I don't have anything nice to say at all about what my life is and what's happening. It keeps me from being active here and I really can't fucking stand it. You think you can judge the integrity of the people in your life but honestly, everyone will surprise you. No matter how put together a person may seem you can never truly look at them and trust that their judgement is sane and as a sensitive person I swallow it up and it effects me and it eats at me, so even if the other person is 100% wrong I hate the feelings inside myself that I will go out of my way to make repairs to fix the problem that they made. No more. I know this is so super vague but what was done is so unspeakable to me. Maybe the bigger picture isn't but I can't even bring myself to type what this person did. And then they walk around like I'm the one being annoying... the one who is wrong. How does that even work?
I haven't sent in anything new. I keep bashing myself and not thinking through what I want to do. Keep changing my mind, making excuses, feeling down, overwhelmed, don't have time. It literally all crashes down on my and I'm the worst GG. Please have a few of these and accept them as tokens of thanks for the support I get on here. It's not until you wander off onto other sites that you realize that none of them feel as much like home as it does here. And I don't even interact as much as some of you do. I just genuinely think the world of all you ladies because you just embrace and embrace so damn much. And the members are so polite and friendly and just as warm. Love this place so much.