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yeah no!!

the snail is dead. it is deceased it is no more!!
im gutted he was awsome no i have an empty tank the cockroaches are still to small to fit in it.

we went to wales it was fun here are some pictures i cant be arsed to post them all cos it takes waaaay too long only for two people to comment on them hahaha



the ex finally cut the ties between me and him this weekend after dancing around in a shitty sort of on and off cant let go of each other shit. so ill add him to the list of people that broke my heart and will take a long time to get over. i honestly swear there is nothing better then watching someone move on and be happy while your in a rut seriously. get a  bucket of chicken and sit down its that good entertainment. so im properly free and single fuck.

i just wrote half page of meaningful shit and realised no one needs to hear it. basically im not sure where im going in my life. im doing too many things and not anything for me im not relaxing. i look like shit and im not happy and not dealing with anything. my life is spent modelling and tattooing and i cant be doing both atm. i have some decisions and i need to figure a course of action

i miss what friends actually are. i met alot of fake people and i feel me turning into somthing that isnt me
im on a quest for me i have no idea who i am anymore and its a little scary. iv met some sexually promiscuous people and do you no what im not that either. im actually really self conscience about my body and as much i miss sex i miss fucking sleeping next to someone and being wanted.

but right now my personality sucks!

anyway. i bought these sweet shoes


and i started doing this tattoo again last sunday

So wales is coming up soon, this thursday in fact. im looking forward to seeing dianna's boobs in person. shes such a lovely girl weve only been chatting over the net so itll be nice to get to meet a few of the girls whove recently joined. im looking forward to seeing dannis new sprog as well >_<

im super busy right until we go to wales which is cool but it stresses me out a bit. im superstoked that im doing my first photoshoot with BA this wed. im just waiting to hear back from the tog about times and such........im still waiting for the latex ones i shot the other day actually. im scared of how there going to come out i have little faith in my modelling these days. and i have a growing concern about my vagina. i hate that fucking thing i personally wouldnt take pictures of it hahahahah.

i was painting some false nails last night and watching my cockroach on the side of the tank normally they stay hidden but being the smallest i was waiting for it to shed its skin. how gutted was i that i missed it. its amazing when it comes out white and so much larger and you think how were you crammed in that shell and why did i not get to watch you come out of it hahahah.

our strip club burnt down last week. the studio i work in isnt too far from there just round the corner. its a bit sad they reckon its arson but its out of the local news now. gone and forgotten i hope we get it back.

England had two actual days of sunshine!!!!! i no wtf!!!! sunday was good i got burnt going round a bootfair and sitting on an overcrowded beach in brighton. it took me and my uncle over an hour to park down there hahahaha. now today im at work i a short mini skirt and cowboy boots and its fucking freezing! the suns gone in yet by boss has a fan going im not happy. theres no heating in here :( anyway thats all trash you dont need to hear about

So these women huh?! im constantly admiring other women i think its because i lack the confidence to be my own person i cant stand alone im always looking to other people. im a fucking lonely soul but i will do this to myself sometimes i dont understand my head. sometimes i question my tattoos. i do this because i question everything. i will have love right in front of me and feel it and no it yet my paranioa will make me question this. id like to destroy this hahaha


INSECTAVORIA/ANGELICA- piercer and part of coney islands freakshow. look at her need i say more! shes absolutely beautiful and her facial tattoos are just amazing i admire a woman like her because shes confident in herself to throw two fingers to the rest of society and shes broken the barrier of comiing over that fact to actually do it

Kat von D- 'nuff said. the ego aside another strong woman with tattoos and one of the few women tattoo artists who can actually do good tattoos with all the airy fairy bullshit


louise-my sister from another country. shes just like me


girls with their tongue split- theres more then these two on the site who have had it done but i could only find pictures of these guys. since researching into it iv found not juts on here but on other sites there are alot of women who have had it done.
nero

madie


kylee kross- former porn star and now tattoo artist. i saw her in the bak issues of bizarre when i was 16 and thought she was the dogs bollocks and complelty thought she was amazing. later found out she was on BA and its been a dream since then


theres probably more but right now thats all my brain can handle hahahaha. is it weird im looking forward to chowing down on my salad? i miss sushi :( i wish i could afford it right now.

right peace out bra's

xx

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Yesterday i got lasered. it was fun!
joke.

it was fucking horrble. i paid silly amounts for this gel cream that didnt cover half of my tattoo lol. What little i had i put on the most painful parts and then braved the rest. So far it looks red and like it hasnt done much. im told i will see the results soon. hmmmmmmmmmm its left me reeeally tight for money for the end of the month



Its strange when i walk because it a bit inflamed and it feels like a large piece of flab when i walk it moves a few seconds after and wobbles. feels gross.


I bought me some new septum jewellary its been ages since iv worn a huge piece in and its nice because its lightweight shame it hangs so far down my face tho lol



im not too sure if i like my new sets that are going up. its made me realise just how much work it is to model. some girls find it easy and i obviously dont. im not impressed with how i look and i can assure everyone i dont have an egghead as it implies in my bmxx set. that upsets me a lil.

here are the good photos i took the other day for a few friends clothing labels

that is my face on the t shirt




Busy weekend again. im tattooing my friend. another new area. im tattooing this under each arse cheek. the banners are going to read never sink. nice idea its going to be interesting. i hope she sits still lol. i get to stay in brightona for the weekend hooray!



so im superstoked about wales tattoo jam coming up its going to be fantastic. i got my lil sailors outfit all ready and im all syked on meeting the new GG as well as tassy and sj cos its been a  few months since iv seen them and im wondering if well get to take some diys together.

so its been about 6/7 months since iv had sex!! iv officially scabbed over. if you pick it it now bleeds. in a few months time id have revirginised myself!!!


xx

yesterday i had my first test patch for lasering



Your looking at the lower leaf and the edge of the red on the rose. it was no walk in the park this is going to be a savage procedure.
i got a good quote for £90 to go over the whole thing once with a free test patch as well.while over in a neighbouring town they charge £35 for a test patch of five dots!!and £200 per half hour!!!!!



but they put clinic in front of their business and you just now there awful cunts. (if there was a suitable picture of a vagina emoticon i could put here i would lol)

woodys was amazing lovely poeple and lovely environment im looking forward in a way to coming back in two weeks time.

in other news i got some more shoes, what a surprise



this is me prancing around in them at home in a pair of boxers and a t shirt.

And this is me being hideously emo lol.



these are the reject pictures form shots i took with the godsgirl necklace on. The other ones are in the forum



last night my friend described me as a kite



xx

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