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OH MAN... I felt horrible today. I know it's finally over between me and my boyfriend... I finally went home to STAY... feeling tired and drained... physically and emotionally...
And what do I find? My EX boyfriend (my first love and the person I share a matching tattoo with) in my backyard. He came to say hi to my mom and my doggies... My dogs love him. One of my golden labs, Storm, wa our "love child"... She misses him a lot.
It was hard having to deal with the emotions of a break up and with all the emotions that come flooding back from seeing an ex. At least he appologized to me. He was awful to me the last time I saw him. I know he still cares for me deeply... and that makes my situation so much harder.
I hate being a whinney little brat, but sometimes I have to give in and just cry. I cried and cried and cried a lot today. For a long time. And I slept a lot too.
I know things will get better... I'll find a really good job that I'll want to get up in the morning for... that will make me happy...
And I know I'll eventually have the one person I desire above all others.
I just wanted to rant I guess. I've grown up quite a bit in the last little while. (I'm only ostensibly childish and bubbly!)... okay, maybe I'll always be childish, but at least I know how to have fun... I haven't lost that innocence yet... completely.
I have to remember to listen to music when i get upset. Songs always make me feel better... help me to assess the situation more clearly.
So... What are your "Feel Better" songs? I need some really good tunes to listen to!
That's it. C'est la vie!
XOXOXXX,
<3 Saje.
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Saje
Oh thanks! I looked it up. Good song!!
Rae
hot water music .. radio is a good one. might fit your mood better. or hot water music.. bleeder.
murderbydavid
depends on your mood, and music prefernce i guess but...
"Rocking the suburbs" by Ben Folds is always fun
"Casual Satisfaction" by Totally Michael
"Phantom Punch" by Sondre Lerche (actually every song on that album is good)
"Discotech" by Young Love
"Capitalism Stole My Virginity" by The (international) Noise Conspiracy
"Catastrophe" by Rainer Maria (the video is cute too
"Night Of The Creeps" - Recover
"Hit In Sweden" - Say Hi To Your Mom
"Watermark" - The Weakerthans
well there are a few, I'm sure i could think of more if it weren't so late.
But you have to do me a favor and try and feel better, you seem way too awesome to be sad. this too shall pass.
Saje
Aw! Thank you so much. I'll look them up! I will do my best to feel better. :)
murderbydavid
it was no problem, plus i noticed you have Refused listed in your music, which is amaing. especially since the lead ainger is also the singer for the (I)NC(if you didn't already know), who i just suggested. lols. i also did not relize i had Young Love and Recover on there, who also share singers, silly me.
Donkey
You're not being a whinney little brat... you're letting it out. If you dont' let it out, it stays inside and just festers. That is not good. It's good to just vent sometimes and it seems like you really need it.
Feel Better songs? I love Nick Cave, he can fit any mood for me. I would mention good break up songs from him but he wrote an entire album about his divorce which is one of my favorites and I even have the cover of the album tattooed on me. It's my favorite... "The Boatman's Call". You really can't go wrong with this album.
Let me know if it makes you feel any better and hope you return to smiling soon.
Martini07
*big hugs* I listen to metal, so there are a ton of "feel good" songs I listen to
Atsuko
*sends you many hugs mit tea*
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heads will roll. yeah yeah yeahs