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I hate how right people are about me. It always seems like other people know more about me than I know about myself. Like, one of the ladies I go to school with, I'm her youngest son's age, and we were walking together (her and I, not her son and I haha). And she just kind of looked at me "why are you even doing this program?" I just kind of "umm, I don't know..."ed her and she said to me "I barely know you and I know you're smarter than this, and way more creative than this." I don't know why I'm doing it right now. I do know I can do better than this. It's just easy. I prefer easy. Just like I prefer my women. Okay, kind of kidding. I don't know what I want, I don't know what I want, I don't know what I want. Every once in awhile I write something i think is all deep and profound, and then I go and read it over again later and realize how ridiculous it is. I just want to create, but nothing comes out of my head how I think it should and I get frustrated. I hate being lost. I hate how I don't miss people right now, people I used to be reallllly close with I'm like "meh, that's nice, you're probably still alive but meh." And then other people I'm like "OMG WHERE ARE YOU I WANTCHU IN MY LIFE!!"
Pictures Litsy took of me for her accessory line. My hair looks especially bright:
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I should be studying. Have a good night/day loves.
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Serena
I think I get what you mean. It just genuinely sucks that the only thing that holds us back at the moment is ourselves.
RyanTattdup
sooooo gorgeous!
and people need to shut up sometimes
Serena
I really value her input haha, it just sucks that its so true and I just hate looking at it. :/
RyanTattdup
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wellllllllll....... IDK..... just watch ultimate warrior promos and then maybe you will rethink live like I am lol
Serena
Haha! I'm gonna debate on being a pirate now :P
RyanTattdup
well when you become one, let me get that booty!
Serena
Hahahaha!
That, was awesome
xMangox650x
ya i feel the same way, i know i can do better that what i do, i just dont do it, because i like simple and easy, plus i dont also dont know what to do. i feel lost in school, and about what i wanna do once im done.
anyways, you loo amazing in the pics =]
Serena
Thats how I am... like I know I don't belong in scrubs.... and thank you :)
murderface
rad make up :)
and i feel the same way too. again, not so much the "other people know me" thing.... but the reaching my full potential thing. i've started a bunch of school crap that i never finished... and i'm fucking kicking myself for. everyone's like... " just go back then!" and to me (especially at this time in my life) i don't feel it's just that simple. *sigh* i don't know... maybe we're all just fucking crazy...... yeah, i'll go with that. lmao. <333
Serena
School costs wayyyy too much time and money, especially with how the (i hate this word) economy is now, I can't justify doing something I love when I don't know if I'd be able to survive. :(
We're definetly a little crazy <33
Addison
I like the spiders.
And your hair.
And you.
Had to favorite my girlfrans.
Serena
Awwh, I like it when you stick things in your vagina and take pictures <333
Addison
I'd stick things in my vagina and take pictures anytime for you ;]
<3
Serena
I like how on Gods Girls, thats NOT a completely creepy dirty thing to say haha <3
Addison
Haha, exactly. Because GG is the most magical wonderful place ever.
Serena
With unicorns!
SatanicSailor
I kind of feel the same way with people I am friends with. I feel like maybe I should contact them but then I back out because I don't think they'd want to hear from me or just not want to do anything, and that causes me to withdraw.
Serena
I am such a withdrawer. Like, if someone doesn't try to make plans with me, it's really likely I wont try either. I suck.
Lorraine
Damn girl, you are too cute.
If you were tiny, I've let you live in my pocket and show you off to everyone.
"Look at this cute adorable thing!" "And shes all mine" hahhaha!
We need to do a shoot.
Soemthing with a lotta glam.
:D
Serena
Awwh!
Please carry me around in your pocket anyways, it would be amazing haha. <333
i would loooove to shoot with you shit
Lorraine
Sweet!!!
Mini Serena in my pocket!
YAYS!!!
We live sooo far apart tho.
I'm never in canada.
:(
Serena
Awwh :(
It makes me sad haha I hate distance.
I want to take like a year off from like and just travel around and couch hop and shit. I don't wanna be a grown up
Lorraine
Well you never have to grow up, but we do have to grow old.
So theres that!
And you should travel, don't forget Virginia.
:D
Serena
Of course bbgirl<3333
Devika
Yeah I have gotten people saying things like that too, but man just do what you want you know?
and dang girl you are so gorgeous!
Serena
Haha <333
People suck. I want concrete answers, not vagueties from them!
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Cute pictes and cute little arachnies.
I understand where you are coming from. Maybe not so much how people know me more, as people often don't know me well enough (thought that is my doing). I often stick to something easier. Sometimes I tihnk it's cause I am too lazy to reach my full potential. And sometimes I feel like I fear like going too high which reaching my most porductive desires. Either way I know I keep myself back from full potential.