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Ok so ive had to deal with that and this weekend was my lovers birthday, i didnt get a chance to see him because ive been really sick but i made him a bday present



there is a story behind it, when we were out the other night i was drunk and started to sing a song to him it went something like this
daxy daxy daxy bear
full of fluff and full of stuff
full of stuff and full of love
[sang to a really anoying toon]
but he said i should change it to
full of blood and full of guts

so i made him a bear full of blood and guts....
i thought i was getting better and we were supposed to hang out the other day before he went back on tour, but then i had to go to the emergency room and missed his call
later that night he left a song on my answering machine by 93 Current called A Gothic Lovesong
if you dont know how it goes here are the lyrics....


"A star-snuffing black
so you opened your books
and you opened your legs
and so opened your heart
and let in the badness
you claimed
as your friend
with un-angels hovering
like flies round the orchard
that had covered your soul
their empire increasing
and your country
deserted by yourself

The bells of St. Mary call us to remember
that life is with end
and the gestures can kill us
moreover destroy
and there is one jugdement only

Your letters came daily
in French or in German
but they meant to me nothing
I caught the slow cords
and dry ice fogging your mind
I see all too clearly now
why you should be discarded
and though I could pray for you
I probably shan`t
having had my cup filled up
with your lies
and your makeup
you were nothing
thinking you`re something

And nonetheless I still write this gothic lovesong
a sign to myself
and the memory of my past
I still write this gothic lovesong
and the memory of my past
and a way to shut out your face"

... im crushed, and if i was not so heavily medicated might have a nervous breakdown

i dont know if it was because i couldnt answer my phone or if i did something else.... its killing me

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Holy crap i had the worst dream ever last night. I dreamed that i had a dick. Dont get me wrong, i always wondered what it would be like to have one for a day. But this was just embarrassing, because in the dream i was dating this guy and i just woke up and had a huge throbbing cock and he was like, " its ok baby, ill be gay for you" but then i was like "NOOOOO! i dont wanna be a boy! I like being a girl!" And later we were out that day and my dream boyfriend was telling everybody about my dick and people were looking at me funny, laughing and taking pictures! UGHHHH,  I never wanna dream that ever ever again! I wonder what Dr. Freud would have to say about that!

today i took out my septum ring and my plugs. i've had them for a while now and in a fit of boredom, decided to take them out for good. now, for the fist time in 6 years i have no piercings what-so-ever, its kinda liberating. so... if any creepy person out there would like to have my 2g plugs and 16g nose ring message me your address and ill send it to you in the mail.

Im blond again! sorry for all of you who voted for black....

behold the mustache!




le sigh... im bored!

Im so in love with Porsche spyders... any 550 or 718 model will do, as long as it is silver with red leather interior.




My ideal date would be to race this car out into the middle of nowhere. Then we would have target practice with really ghetto hand guns and beer cans, finally make crazy mad love on the hood of the car!

Anyway... Texas people get on this....   http://www.godsgirls.com/forum/viewtopic.
lets get together and play some lazer tag or something!

its hot as hell here in Austin and i dont have a car yet! i need my hair cut and colored really bad! there is a cool salon i found online thats only about 1 mile away so i tried to walk it, but it was oppressively hot, im really out of shape(i cant even do 1 push-up) and was extreamly hung over. i made it almost half way, then turned around and walked home because i couldnt handle it. barf....

here are some pics of my new place









anyway i went out with a friend last night who i have not seen in 6 years, and got embarrassingly drunk (what a suprise) i left my phone in his car which is even more embarrassing because i know if one of my friends left their phone in my car, the FIRST thing i would do is look through all their pics and texts. in my phone i have homo erotic pics of gay cowboys (dont ask,) an even gayer pic of my ex boyfriend naked (i saved it because its hilarious,) pics of a dead bird, and a really STUPID video of me and 2 girlfriends dancing drunk and horribly around in our underwear and i cant even think of what else!!! i might have a lot of explaining to do hahahahaha i dont remember even getting in my bed. yikes. he probably thinks completely completely out of my mind, which is only partially true.




Its time for me to get a new phone and i dont want an iphone because it doesnt have a real keyboard.  There are 2 phones i have my eye on... but they are both not out yet. i either want the "sidekick 4" or the samsung f700 which has a touch screne and a full keyboard. i dont know what servers are going to carry the samsung so if anybody has any info on it please let me know!

I am interviewing for a full time artist position at the free standing MAC here... so wish me luck, im really really nervous.

Now i am going to go clean and paint my nails while pondering the mystery of why they get so fucking dirty when i go out drinking! I swear they look like i went grave digging or something... but then again i dont even remember going to bed so maybe i did

i finally made it. i thought i would surely die of a heart attack.... tring to break leases are a little complicated when you have a heartless ukrainian land lady!  But... the new place is pimp.i am exhausted and  will post pic's and write in more detail later. all my stuff was shipped here days ago.... including my bed, so i was sleeping on a hard wood floor with one old pillow, a towel and a gross old mexican blanket i used to put under my easel so paint wouldnt get every where.     i cant wait to go to bed!!!

:zz:

man, it came out all blurry.

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I finaly met AJ last night! she is absolutely breathtakingly amazingly hot... and i forgot my video camera :(  !  She is super sweet too! We went to some bar thing and i drank beer, whiskey, gin, and wine............... bad idea. i woke up in my bed an hour ago  and have noooooo idea how i got there. 00| now i cant even function with this massive head ache and shaky. yikes im dumb. good times. whatever.

PS one week from today i will be in austin.... for good! so if you live there message me, we can hang out :sheep:

im getting the violin "f"s tattoed on my back like in  man ray's photograph next week!