Shea's journals

ugh this weather is sucking right now. my feets and hands are always cold 24/7 in the winter. even with like heavy duty man socks on. the heat is on in my house and i still cant feel the tip of my nose or my fingertips. i need some nummy chicken soup to warm me up (:

anyway, good news everybody! i have some shoots scheduled for next month with a few different photographers, so you get to see me naked soon yay! ugh i stil have a few things to tone but other than that im back to normal.

im pretty sure im going to see shattered realm/ years spent cold on saturday night in new jersey. its a benefit show in clark@ knights of columbus. If your going let me know and we can meet up or something. its a bunch of really great bands so you guys should totally be there.

anyway im going to go download some more music and eat, which seems to be all i do these days. ttyl :)

 

i must do these things. this is what you do with your time when u have a newborn and he is sleeping for 20 hours a day lol

1. smoke a blunt in amsterdam or eat a pot brownie just because its legal there


2. go on a tour of dracula's castle


3. spend a month camping out on the beaches of thailand ( watch the movie the beach with leonardo dicaprio)


4. go to the moulin rogue in paris and watch a show


5. go on a black metal tour of norway


6. go shopping in harajuku


7. go to every single ikea in  sweden


8. eat at the slaughtered lamb pub in nyc


9. see the northern lights


10. stay at a villa in tuscany


11. horseback riding on the beach with my boyfriend by moonlight


12. go to canada again and see all the pretty waterfalls on the sides of the road


13. eat a lobster dinner in maine


14. go to mystic CT aquarium


15. go out on a great white expedition in south africa


16. go on an african safari and stay at a game lodge


17. stay at the paradise atlantis resort in the bahamas


18. shopping in paris


19. dip my feet in loch ness


20. swim in lake tahoe


21. take a boat ride under the falls @ niagra falls


22. go cave diving in mexico


23. visit the mayan ruins


24. stay in a little cottage in the english countryside

theres a shitload more but thats what i have so far. i know im  lame for some of those answers. some people are surprised that a person like me would want to do some of those things, but yes, tis true im a fucking lame ass nerd at heart and  i love it. today is boring as shit. i have a cursing problem.

ive been eating nothing but pretzels and strawberry kiwi snapple. ugh i gotta pee

okay back! so pretty much nothing new in my life, ive been reading the novel version of american psycho which if you are a fan of the movie and  have not yet read the book. you really should, its like 10x better than the movie.

isnt it like 44 days till christmas or something? Holy shit.

 

so the other day i got an IM from a director for vivid/ teravision asking me if i was interested in maybe getting into the business. They saw my application to razordolls awhile ago and thought i had zee looks :)

this was all great until i talked it over with my boyfriend and he told me there was no way it was going to happen. guys are so fucking confusing. it was going to happen and i was going to go through with it. we have been dating now for two years and I have told him from the get go that i wanted to get into the adult industry. It sucks now because now that i have this amazing oppurtunity that basically shoved into up my ass, i cant even take it because I obviously value my relationship with the father of my child more. It just sucks because now I have to resort to plan B which is lead a boring life and get a boring 9-5 and be like everyone else. I guess thats the price you have to pay for being in love, sucks. I still want to dance though and hes not stopping me from that I made it very clear to him. Im looking for fetish photographers also in the NY/NJ/CT area maybe I can just get into that scene for now and gain some noteriety that way.

This weekend is gunna suck ass . Someone cheer me up on AIM

screename- barbieglitterss

the sole reason why this man should not be president.

he has alot of the right ideas in other areas of the spectrum of political issues, but this is just horrific.

vote independent!

on a lighter note, im going to ikea to get some swedish meatballs, then hop on over to juicy couture to put in my application so i can start working again :)

yay for money

went shopping today for my halloween costume. My goal is to go for the traditional japanese severed geisha head look like in oh so popular tattoo design. This is my inspiration:

so far i bought the red and black one of this design for the base of the costume

tomoro its time to hit up party city to buy some eyelashes, pumps and a makeup kit that makes it look like my head has been cut off and then sewn back on

i might get the manson colored contacts to add to the effect <3

i fucking love halloween :)

A recent friend of mine brought it to my attention that the majority of Staten Island Girls resemble pornstars. Driving around the other day and going to the mall, where the population of Staten Island 21 and under call a hangout, I realized this theory was pretty on target. I have nothing against Staten Island Girls tbh, Im from there, born and raised. I tihnk we get a bad rap, especially because of MTv's special on true Life: Im a Staten Island Girl. If you havent watched it yet, heres the link, its pretty entertaining.

http://www.mtv.com/ontv/dyn/truelife/episode/episode.jhtml?episodeId=109379

i can rightfully say im a true island girl, i have the accent, and im proud of it, i go tanning and i dont really care what ppl say. I wear ed hardy, uggs and listen to trance and house music on occasion. Staten island is basically part brooklyn part new jersey, so the people are a little mix of both. im loud as hell, i use my hands when i talk and i wear bronzer and heavy eye makeup. thought id clear this up with everyone. the majority of staten island girls do resemble pornstars, let it be known

so im finally a MILF! it feels so great. Having a child is the most wonderful thing thats ever happened to me. My decision I made to keep and parent my baby was the best one I have ever made in my entire life. Hes the perfect little man<3 After about 15 hours of labor and twenty minutes of pushing my baby boy, Alexander Jordan ( AJ) was brought into this world on October 16, 2008 at 11:31 am. I had a fairly easy pregnancy and i must say I got off pretty easily, no stretch marks on my belly and the majority of the baby weight fell off in the hospital. I also didnt need an episiotomy( cutting my vag open so the baby can slide out easier hah) and I didnt rip. Since this is a porn site, and it is complete neccessary I state this, I must say, I thought I would feel like my vagina had been blown out after giving birth, but it feels normal, no saggy vag for me yay! Also, the whole pushing process isnt as bad as some people think, your so consumed with the fact that you are about to bring life into this world, that you dont even realize the pain you are going through.

So now that baby is here, its time to shoot some sets. I tihnk I'll have about 5 ready by the end of november ready to send in, I got a brand new camera and I just gotta lose a little bit more of my pouch and I'll be ready to get nakies!

 

oh man. my body is ready to fail on me lol. im getting so impatient! ugh i want this all to be over with already! come on baby!

anyway sorry i havent had time to really post anything of substantial importance or interest, ive been really busy getting everything ready and myself ready, mentally and physically. Any day now people! This means I will get on those DIYs within the next month or so! YAYAYAYAY. in other news, Ive been really busy wirting, my book on fetish, and a few adult scripts that Ive been working on. I just found out pornstar Eva Angelina is pregnant to! Shes so beautiful and I wish her all the best :)

Yesterday me and my mom had a really nice time together, its so weird, we have never been so close in my whole life. Shes really awesome, and I sound so prissy right now, but I am so glad that me and her are doing so good, I couldnt be going through any of this without her, Shes truly and amazing person, wow lol im crying. fuck these horomones seriously. i cry out of nowhere haha. I stare at something from my childhood, I start crying haha. Its getting bad. whatever. Anyway me and my mom went to jersey together and went to a few pumpkin patches and this place called delicious orchards. My fat ass went ape shit in the market part of the place and pretty much bought like 50 dollars worth of cookies, cider, apples , apple cider donuts,and fresh homemade white bread. Anyway im lonely AIM me up! sn- barbieglitterss

people should have to take some sort of intelligence test before they are allowed to vote. Im getting really sick of hearing who everyone is voting for and people trying to make substantial arguements as to why they are choosing that person, only to get the obvious bullshit. It makes me kind of mad becuz all these celebrities and ad campaigns for MTV and shit like that are encouraing the youth of america to go and vote, but honestly, do you want people to sign up to vote just for the sole purpose of a number? What about the reasons why, the arguements each individual candidate makes? DO you really want people going out and voting for the hip candidate just because he takes a prettier picture? Educate yourselves america, please. Dont just go out and Vote, have your reasons to register, and make sure you know a little bit about what each person has to offer, instead of how hip they are in the celebrity world.

1. a small child  could crawl through a blue whale's major arteries


2. it only takes seven pounds of pressure to rip off an ear.


3. during a kiss, as many as 278 bacteria colonies are exchanged.


4. fetuses can hiccup


5. two dogs are hanged for witchcraft during the salem witch trials.


6. a brazilian vet is offering plastic surgery and botox injections for pampered pets


7. more than 11,000 people a year are injured trying out new sexual positions


8. a woman's heart beats faster than a man's heart


9. more copies of the ikea catalog are printed each year than the bible.


10. motley crue athens born tommy lee's mother was miss greece in 1957.

completely useless yet completely awesome.

today i went shopping so much it  feels as thogh my back is going to split open. went to yummy trader joes and bought apple cider vegan cupcakes, a pumpkin and some yummy all natural fruit chew bars. i fucking love those things. looks like im going to band with my boyfriend on friday, fuck, this  fetus is going to know how to growl like a death metal singer before he turns 1.