad past with her and refuse to work with her.
so i call my district manager completely upset no one even told me
because EVERYONE knew we had issues.
he told me that i lacked professionalism
and how disappointed he was that i don't believe in myself,
and that i'm not mature enough to try it out.
i pretty much wanted to tell him to FUCK HIMSELF.
he's never said anything nice to me and is always putting me down.
as my manager he should be encouraging and understanding.
i constantly feel used and taken advantage of in this company.
so by May 4th, 2008 i will be at a new store or not working with them anymore.
i'm not getting stepped on, and i'm not letting go of my pride.

on the other hand i got a sidekick LX. i'm in love.

"i want to wake up naked,
next to you,
kissing the curve of your clavicle."



so i've been doing a lot of thinking lately.
i decided that i need a change of scenery.
i started looking into moving north to seattle.
then to my surprise i picked up the stranger,
flipped to the horoscope section,
and this is what it said;


"the great theme is not romeo and juliet,"
said poet anne sexton.
"the great theme we all share is that of becoming ourselves,
of overcoming our father and mother,
of assuming our identities somehow."
this is certainly your great theme, capricorn.
and it's especially important for you to devote yourself to it now.
you're at a turning point in your life-long transformation.
you're being presented with a clear-cut choice between sinking back
into the ill-fitting yet comfortable mold that others have shaped for you,
or else striding out into the frontier in a brave push to become
a higher, deeper, more complete version of yourself.





coincidence? of course.
i love coincidences by the way.
time to move on.

me being gay.


hiiiiii!


BTW - i added like a trillion new photos.
so be sure to check them out.