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WELL....
It is good and gone. My Model Mayhem and Deviant Art pages are officially dead. Myspace is up next, though I am taking my time parting with it. I started it in around November 2004 and I am a little sad to let it go. I know it will be for the best. I will share some common thoughts with you - these thoughts come to me almost every time I check various things on Myspace.
"Holy fuck, that girl is hot"
"Ew, why did they upload that pic of me? Now I have to ask them to delete it and they will accuse me of being a dickhead. That or refuse. FUCK THEM."
"Why is my photo getting no comments?"
"Great, another 800 emails from Mahummad and Akmed who seem to think I want to get to know them."
"Delete... Delete... Delete... Delete... Delete..." (while going through profile comments and private messages)
"JUST FUCK OFF" (every time Myspace IM opens)
"Why is his/her ex adding me? Are they stalking me? Keeping tabs? Fuckers."
"Ew, *insert whatever boyfriend I was with at the time's name here* his ex is gross. Look at that photo! Eww look at that one! Oh, she looks good here =(" (Jealousy is not healthy. Myspace allows unhealthy stalking.)
So basically, Myspace brings me nothing but negativity, useless comments, random fucking foreigners that ALWAYS HAVE THE SAME NAME and want to hit on me via message, repetitive boring behaviours and so on and so forth.
I am sick of rude comments. I get a million nice ones and like two bad ones and the bad ones stick. I am done. Truly. I am currently in the process of going through all the photos that I want to keep, just so I do not get rid of something important by accident.
I am over this emotional roller coaster regarding everything Myspaz has to offer. Well and truly ready to wash my hands of it. It shall be happening soon.
On a much more lovely note, I FINALLY had my Fafinette tattoo completed today :)
I will show you the pics of the lovely finished product before I go into the story -
I used almost an entire bottle of numbing cream. I got up early and wrapped my foot in glad wrap after I had applied shitloads. It was caked on, and dripping all over my feet. I wrapped it well and taped it up and kept it on for about 2.5 hours.
We started with the tatt... and lo and behold, the cream did nothing. This could be because I was using a shitty generic brand instead of the expensive amazing stuff, but I was broke at the time. I mean.. my foot felt cold and tingly and jelly-like, so I assumed it had worked.
Let this be a lesson to you all - USE ONLY EMLA. None of this "xylodsjghkjsdgkdjs jelly" shit. It does nothing.
Anyway, I popped about 8 Valium and was so fucking relaxed, all of a sudden the needle slices through the approximate five millimeters of skin above the masses of bone in my feet. I panicked. I bawled my eyes out for about 30 minutes. I asked for a toilet break to compose myself after she had touched up all the outline. I came back, skulled a rum and coke, and sat up eating home-made cookies whilst my boyfriend said sweet encouraging things to me. I found that sitting up and looking at the ink while it was being done was a lot less painful. I sat there for almost two hours and I finally did it... I finished the whole thing. I am not ashamed to say that I am proud of myself, but I am ashamed that I lost it like I did. This has only happened to me ONCE before during a tatt, and it was during the second... no... third session of having Gambit and Rogue done on my calf.
I know I am a total pussy, but when it comes to feet tatts, I have always been this way. It took me three sittings to get this one done, and the reason I waited so long between the second and the last was because of the horrible infection I encountered. I cannot be bothered explaining it all, but basically the entire yellow area reacted so badly that my skin was an open, festering wound pouring with puss and plasma. It was disgusting and painful and I vowed never to get a tattoo again. I hated my Fafinette so much. It brought me lots of emotional pain.
But now.. she is done. She is beautiful. I look at her and I feel naught but joy and relief and pride. I am getting her sister on my right foot on Monday... WITH EMLA :) Because I do not relish the thought of another painful foot tatt. I will get this one done in just one sitting (unless the colour all falls out and I have to go back or something unusual like that).
Because of my bravery, my wonderful boyfriend got me a surprise kitty purse at my favourite Japanese store in the city =)
We also found these incredible PAW PILLOWS on sale at another cute Azn store that was closing down this weekend. The pillows were reduced from $40 each to $18. Boyfriend loved them and got two and I was the happiest camper around.
All in all, it has been a very wonderful day.
I also received my cheque for a magazine I recently modelled for. Two days ago I got another cheque from the other mag I shot for. I am 100% sure that I will be in the Australian and NZ copies of "The Picture" come Monday the 20th.
I am 90% sure that I will also be in the Aus and NZ editions of "People" the same week. Lame that they mixed up the dates so that I debut in two mags in one week, but still... it's a few hundred $$ for me (which I truly needed to pay off my laptop) and I am excited to see mah boobs and vag in a magazine. I just hope they picked an awesome photo!!! We took about 60, and every third one I approved of. Unfortunately I didn't get to choose what was used, but I have high hopes :)
Oh I almost forgot - when Monnie and I shot our DUO DIY together last year (which will unfortunately NOT be making a debut for lame reasons), she lent me a sick animal beanie to wear. Hers was a grey bear and mine was a leopard one. I wanted to get some of my own FOREVER but NEVER could find them. On the weekend, boyfriend and I were at the shops with his nephew and what do we see at a random little stall? A FUCKING CHEETAH HAT. OMFG.
I am now the proud owner -
So fucking amazing. They had A PANDA ONE also, so I will be purchasing that shortly.
Toodles lovers, I am off to make some lovely hand-made crafts for ORCHID!!!!!! Her first snail mail package will be arriving soon. Oh, how I love penpals. Wylie has also given me his postal address, so we may be in touch by post also!
XOX
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Neko
They are really, very weak. Let's see... i took five in the car, two when I arrived and three when I was being tattooed. so I guess it was 10. They were only 3mg each though. Or 2mg?
Hmmmm that would mean I had about 20mg minimum. I hear it takes at least 30-40 to really fuck you up. I have an insane kind of immunity to drugs. Not that Valium is illegal or anything, but yeah. I am ranting :)
Magdalene
wow, i'm a mess on valium haha
richpdx
Awesome journal :) I'm a fan of you, you know?
Neko
Really!? A dead set fan!?! I should market some kind of shirt or wrist band...
richpdx
I might go for those.
I'm actually hoping to make the transition from fan to groupie. Who do I have to blow?
Neko
Hmmm... let me think about that one and get back to you!
richpdx
Hottie.
LadyNatas
God. You and I have more in common than i thought - i deleted my myspace for pretty much exactly what you mentioned early last year haha. Although thats probably why most people delete it. Howcome you deleted deviantart though? Isnt that just an art site?
I cant take 8 valium though. I take two and i need to lie down haha. Dunno how you managed 8!
Oh and in other news, i couldnt get the thing from my doctor cos i accidently forgot the details you gave me before i left. I will go back soon though.
Neko
Yeah Deviantart is an art site but I also modelled through it, and since I no longer submitted photography, etc, it felt like a waste of space. I was fine after 8. LOL. Like i said - freakish immunity.
Did you want me to post you a business card??? ALSO - checking out that link you sent to me on Facebook and I am fucking IN LOVE and plan to own many new hats in the future =D thanks babes.
TommyCinLA
"A TOTAL PUSSY"... NO WAY!!! Anyone that has more than 3 tats... is a brave mother f-er to me! I hate needles! I'm going to be the last white man in the L.A. Basin to NOT have an indian tribal band on his arm! 0 tats.... out of fear of needles and committment!
Ur amazing
I'm off to molest your myspace page now....
GREAT PICS
love the foot tat
VERY MUCH!
Neko
EWWW TRIBAL BANDS... WHY DOES EVERYONE HAVE THEM!? I respect you muchly for NOT having one :) And thanks for the kind words on my foot. I honestly feel happy swelling in my chest every time I see her because of all the pain she caused me. So worth it now!
TommyCinLA
Well she is adorable!!! like the pic of the girl in the leopard skin hat!!!! ;)
Neko
Nawwww shucks *^_^*
TheSquall
*hugs* I'm glad you're getting off the MySpace bandwagon. It's a nice place, but there are too many cynics out there that just live to hurt other people, and it's stupid.
I have work now... but hurray <3 Neko! :D (That sums up everything I have to say I guess)
Neko
Poo you, cynics! I am virtually untouchable now ^_^
Dors
bahahahaha! everything you said about myspace is exactly how i feel and what i get from it! 800messages a day saying msn babe? NO!
loves you girlie, so proud you finished your tettoo im dreading my feet being done!
big hugs! xxxx
Neko
Feet hurt! Be brave baby!!! love you xxxxxx
lifegrd31
I love your Fafinette. She looks so good. I am a big Fafi fan myself.
Neko
I have the best Fafi book - if you are a fan, I suggest having a look at it -
lifegrd31
Is that the Japanese one? If so I have that one. It is my favorite.
Neko
I'm pretty sure it's japanese. It rocks!
Lily
I want a pillow like that! And your hat! If I give you money can you buy and mail me one?!
Neko
The hats are $15 AUD, if you let me know if you want a panda, tiger or cheetah (I have the cheetah one) then I will be happy to check the postage (PM me your postal address) and get the full cost back to you. We can do it through Ebay if that is easier? Do you have paypal?
Lily
Yes! Pming you now!
wychlea
There is an awful lot of cute in this post! : )
I'm glad you got the tattoo fixed - it looks great!
I'm hardly ever on MySpace anymore. I guess I just use it to occasionally keep in touch with certain people now, but that's it. Have you made yours private? That should keep out the riff-raff.
Yay! Penpals! I've never gotten anything from Australia!
<3
Neko
Cute is what I aim for :) Mine was not private... but I privated most of the modules on it, so hardly any of it was visible to the public. Still, too much riff-raff for my liking. It is all gone now!!
I will plan a lovely little envelope of goodies for you <3
wychlea
Yay! You're super awesome! <3
Vaalea
those tats are so nice! I love it! and I especially love the last picture, you're amazing <3
Neko
Thanks beautiful girl <3333
RyanTattdup
don't worry. Foot tattoos were the most painful thing I've gotten tattoo'd. 2 1/2 hours on each size 13 foot, and I think I have less then 5 mm of skin before bone, because I run so much.
I wanted to tap out after the outline but said fuck this Danny get it over and done with
Neko
You are a brave motherfucker. I have size 10 feet which is like, huge.... My mum and like, one other girl I know are size 11. My feet are also really narrow and bony and I have bunions and have since I was like four. Mega deformed! I always wanted them inked so that I could focus on something pretty when I looked at them. Now that I have cried and sat through the pain, the result is SO much more worthwhile.
Can't wait until Monday, I am getting my other one done :):)
RyanTattdup
thanks for calling me brave!
but yeah I go in June 13th for work to my sleeve.
Neko
Hahahaha, rad ink! It would've hurt for sure.
FLIPZ5
i JUST added you on myspaz =(
i have nowhere left to stalk, errr i mean leave u nice comments.blah.
Neko
Awww sorry babes, but you can chat to me on here, I am always updating :)
FLIPZ5
i think im disapearing again soon =/
Neko
Again? Why?
FLIPZ5
yeah, i only stepped back in for a sec.
ehh, for some personal reasons.
but i dont know if i could stay away foreverrrrrr tho.
robertandshana
aww you added myspace same time i did. i added it in summer 2004. i'm glad we did get to meet. even though it was on gods girls i saw you and added you and then added your myspace. so its not thanks to myspace that we met. but we did talk a lot on it. i just don't want to loose touch. hope all is well!! and i will have to keep up with you more threw this!! sorry i was a lousey friend on myspace in the past wks. just been busy with the move, finding a house, trying to find a job, not finding a job, takin care of baby, etc. love ya! xoxo
Neko
You were never a lousy Myspace friend at ALL!!!! I know you're busy, real lives are important too!!! We shan't lose touch <3
robertandshana
good to know!! you're sucha sweet girl!!! *KISSES* XOXOXOXO
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you popped eight valium and you remember everyhing? wow