ya i was invited last minute to go tubing down the salt river with my sis and i went. it was alot of fun. it was halloween themed but no one dressed up except the people who worked there. i am soooo fucking tan its crazy. i need to tan my tata's. they're white as a ghost.

it sucks cuz i was suppose to have a girl night with my friend tonight cuz she is moving to montana on tuesday. but she ditched out on me. what the fuck??? we were gonna do our hair, and nails, and do facials. and i wanted to watch 13 going on 30 cuz its the only chick flick i own. im not big on chick flicks at all but i like that one and also dirty love. i think every girl likes that movie. its definately a guilty pleasure.

it just sucks cuz i have had my friend shelly for years since elementary school. and she is dating my boyfriends brother but they moved to montana like a year ago. but i just found out shes moving back so im excited. but i dont think shes coming back with her boyfriend. and if they brake up it will break all of our friendships up. and we have a strong bond that not alot of people have shared with friends. we even all lived in a one bedroom apartment with one other guy. thats some true friends who can all cram 5 people into a one bedroom one bathroom apartment and live together for 6 months and not kill eachother. instead we always would play cards at night and on weekends we would go to zia's (a record/movie store) get a new movie and cook out on the barbeque. it was awesome.

i miss those days so much. and i miss shelly so much. she is my fucking sister pretty much. i love her so much and i would gladly take a bullet for this chick. i just wish i could have been there for her financially and physically. her and her boyfriend have been really broke like to the point they arent eating and had to sell all there stuff to make rent. i feel so bad. i was suppose to be there for her. and i couldnt cuz i have been barely eating myself. its terrible right now. i wish i could go back to elementary school. back with shelly. and we would ride our scooters all around the school when school is out. and go play on the jungle gym and play hot lova. and we would do cartwheels in the fields. we would do as many as we could and not completely collapse. she was never scared to do anything. and she never listened to what people said was cool. she has her own style and personality and everyone thinks she is so beautiful cuz of it. me especially, im so happy to have her in my life. my own sister is rarely there for me. we hang out every once in a while but thats it. i feel closer to shelly than my own sister and she feels closer to her friends than me. everyone said that would change as we got older but its only gotten worse.

i dont know what im blabbering about. i originally was telling about my day at the river and all i can think about is shelly coming back. i just miss my best friend so much.

this is my friend shelly and her boyfriend (my boyfriends brother) i wish i had a picture of me and her but they are on my old computer.